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Warning: Slash, Incest. Regulus/Sirius. Oneshot.
It's sickening – how you kiss me, how you move underneath me and how you say you love me. It's wrong and sinful. Every night you sneak into my room and under my covers, and touch me, tease me. I lose control when you sit on my lap, moan my name and beg me to take you and make love to you. I always felt so complete when we'd sleep together afterwards.
God, I was enraged when you told me you had joined the Death Eaters. I asked if you knew that joining them would require you to do things you never, ever imagined doing – cruel, sickening things. And you stared at me before you burst out in tears. You had to torture and kill a muggle child. And I held you in my arms, kissed your salty lips and promised I would always be there for you. You cried yourself to sleep and we stayed in the cold wood floor until dawn.
And you know, and I know, that fate is against us. Not only because you're a Death Eater, and I'm supposed to fight you. Not only because your beliefs sicken me and contradict everything I fight for but simply because we're brothers. And brothers are not supposed to love each other – at least not in this way. Society condemns our love, and somehow I feel I should feel ashamed. I just can't. Not when you're around. If our love gives us a glint of happiness in this heartless war, why should I feel ashamed?
I thought our love would last forever. It didn't. It didn't because you were killed and I was thrown in Azkaban for a crime I wasn't guilty of committing. I grieved your death everyday of my life. A part of me died with you.Years passed, and I finally escaped from that hell and met my godson. I felt so good. I hadn't felt that good since you passed away.
Oh love, you would've loved Harry. He's such a sweet kid. Then again, the ministry still believed I was guilty and I had to hide. I travelled away from England, but still I ended up coming back to the noble house of Black. Our house. I didn't have peace though. Our house was the Order of Pheonix's headquarters. I was half-dead. The meetings tired me, and the house was full of people. I never let them inside your room though. I would spend so many hours there, thinking of you and our time together. I looked forward to finally meeting you again.
I won't have to wait anymore. I'm falling in this veil of darkness but I'm not scared for I know you'll be there. You've been waiting for me all these years, haven't you? Oh, how I missed you. Your face is all I see now. I realised long ago that we've got the same blue eyes, the same pale skin and the same dark hair. We're so much alike and yet so different. And now I can feel your warmth, your arms around me. I can hear your soft whisper.
"What took so long, Sirius? I have been waiting for you, my love."
"I'm here now, Regulus. I'm here now." And then I just kissed you honey-like lips.