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Chapter One

Breath

Isabella Swan. 18 Years old, has lived in Forks since High School. She knows about the Cullen's and their secret. The Quileute's Secret was never revealed. After Graduation, Edward couldn't go through with his promise to Bella and decided that it would be better to leave again, and forever this time, than to be hounded constantly and guilt tripped every time the subject came about.

The Last thing Edward had said to her was, "I would never and could never take away the beating of your heart that pumps life into you." He moved the strands of hair from her face brushing his cold fingers along her jawline and down her neck. Bella wasn't able to stand anymore her body had been pushed to it maximum. Her body was shutting him out she wanted to apologize and take back what she had said to him earlier that day, about hating him for giving her false hopes of 'forever'. It was like one of the bad dreams where something in the shadows is chasing you but you're running in place, but Edward was walking away and all she could do was reach out. She knew what was happening her subconscious' need to run away and hide from the stress of losing him again.

The next thing Bella knew, she was in her room staring at her ceiling.

Breath. Just Breath. It's alright the pain goes away…sort of.

Bella spent all July and August trying to find a trace of the Cullen's. Nights of no sleep, and when she did get sleep she woke up to the suffocating knowledge that she was alone.

August 30th. Creeeeek! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! Breath. Just Breath. Her new Mantra made her laugh at herself every time. My body knows to breath! Why do I keep telling myself to breathe? Wow, I have issues.

Charlie had walked in with a small alarm clock.

"Time to wake up Bells! Last day to get enrolled at PC!" Charlie's voice sounded a little too happy to be waking me up at 8 in the morning. Practiclly falling out of her bed Bella lays in a heap of tangled blankets with her head on the old hardwood floors. The cold flooring stung her face at first, closing her eyes images of the past came to her. Bella quickly snapped her head away from the floor.

Never again. I will not waste away, again, longing for him. I will, I have to, move on. Today.

August signified the end of summer, the end of her trying to find Him, trying to fight for a relationship that had been broken for along time. Charlie had been hard on Bella for the last week to get into Peninsula College and see if they will take late enrollment. Today was last chance to get in. Bella was amped up to move on.

Shower. Check.

Hair actually dried and styled. Check.

Dressed in real people clothes. Check.

Bella glanced up at herself in the mirror. Something was missing. She rummaged around in the back of the bathroom drawer for a few seconds. "Found it", Bell said half to herself and half aloud. Charlie was just walking by the bathroom door when she said it.

"Found what Bells?"

Bella opened up the door "What?" she hadn't heard exactly what he had said.

"What. Did. You. Find?" Charlie did his best Alien voice impersonation.

"Oh. Uh. Just a tube of lipstick."

Charlie was almost knocked off his feet. Lipstick? Bella never wears any makeup.

"Oh alright, well, I'm off to work now. Have a good one. Oh and Bells you look…beautiful." He leans down and plants a kiss on her forehead. Charlie has been more willing to show Bella Fatherly affection after reading a few parenting books over this summer. He was a little late on the parenting part but he seemed less worried about Bella, after having some information on the teenage years.

"K. Dad. Bye,"

She turns back to the bathroom mirror and puts a layer of bold red lipstick on.' Wow'. Thought Bella, 'It does look nice'. Bella had on a pair of dark denim jeans that fit just right in all the right places, a Black and White top that was snug over her torso. Her thick Brown hair still had the Strawberry Highlights that the summer sun had brought to the surface, was down and settled just under her shoulder blades. With her thick, dark eyelashes Bella had never needed mascara so she never had worn any make up. She had bought the lipstick sometime last year after being self-conscious about the beauty of the Cullen's and how plan she was. She wore it once around Edward but decided it was too much of a hassle to wash off of her face and Edwards when they got to heated kissing. Today was different she was going to be the lipstick, Bold, outgoing and most of all fun.