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Esme's Beginning

'God, please. Please God. Please...'

"Esme." A quiet voice interrupted my thoughts.

I looked up into his beautiful face, mesmorized by its perfection. Every feature radiated against his pale white skin. His amber eyes took my breath away, they were warm but extremely troubled.

"Esme. Esme can you hear me?" His golden eyes searched my face, eyes full of...pity?

"Esme, this is about Thomas"

Panic seized my body. "My baby! Oh God, please not my baby!"

He gently took my hand in his and I was shocked by the coldness of his touch, momentarily distracted from my thoughts.

"Esme, Thomas didn't make it. He was too far gone. The fever was too much for him."

Searing pain ripped through my body, then everything went numb. I couldn't move, I couldn't speak, even if I had wanted to. Countless memories overlapped each other in a bid to consume my attention. My childhood, my first kiss, my fiancé, our wedding, the war followed by my husbands funeral. The sweetest memory, the day my baby was born. His angelic face pushing aside every other memory. His smile, the way his fingers grasped mine, how much I loved him, how I could never live without him. With that thought my eyes snapped open, taking in the worried faces surrounding me. My beloved sister, my soft-hearted mother and the god-like doctor with the golden eyes all anxiously awaiting a response from me, any response. But I knew I could never give them what they wanted.

I was numb. My senses dulled. I felt a hand grasp my shoulder and I was hit with a flash of fury. I couldn't focus, all I could see were hot white flashes shooting across my vision. "Get out! Get out! Leave me be!" I screamed.

"Esme...Honey..We just..We.." Stammered my Mother.

"Get out!" I screeched over and over until I heard the beautiful doctor ushering my family from the room with hushed whispers. "Its okay, she'll be okay."

"No, no I won't." I murmured softly as I heard the door shut quietly. I collapsed on the bed cradling Thomas's blanket, breathing in his blessed scent. Then the tears came in a sudden overflow and I cried myself into a state of absolute exhaustion.

I awoke hours, maybe even days later, I wasn't really sure. I struggled to focus my eyes, raw from crying. A singular thought echoed itself throughout my mind; 'Go, finish this.' I was vaguely aware of my physical movements, though seemingly unimportant.

Minutes, maybe hours passed when I suddenly became aware of my surroundings. Sharp rocks scratched the soles of my feet and the air smelled distinctly salty. I glanced down and smiled to myself. 'Yes, this is perfect...' Without hesitating I took a single step forward. I plunged down, free falling through the frigid air. It was pure ecstasy. Reaching the end I felt a hard stabbing pain along my spine and then...nothing.

Seconds, minutes, hours may have passed when I was suddenly pulled out of my dark haven by a sharp pain alongside my throat. Then a strange burning that increased violently until my whole body was writhing in pain.

The agony went on for days while I screamed for death to come. I felt someone grasping my hand, speaking soothing words as the pain gradually ceased. I slowly opened my eyes and found myself staring into that white, perfect face.

And finally, I was at peace.

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