Chapter 1: Prologue

I looked at him, he was talking to Amanda. He held her hand…..and I felt like walking over to her right then and telling her to keep her hands to herself. I shook my head…..

No! No! No! I was not falling for that idiot moronic amazingly handsome guy. He was nobody in my life! Except for my stupid classmate. Oh! I wish he was more than that. My heart sank at the realization that he had never seen me that way and why would he? I was no one special, just an ordinary girl…..

He was holding Amanda by her waist and smiling as he went near to tell her a secret in her ear…a secret I will never know…

I shut my eyes tightly and continuously repeated one thing in my head I am not falling for him! I am not falling for him! I turned around so that I would not be able to see him and then slowly opened my eyes…..

No Way! He was standing right in front of me smiling, my mouth fell open and my eyes widened in disbelief. He started to laugh as he saw my face…..but I just shook my head….

Was I having another of those dreams about him? Was he a magician? I mean…..ugh!

I composed my face and said as harshly as I could "What happened Black?"

Sirius Black the heartbreaker as many girls called him, who had dated almost half the female population in Hogwarts had called me, better, spoken to me (not that normally he doesn't) and what had I done? Spoken to him harshly! But isn't this what he deserved, that idiotic fool? Of course I agree that I myself would want to date him, just so that I was in his arms and he would tell me that he loved me but then I know he will break my heart and that was what I feared.…..wait! I am thinking like those stupid fan girls again! Shaking my head to get rid of such thoughts I glared at him.

He tried to compose his face but failed miserably…I crossed my arms and waited for him to compose himself and the best he could do was stop laughing by biting his lower lip as he said "Quidditch"

"What?"

"Quidditch practice" he repeated.

I sighed and asked "When?"

"Tomorrow at 6:30 in the evening"

"No" I groaned "I have got to teach my sister some stuff in potions which she cannot understand."

He smiled and said "Why do you have to teach your younger sister…. I mean she is big enough to do things on her own, you don't really need to get after her"

I looked at him, he was always trying to prove that he was better than me, but no, he wasn't and without knowing I blurted out "I guess you are right, that is why your brother Regulus is what he is right now, a death eater!"

His smile vanished, hurt replaced it but even that disappeared as soon as it came and he stood there staring at me with cold eyes. My eyes widened with realization of what I had just said.

"You better watch your tongue when you start to speak about my family." He said in a manner that sent chills down my back.

I stood there rooted to the ground staring into his eyes and then without a word ran up to my dormitory….I knew I had done a mistake by saying that, but sometimes he was so irritating that I could not help it, it just came to me and before I can stop myself I had already hurt him.

He was there standing so close to me, I felt he needed to move away but no….he was just coming nearer and nearer to me. He was telling that I had insulted him and had hurt him. I was no better than his stupid fan girls but when I tried to scream, to tell him how much better I was no voice came out and my cries for reassurance became vain. And then I was falling down deep into darkness…..

My eyes opened, I checked to find myself on my four poster bed, I always had these kind of dreams about Sirius Black and me…god knows what they meant.

I was drenched in sweat (why? God knows), I looked up at the clock, it was 5:00 in the morning, everyone was sleeping….. I lay back on my bed and started to think of everything and anything except about Sirius Black…..but it was impossible. The only thing which I thought was 'what was not there in me which was there in everyone else'. I agree that my younger sister Claire is better looking than me and that I was always a late bloomer like in 5th year everyone already had started looking mature and Lily had stared to get her curves but me, I had still not got them, I yet was just the way I was in my 3rd or 4th year. I frowned. Ok! No more thinking of all this. I am only in my 5th year and Christmas has not even come yet. I have just started this year, so maybe by the end of the Christmas break I too will be looking mature. I shrugged and got up to take a book for me to read, sleep had completely abandoned me. It was a muggle book Pride and Prejudice (which Lily had given me as a Birthday present this year). I took it to the common room to sit beside the fire place and read. As I reached the fire place, I saw Sirius sitting near the fireplace and staring into the fire. I froze, I started to feel guilty for what I had done yesterday night, I wanted to apologize but how was the million galleon question…maybe I should just walk back in the dormitory and go to sleep before he notices me and then later get up and say sorry once my speech was ready…..this was a good plan…clever me!

"Greene?" Sirius said startled. I looked at him he was staring at me; he looked tired as if he had not slept the entire night. In fact, I had my suspicions that it was partly or maybe fully because of me.

"Black" I greeted him. Wow! Both our surnames are colors. "I am very sorry for yesterday evening, I really didn't mean to hurt you…..like….it sometimes just happens, I say something without thinking"

And the only thing he did was smile. Not really a happy smile, more of a sad smile. Oh! I hate to see him like this.

"You really don't need to apologize, in fact I think you are right, maybe if I had actually been like you I could have stopped him from being such a jerk" he said

I nodded

"So when are you planning to take my classes" he said smiling.

I took a sharp breath. He looked so good to be true when he gave me that charming smile "What do you mean?" I asked in a whisper confused.

"Take classes on how to be a good elder brother or sister"

I sat down on the couch and just ignored him as I opened my book to read.

"What…..don't want me to uncover one of your other secrets, June Greene?" he asked with one eyebrow raised.

I pretended to read, but my mind wandered off to a distant memory…..and when I looked up at Sirius, I knew he was thinking the same thing as me.