Hey! Okay, this is my second Twilight fic. It's from Jacobs POV. So...enjoy!
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Jacob's Immortal
I watched her pain, everyday the pain it took for her just to stay human. To be away from Edward. When he left, I wiped away all of her tears, I protected her from all of her fears. I loved her. But she could never love me back, no not with him. Still I waited and waited. I truly believed she could love me. But I know I was wrong. So I sit and wait. Even though I want to fight.
Right now, at this very moment, Bella, my Bella, is becoming a vampire. The very thing I hated most, and I couldn't love her more. I'd imagine the pain she's going through, excruciating fire. I wish I didn't love her. I wish I could forget her, but I can't.
Everything, everything we've ever done, will stay behind with me, forever. I'm still bound to it, and nothing is stronger. The life she's leaving behind will always live on. Bella is dead, even though she tells me she's still here. Every time I try and shake this feeling, it keeps coming back. It won't leave me alone. I can't stop thinking about it and trying to fight it. Still, I know I can't, there's no way I could, but I can't let Bella go. No, not like that.
When he left, I stayed with her. I waited, until she needed me, because I knew she did. She was barely human, stumbling along, not able to feel, tear stained cheeks all the time, though she didn't really know what she was crying about. She'd lost him, but she didn't realize that she gained me. When she showed up at my house, I always let her in, even if I shouldn't have. Everyday, warm sodas and car repair. I knew she didn't really like it, but she liked spending time with me. And that's what made it worth while.
I had a plan. A plan that was flawless, and it would have worked, if Bella jumped just a second later. If I hadn't been so stupid and told Edward about the funeral, she would be here with me now, human, happy, in love, with me. If he didn't exist, I know we'd be together, forever. But he does, this does. I don't know what to do, or where to go. Just that I have to stop it, but I can't.
She loves him, and he loves her. But so do I. I'm trapped in a steal box. Caught forever without a chance of moving. I'm trapped in by my childish fears. If I stop them, she'll hate me forever, but if I don't, she'll be exactly like them. I caught deeper and deeper in tragedy. I can't stop dreaming about her, every single thought lingers on her. I love her and I always will. She's my imprint, even though she never can be. I hide all of these thoughts from my brothers, and I wonder if they hear me now. But it won't matter, because I'll be running soon anyway. Still all of those memories, her laugh, her smile, her beautiful brown eyes, not gold, not a vampire. Even if it gives her eternal life, she's only dying. She's only killing me.