Hello! So im kinda new to Secret life fandom. I've recently become a fan of the show. But i do love Amy and Ricky! They make such an adorable couple! Anyways I am new to writing about them and the show but i've written before about other shows. And i was watching an episode and this idea kinda came to my head.

Now it takes place around the last couple of episodes in the second season. Nobody knows of the prenancy of Adrian yet. And Amy and Ben are not together. So yea.

Enjoy!

It's funny how you share a baby with her. But you still can't have her.

Its sad and pathetic how much you want her. How much you want everyone to just shut up so that if you walked up to her and talk to her, people wouldn't talk crap.

Everyone knows everything. Nothing stays secret for long except this. No one really knows about how you feel.

And she's had that serious boyfriend. He was perfect for her, that you knew. You couldn't help but be envious of him. Cause you wanted to hold and tell her you love her and not have her pull away. She hates you for having your baby. And she has no idea how much that hurts.

You admit you were a jerk. You had all these girls throwing themselves at you and not once did you say no. And sometimes you feel like Chuck Bass in Gossip Girl (You never watch the show but she loves it). But you feel as if you found your Blair.

Sure, you had fun with them. With Adrian and Grace and a whole bunch of other girls. But in reality, Adrian was just someone to make you forget Her. And Grace was a challenge you wanted to do. But eventually all those girls would bore you or start wanting you to be that commited guy. The guy no one thinks you are. The guy you are only for her.

For Amy.

You honestly never felt this way about anyone and maybe just maybe you love her. Your not sure but your shrink think so.

But she doesn't think so. Nobody think so. Your ex girlfriend truly hated Her. Her ex boyfriend couldn't stand you. You've both broken up with said exes But you still see her eyes light up when her ex walks by the room. You shrug and pretend that it doesn't hurt. And you really don't care what happens to your ex. She was there but she was mean and manipulative. And Its funny and sad that your ex didn't paid much attention to John. But it always killed you to see her boyfriend playing daddy to your baby.

Your Baby. The one you share with her. Yeah, he's beautiful and as gotten all the right features from you and her. And you love him so much. You want to thank her everyday for bringing this beautiful baby boy into this world. And sure there was a time that raising kids was the farthest thing from your mind but now you couldn't imagine not being a father.

John. The only thing you two can agree on is the things with John. Its the only time she'll pay attention to you. Its sad and weird but that's how it has to be.

So recently you've been putting this wall up with her. It scares you to think how much you love her. How much you just want to run off and be a family. You three. Together.

But you still cant do that. You still have to put on this mask and believe you don't care. That your only there for John. That you don't love her. That she doesn't love you. When in reality she doesn't. And so should you.

Your life is complicated, cruel and strange. And usually you don't get what you want but then... that just life.