Rodger knew he loved Mark form the moment he had met him, but that didn't matter now. Mark was gone. Mark had gone to be with Angle and Mimi on Dec 24. Mark died for AIDS, just like Angle and Mimi. Just like how Collins, Maureen, and he are going to go. Damnit Mark was supposed to have outlived all the other Bohemians. This scared Rodger. This scared him shitless, but none of that mattered anymore because his Mark was gone. His Marky was gone from him for all eternity; because he knew he would never make it to heaven.