Here's another story of mine 'My Hated Life' please read and review I don't know to continue on with story or not so…review!
"Kikari go to your room and stay there! It was a mistake we ever had you! We feed you, put a roof over your head and all you do is stand there and think? JUST GO TO YOUR DAMN ROOM!" Her mother's sharp voice rang through the old apartment, shaking the house…again…for the 17th year she's been alive.
It hurt…
What she had to go through each day. Yes, she was only seventeen, but her knowledge was way beyond her years. There was only one word and feeling she could put to her life…
Pain…
Even hearing the word made it echo through her mind a thousand times. Her thoughts were organized, but yet…so confused and screwed up. Like her past…Her name? Her cursed name that her bloody parents had given to her their 'mistake' child? It was Kikari. They loved her…only around people, but when they were alone in there house they beat her and killed her sprit inside ever since she was born, the 'mistake' child as they would like to call her was just a mistake in life never to become anything except a whore or bitch for some rich soul. That's what her parents think of her.
Oh would she love to prove them wrong…to make them suffer like she had to, for them to beg at her feet and apologize to her, so she could cry in front of them and they would care, but then…
What would that accomplish?
You can't change somebody's option just like you can't change them. She still smiled though, secretly of course to herself, she didn't do it often, but only when she remembered she only had one more year of this until her eighteenth birthday, her parents would kick her out that day, and to her it couldn't come any sooner…
She had a job, down town out course at one of the side stores of the mall 'hott topic' they called it. One of her very, very few friends had gotten it for her, Mya. She was the 'bad girl' of her little threesome. Of course Her, herself was dark in her own ways, but Kikari was different than everyone else, she always or usual dressed in black, blood red, or dark blue. Many people were scared of her. 'Like they should be' Kikari thought to herself. Because she was so dark looking, people called her, 'a demon from hell' she hated that, so she was different was it a crime? She hated everything about her public school, the way people were in groups, and how people treated one another by they way they looked or acted on the outside. But who are they to judge? They don't know a single thing about the person and here they go making names and cruel jokes just because of the way they look? It made her sick. For all they know there parent could have been just killed, or they lost a sister or brother in the war, or maybe just came from a hard situation that they didn't even have a choice in? WHO ARE THEY TO JUDGE? Kikari sighed to clam herself down…this always happened when she thought about how her stupid world worked.
"Fine." She mumbled as she knocked herself out of her thoughts and slammed the rag back down on the kitchen floor as she stood up to leave. She was as usual every Sunday cleaning the damn kitchen floors. Like they NEEDED to be cleaned. Her mother sounded like the world would end if she didn't clean the stupid floors. She sighed and tiptoed quietly back to her room. If she woke up her father again, she would most likely be beaten harder. It was horrible how her mother could scream and shake the house and he wouldn't wake up, but if she made one squeak on the floor board her father would slam open the door and glare her down then he would slam her to the wall and beat her. She hated it, it was like he was looking for an excuse to beat her…
She quietly tiptoed to her room '3 more steps' she thought to herself. She's done this so many times that she remembered how many damn steps she had to take to get to her room and she STILL though people were worst off than her…she was hopeless
'One more step' she thought as she slowly, but skillfully took the last step. She was a master at this now she done it all her life…'a little more weight' she was perfect she had to be… 'Wait! TOO MUCH!'
Squeak
'Oh great now she was going to get it…'Slam
"KIKARI HOW MANY? DAMMIT! HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU? BE QUIET!" Her father screamed at her as he waved his fist in the air.
'Please father! I didn't mean too!' That's what Kikari would say when she was seven or eight, but she was too used to this begging did nothing, but make it worst, they called her a coward begging at people's feet asking for forgiveness. Instead she lifted her head and glared at him with her icy blue eyes. She stood straight up and glared at her father, the one that was suppose to protect her, the one that was suppose to laugh and cry with her, and the blood that was running through her veins and keeping her alive was half his, she was as much apart of him as he was her, if that was true then how come he didn't feel her pain when he hit her, or have any regrets about hitting his only daughter? Did he not bleed when someone's cut him like she did?
She continued to glare at him, awaiting the hit and the came with full force to back it up.
Wham
Kikari fell to the floor unconscious, she always got up usually if he hit her, but this time it was in the face, right on her left cheek. He never really hit her there unless he was really angry. She was a pretty strong for her small arms and legs and pettiness to her, but her father was also pretty strong to since he was a boxer in his day…she still hated him.
Midnight
"Oooooo" Kikari moaned to herself as she stood up. She quickly looked around and realized she wasn't in her room. 'Crap' she quickly cursed, but silently obeyed to the darkness her true friend besides silence, tiptoeing back to her room.
When she reached the safety of her room she quietly closed the door…then sighed when she heard a quiet
Click
'Good now to go and enter the darkness of my mind.' She thought as she slid into her bed and into the darkness with open arms.
