I walked out the door to leave Luke and his family to themselves. Luke followed me out to say goodbye and once again asked if I was over Rory. 'Why does he always ask me that?' I thought, but swiftly answered that yes, I was very much over her. I said a final goodbye to Luke and that I would see him tomorrow on his big day, but as Luke walked back in the house and closed the door, I walked over to the window and looked in. There she was, my beautiful Rory. Except she isn't mine. My face fell and I thought about how our journey has been so far. I could admit it wasn't the greatest love story, but I do still love this woman so very much.
After her visit to Truncheon Books so many years ago I was convinced that she would never be mine and we would never speak again. I figured I would see her on some family occasions, because Lorelai and Luke were together, but I could avoid her otherwise. My heart broke that day she came to Truncheon and I wasn't willing to let it all go just yet. And I did avoid her most of the time and only shared pleasantries with her on family occasions, but other than that I tried my best to let her go.
But everytime I am in the same room as her my heart will skip a beat and I catch myself checking if she has a ring on her finger yet. The day I heard from Luke that she did not accept his proposal I was extremely happy. Even if I could not have her I still wanted her to be happy and I never thought she would be happy with that blonde dick.
But one day she walked into Truncheon once again and she had a very determined look on her face. She marched up to me and told me that we needed to talk. I simply nodded and led her upstairs to my office. I had once lived above Truncheon, but moved out and turned my old room into an office. She sat down in the armchair across from my desk and looked at me sternly. I chuckled and looked at her slightly amused. I was wondering what she would say, but was happy that she came to see me.
"We need to talk!" she said "Because I know you have been avoiding me the last 2 years and even at our family gatherings you hardly speak to me and just disappear to 'talk to Luke' or whatever."
"Rory... Look..."
"No Jess, no. I know that I hurt you 2 years ago when I came in here and kissed you and left again." Jess cringed at that. "And I know that you know that I am very sorry about that and also that I rejected Logan's proposal on my graduation day. So why haven't you and I had a normal, adult conversation yet? Do you seriously think you can keep avoiding me forever? Because let me tell you, I won't let that happen. Everything that happened will not be forgotten, but I think we should forgive eachother and move on from the past. I wonder how you are and I have to ask Luke while you are right there. That isn't fair Jess. You know how sorry I am. And I forgive you for everything that's happened since you came to Stars Hollow, but do you forgive me? I would like to be friends Jess, to just be able to talk to you once in a while and get updated on your life and share mine with you." Her rants would never change he smiled.
"Rant over Gilmore? Good. Listen now. I have missed you like crazy and I would love to share my life with you, I just didn't know where we stood and if you wanted me in your life. I hate Logan and I didn't want you to feel caught in the middle. But I am sorry for avoiding you for so long and yes I do forgive you for everything that's happened. I want to be your friend and move on."
"Good."
"Yes, very. So... How are you?"
I'm smiling at the memory and look at her for a moment longer. I turn around and head over to Liz and TJ for the night. Oh how I wishes I could have stayed here with Rory. My beautiful Rory.
The last 8 years we have been talking a lot. Email, phone calls, visits. And I love that we can talk again and I am able to share my life with her. If only I could just win her back again... Damn. I'm a broken record. But I can't help it, she is the reason for me succeeding in life after all. She is intelligent, beautiful, decisive, stubborn and my best friend. She is always there and the girls I dated over the years just didn't hold a candle to his Rory.