SHOW ME THE MEANING OF BEING LONELY
WARNING: "This fic will contain swearing, death, and a
suicidal attempt. So be warned about the content of this fic."
Additional Notes: "I received some complaints about the confusing
POV. Well, I added a few more things to the story. So, hopefully it would clear
things up in the end much better."
Show me the meaning of being lonely
The rain fell down and splattered over the umbrella as a
figure stood in front of a grave inside of a cemetery. Sullen eyes looked over
the name of the friend that this tortured soul missed that were carved in the
cold, unforgiving, rock.
So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me, and maybe
"It's two months." the voice whispered. "Two
long months that you've been gone and every waking day I miss you being there
for me being as a good friend." A tear slowly rolled down that person's
cheek.
Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free I could feel the sun
Your every wish will be done
They tell me...
The figure knelt down and placed a flower on the grave and
brushed the loose strands of brown hair from her face. "My family told me
it would be alright. That I can and must move on with my life." The figure
whispered and continued. "But, I can't let you go. You're still in my
heart and now you're gone. Damnit, why did it have to happen? Why did this have
to happen to you?"
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can't be there where you are?
There's something missing in my heart
"You were taking away from me and the others at such a
young age. You were just a teenager when death took you away from me. You were
just a teenager. You were just nineteen years old." Closing the eyes and
grinding teeth, "God, you were only nineteen fucking years old."
Life goes on, as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze
If only...
"My friends and family say that you're with me in
soul." Another tear fell down her cheek. "But, I need you here
standing there and being there for me." The body knelt down next to the
grave and spoke again with a quivered voice, "I remember...that blasted
Christmas party that we went to. When we got there, we found out that alcohol
would be served and I foolishly had some of it for myself. You warned me not to
take any, but I didn't listen to you. Shit! Why didn't I listen to you? Why
didn't I? I was such an idiot."
Guilty roads to an endless love,
There's no control.
Are you with me now?
Your every wish will be done.
They tell me
"And when we went home, I said that was able to drive
home but even though you probably knew that I shouldn't, you didn't want to
upset me." Tears fell down more frequently. "Then when our car
crashed in that passing truck, you unfastened your seat belt and jumped in the
way of my body and absorbed almost all of the blow that I deserved. "DAMNIT!
I AM THE ONE WHO SHOULD BE HERE LYING IN A GRAVE! NOT YOU! THIS IS ENTIRELY ALL
MY FAULT SINCE YOU ARE DEAD!!"
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can't be there where you are?
There's something missing in my heart
Collapsing in a heap, the tears of anguish and undeniable
pain continue to rack the body of this tormented soul. With hands fumbling
through her bag, a knife was pulled out of a bag. Entranced by its glistening
shine, fingers ran up and down the sharp blade. "I should do this, since I
am the one who deserves death."
There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go.
Surrender my heart, body, and soul.
How can it be you're asking me to feel
the things you never show?
"Just like a Shakespearean tragedy. Romeo and Juliet,
perhaps?" the soft voice whispered out in silence. "This is it."
The blade rested on the cold arm of the emotionally tortured figure. Whispering
a prayer, the tear-strained face looked up at the gray sky.
You are missing in my heart
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
"Good-bye everyone. I'm sorry." After the apology
to everyone who was in the soul's life was given, two quick swipes of the blade
and a cross of red appeared on the arm as blood started to trickle from the
arm. Collapsing on the tombstone, a small smile crept across the face.
"I'll be with you in life and now I'll be with you in death." Closing
her eyes, she whispered. "You were always in my dreams."
Show me the meaning of being lonely.
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can't be there where you are?
There's something missing in my heart.
Two boys walked up to that same grave. However, this time a
new and accompanying grave lay nearby.
"I can't believe it." one of the guys said. "Two
of the closest people in our lives are gone never to return again."
Getting down on one knee, one of the guys placed the flower
on one of the graves. "Where did we go wrong?"
The other figure placed a single flower on the other grave
and looked at his friend. "I don't know." He placed his hand on the
arm of his friend. "It just somewhere we failed being there for
them."
"Man, I can't believe it Taichi." the blonde boy
got up and began to walk away from the grave. "Where did I go wrong being
an older brother?"
Taichi looked at his friend. "I don't know Yamato.
That's a question I can't even answered since I wondered about that same
question."
Show me the meaning of being lonely.
(BEING LONELY!)
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can't be there where you are?
There's something missing in my heart.
The two guys walked away leaving the two graves standing
next to each other. On one of the tombstone, it read....
Here lies....
Takeru "T.K." Takeishi
1991-2010
You were taking in the youth of your life but you'll always
be there in our hearts.
Standing next to his grave carved on the new tombstone with
the symbol of light, the tombstone read.
Rest in Peace
Hikari "Kari" Yagami
1991-2011
Since you're gone, we lost the light that you've given to
us. Farewell.
End