In the morning
Beep, Beep, Beep…WAM
"Darn it, I broke my clock again." She mumbled as she turned herself to her clock. Her clock was in piece's…again…'Better get dressed for school' she thought as she stretched her arms and walked to her closet. "Let's see…a blood red baggie shirt with" she moved some over the clothes hangers and found black baggie parents with pockets all over them. "Found them…I've been looking for these for weeks!" she mumbled happily it was still morning and she wasn't a morning person in the least bit.
She ripped the clothes off the hangers and quickly put them on. 'Its nice wearing baggie clothes, I don't really know why people wear skintight clothes anyway. Its not I want to impress anyone. Plus I don't like showing my body off like some of the…cheer freaks…so this is my style of expressing myself.'
She removed the bow from her wrist and pulled her waist length hair into a high ponytail with her bangs in her face cut just above the eyes. 'I love my hair I'd never cut it or dye it' she thought as she smiled on of her rare smiles, hey her life wasn't so bad. She then slipped on her blood red shoes and started making her daily…mother's breakfast. She couldn't afford to make her own breakfast. She turned to make sure that her father hadn't left a burse on her cheek from last night…he did.
"Dammit" Kikari cursed as she left for the kitchen.
"Where is my breakfast Kikari? I knew you were my demon child why don't you use your demon fire to cook it a little faster?" Her mother hissed from there little table leaning on the two back legs of the chair.
"Coming" Kikari quietly said what an empty heart and soul. She didn't want to face the mother she never looked her in the eye like her father. Mostly because when she looked into her mother's eye…she saw that…it hurt more when it came from her mother. She didn't want to really know that her mother meant what she said. "Here you go" Kikari laid her perfectly made bacon, and eggs on the table. "I'm going to school." Kikari weakly said before she picked up her book bag.
"Why? You would be a good whore of somebody if you didn't think and know anything, men like the stupid blonde kind, when ever you want I'll dye you blue hair blonde." Her mother said while engulfing her food whole.
Her mother meant it…its like all she wanted to do was make sure her daughter wasn't better than her. To make sure that she would be right so she could feel some since of smartness left in her. Kikari hated her mother too…she hated both her mother and her father, but yet she still loved them and would still cry at there funeral. They were her parents even if she did hate them…she still loved them.
She thought as she walked out to her bus stop strangely she was pretty close to her school, but she still rode the bus. The bus finally pulled up to her bus stop after a few seconds of waiting. The bus driver smiled at her and opened the doors and as always she stepped in to find the bus chattering away, throwing things in the air, cussing, etc. she hated the bus too…you could even say she hated everything in this stupid world of her's. When she looked over at her 'peers' she glared at all of them. They suddenly all shut up and stopped to look at her, some didn't and looked down to avoid her glare…she had to admit she was pretty scary when she wanted to be.
She gracefully sat down in the only open seat in the very back of her bus, some people sat in the aisle just to make sure she got her 'Kikari's only' seat. She had limited power over her bus, just enough so she got her own seat ALL the time. She remembered all the stupid kids she had to deal with to get that seat of course…
Flashback
A 9-year-old Kikari walked onto the first bus she'd ever ridden. She never really rode a bus because she never really had a reason too until now; she was getting really tried walking in the rain so she decided to ride the bus.
When she stepped on the bus everyone stared at her already like she was a loner never to be sat next to. They all stopped what they were doing just to look at the new 'meat' on the bus. 'Think of all the pranks we could play.' That was all that was going through the little demons minds when she got on that stupid bus that day, of course she would fall for them…
If she was stupid…
But luckily she wasn't and sat at the very back of the bus quietly praying for the bus to go 90 so this 'bus' day could be over.
"Hey there cutie" a little boy said in front of her. He was leaning on the seat in front of her so it was kind of hard to miss him.
"Shut up and leave me alone," Kikari hissed as she turned her head to look out the window. She really didn't know where this guy was going with the questions he was going ask, but he sure wasn't going to get anywhere with her…she was going to give him hell.
"Oooo a feisty one eh? Well come sit next to me and I can make it all better, I can tame you." The boy was getting all her last nerve asking and saying things like that to her, she wasn't going to take this from anyone.
"Did I ask you for a seat? No! So shut up loser!" Kikari hissed. She was thinking reason she could use to hit him…she just had to wait for the right moment and…
"You would be a good little girlfriend for me…"
Wham
Kikari quickly balled her fist up and hit him right in the nose. She was tried of hearing him. She wanted to wait for the right moment, but he temped her. She could have killed him if she him in the nose harder, but then she would be in trouble with her parents and they would hit her harder than they usual do, and she would also make a bad 'first impression' on her new high school and she really didn't want to do that…yet…
"YOU BROKE MY BLOODLY NOSE!" The boy screamed as he held his badly bleeding nose in his hands. Soon his hands ad blood steaming down to his arms.
"I told you to shut up." Kikari turned her head back to the window then smirked "Oh and you might want to get that checked."
