A/N- I have major writer's block for my other fic, so here you go. The first of many short oneshots to come. I kind of like this style, so I might use it again. I also like this fanfic better than the other one, despite it being a little OOC.

This is very loosely based on Jennette's youtube version of"What Hurts the Most"

Disclaimer: I don't own icarly

You knew it! You don't care what carly says, he doesn't give a damn about you. And then some annoying voice in your head is telling you that you're lying to yourself. He forgives you, he kisses you when no one else would, and he hangs out with you even knowing that you might kill him. He even stands up to you sometimes. Everyone else is scared of you, but he sticks by you no matter what.

But… you trusted him, thought he would help you when nobody else would. And he betrayed you, just like everybody else did. You thought you could trust your dad, but he left. You thought you could trust your mom, but she just left you at home, while hanging out at a bar with some random slut. You thought you could trust your sister, but she left you alone. You once thought you could trust Carly too, but now all she thinks about is Chris. And even after all that, you for some reason decided to trust Freddie. You let him see your vulnerable side, more than once. And you asked him for help! You trusted him! And again, you were betrayed.

Then suddenly it hit you like a ton of bricks. There was a reason nobody cared about you. It's because you didn't deserve to be cared about. You treated everybody like shit, especially Freddie, and he hung out with you anyway. You didn't think about any of this. After all of this, did you really expect him to believe you?

For some reason, a tear was falling down your cheek. Maybe you could go apologize, but it wouldn't matter. Besides, that isn't your style. Then again, putting yourself in the hands of a dorky guy isn't really your style either. Still, he'd never forgive you. You had your chance to love him, to let him love you, and you lost it.

You're your thoughts keep going back to that one night, that one damn night that started it all, the night you decided to trust him, to let down your walls and let someone see the real you, and the way he told you he hated you. It was the reason you were sitting on the fire escape on the eighth floor of Bushwell Plaza, waiting for him to come out and tell you that he loved you, even though you know that will never happen. You wish you could go back in time, and take back everything you said. If you had just told him that you loved him. It would've been that easy, but at the same time it wasn't because you were, well, afraid. Okay, fine, YOU WERE SCARED! Scared of what it would mean for the future, of what would happen of he didn't love her, of your own self.

Still, you could've just told him, and maybe he would be here with you right now, in the fire escape. You could be in his arms right now, looking at the night sky together, instead of crying your heart out.

But instead- wait, hold on, he's coming down the hallway. He's sitting down near you. He's grabbing your hand, and holding it tenderly, like he really cared. Even after everything you've done to him, he came.

"Hey," he says. That's all he said, and you smile for the first time in days.

All you do is smile, and you feel like the luckiest person in the world.

So, how'd you like it? Please review!

Oh, and just so you know, I have no plans for more chapters or a sequel, but if enough people want it, I might write a prequel to it. No promises though.

Btw, would you head up to my profile and vote in the poll? Thanks!

-Stella