Derek's pov
Best friends forever that's what we said right and we are so why does it feel like I want more than that. Yeah that's right im gay for my best friend ive been in denial for a really long time. But now I can finally admitted to myself and not be ashamed. I just haven't really told anyone if I do people will never look at me the same. Im not going to be known as Derek venturi Mr. Cool ill be known as Derek venturi the school fag.
Im also scared of my family disowning me so Ive kept this part of me to myself.
Trust me it's not an easy thing I hate lying to them I wish I can be openly about it but I just hide through my scars.
I sighed as I saw Sam with the one person I hated the most Casey my stepsister. Yeah I know they say your suppose to love your family woahhh calm down im not saying I don't I do. I just despise her why you ask because if someone asked me in a few words how I would describe Casey. A stupid self centered stuck up know it all prep who gets everything handed to her on a silver platter. She complains about everything and the fact that she's going out with my Sam makes me hate her even more.
The way she touches Sam kisses Sam hurts Sam gets me so angry. What's even more annoying is when they break all the time yes there one of those on again off again types.
I know I could never have Sam but I still call him my Sam cause before Casey even came along he was my Sam. No, no, no, no I know what you're thinking were we dating no we weren't Sam was that best friend I was telling you about. But oh how I wish we were dating so I can actually claim him as mine. But I know I can't because Sam's not gay he will never be gay so I have to let him go and be happy. His happiness is the most important thing to me however his happiness with Casey only last like 5 minutes.
Why you ask after those five minutes they either got into a huge fight or broken up.
Then I have to hold him while he's shedding tears because of the stress she's giving him.
School got out and im watching TV downstairs in my coach Sam and I were suppose to hang out today however he's not here. So im guessing he made up with Casey again.
I know you're shocked right now seeing the famous Derek venturi jealous well I am and I can't help it ever since they started dating. I barley see Sam anymore and that just brings me more pain. So I turned off the TV and decided to go and take a nice shower jeez it feels like when im taking a shower it's the only place I can think. As I was done I grabbed my robe that was hanging on the shelf turned off the pipe and wrapped myself.
But little did I know I was in for a big surprise as I opened my door I jumped in embarrassment as I saw Sam laying on my bed.
"Hey you okay" I asked with concern but slightly embarrassed because I was in my robe.
"Mm yeah" I knew that right there he was lying so I went over and closed my door and took a seat next to him.
Their you go guys should I continue or no?