"You-"
Screech
The bus stopped and the boy jumped from his seat and pushed everyone out of the way. 'He didn't even get to finish his sentence…pity' Kikari thought to herself as she elegantly sat up to walk off the bus after him, since everyone else was to busy staring at her and then at the boy she hit to even care about getting off the bus. 'Good now they know not to mess with me'
As soon as Kikari stepped off the bus…
"Ms. Wander! Come with me!" a old lady dressed in a gray suit demanded her as she looked down at her with her gray eyes…she was at least 60. Then there was all the 'aaawww's' from the bus and from all the students around her…it HAD to be the principal of the school…'so much for a good impression…' Kikari thought to her self as she followed her into the school.
End of Flashback
The bus came to a complete stop as she got up oh-so-gracefully from her seat. She loved to flaunt her power. As usual she was the first one off the bus even though she was in the back of the bus. Her peers were to scared to even get in front of her when she was walking…how pathetic…
As she hoped off the bus her two and only best friends Mya and Rena met her. "Hey Mya, hey Rena what going on?" she asked trying to sound happy…even though it sounded more of a mumbling…it was still morning to her.
"Nothing much you?" Mya asked Rena.
Mya of course was the bad girl of the group, not the skintight clothes wearing one, but she still came pretty close. She had her a little passed shoulder length green emerald hair pinned back in a bun on her head, leaving a few strains left to cover her dark purple eyes. She wore a bright lime green shirt saying 'don't-mess-with-me' on it and short black skirt on. Mya always bugged her about the way she dressed in her baggie pants, she always said to her 'If you wore better clothes you could have a lot of guys going after you.' But she didn't want any stupid guys going after her. Mya on the other hand was a guy freak. She loved hanging out with guys almost more than her and Rena. You could say in all she was somebody you couldn't trust…if you judged her on the outside. Because Kikari actually took the time to hang out with Mya and understand more about her Mya was a very loyalty person. If someone every hurt her Mya was the kind of girl that would come to the person's house with a shotgun and kill them. She didn't care if she went to jail. It just proved her point even further. Don't judge people on the outside.
"No you Kikari?" Rena asked smiling. Oh boy…then there was Rena…where does she start. Rena was the 'happiest' person in her little threesome. Rena had short Blonde hair the hung just above her shoulders, she didn't have bangs though instead her hair was all one length. She usually tucked her hair back behind her ears so you could see her red/blue eyes, they were mixed for some odd reason. She had on basely the same type of clothes Mya had, She was wearing a plain dark blue shirt with a cut off sleeves jacket. She also had on jean shorts, hey it was spring and it was pretty hot, but Kikari wasn't the one to show off her legs in public especially when she still had bruises on them. Rena biggest problem with Kikari was that she kept secrets. Rena and Mya didn't know about the whole 'abused' thing Kikari made sure that was kept under wraps. Rena was noble more than loyally, not that Kikari was saying that Rena wouldn't come to her parents house and shoot them with Mya if she knew what they were doing to her, she would do that with a smile on her face if it helped Kikari, but Rena was into knowing the 'whole Kikari' and she does…mostly.
Basely Mya and Rena were her best friends and knew about her more than the whole school combined, but Kikari would die if something happened to them. "Nothing…" Kikari tried to hide the burse on her left cheek by turning her head away from them.
"What are you hiding? You know I hate it when you hide something…" Rena whined as she crocked her head to the side to see her face "How did you get that burse?"
'Think fast Kikari' she thought to herself as she turned her head to them "Um-uh you see I was…well running and I slipped on my stairs and ended up hitting my cheek in the step." She played with her fingers a bit to easy the tension. She could lie to anybody and it convenes them she was telling the truth she was so good, but when it came to her friends…she might as well lie to god she was so bad.
Mya looked at Rena as Rena at Mya and they both raised an eyebrow at each other. "Liar" they said in unison. "You can tell us later though because we have to get to class early…little miss I-didn't-come-to-school-yesterday has to make up a test." Mya glared at Rena.
"Its not my fault my mom put it on a school day! Maybe if the doctor came in the moment I walked in so I wouldn't have to read the damn fishing books!" Rena hissed.
"Come on we are wasting time!" Kikari grabbed Rena wrist and pulled her to the classroom.
"You're about to go in the middle of the peps conversation…" Rena warned as Kikari pulled her.
"They should be blocking the way I don't care." Kikari snapped as she pushed the 'cheerleaders' apart and she continued walking. Some being 'so weak' got pushed into the dirt while still standing and the others to the wall. "It's a small path anyway."
Kikari was almost away before she heard something that made her angrier than anything in the world.
"Hey bitch watch where you're going!" On of the cheerleaders hissed as she fell back to the dirt. "You ruined my shoes! I'm sewing you!" the other one snapped, but what ticked her off the most was when the 'head' cheerleader pulled her ponytail pulling her back. 'No body pulls my hair' Kikari hissed in her thoughts as her eyes turned into little slits and she turned to face the cheerleader hanging on to her boyfriend.
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