Disclaimer: Kingdom Hearts owns me, not the other way around.
Warnings: Somewhat severe angst, what COULD be one sided love (but we all know it aint) and mentions of even more boy love, YAY!

Implode-

Pain.

Oh boy is there pain.

More then the punch-in-the-gut, spit-in-the-face or the break of my already shattering heart I once thought feeling would be like…

He's…

Gone.

Just like that.

My head hasn't yet stopped whirling, but throats still to raw to start to scream again.

Dead.

Blades and all picked up and exterminated. Not a shred of that violent red hair and not a spark of that fire-hot attitude left.

Axel…

And I never even told him…

There's pain atop pain atop pain, worse then anything battle had ever thrown at me, worse now all the more because this is anguish, and I can feel it dammit!

And it's all. My. Fault.

For once it wasn't my somebodys' hands that dealt the finishing blow, and I suppose im grateful for that. Maybe Sora couldn't have killed him anyway, were practically one being now after all.

Still, its my fault.

If I had…

If I hadn't…

No, there's to many of those, to many points were our lives intertwine together for me to pick out the certain moments that caused his death.

Never the less, its all my fault.

Axel…

Stars, how this pain ricochets through me, shattering and breaking everything it can.

Axel…

His name is like a chant now, albeit a broken one.

Axel I…

Heh, cant even say it to myself anymore, but when I left… no one may have missed me, but I missed him a very great deal.

My heart, now that I finally have one, is shattered. But it doesn't feel broken, worse, it feels void. Like it'll pull and pull until I implode.

The I guess no one will know I feel for you what deep-down in his to-innocent heart, Sora knows he feels for Riku. I feel like laughing and touching and feeling with you.

But because of me…

Your dead.

Dead dead dead

And its all my fault.

Sora needs help, I know it, but I don't really think im up for giving a pep-talk… Im imploding here dammit, just lemme implode!

Maybe then I can tell Axel….

Maybe then I can say…

x.o.x.o.x.o

Authors Notes: I think that AxelxRoxas is the saddest pairing in the entire game… BUT I LOVE IT SOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!one!

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