Author's Note: I've always wanted to do a one-shot of Nakao from Hana Kimi. Even if he is a guy, I can relate to what he'd gone through.
Disclaimers applied.
No Choice
It was not like it was a choice. For if it is, then I certainly wouldn't have chosen this and then, I wouldn't have to feel this pain.
But then, I cannot really help it since I fell in love.
I'm sorry...I've always thought of you as my cute junior. But I can't think of you as something more...
It had taken all my courage not to cry in front of him. Because as hurt as I was at that moment, I knew, if I shed a single tear, show any sign of weakness, he would feel guilty. It was not his fault, though. But still, he would. He's just like that, my Nanba-sempai.
I'm sorry...
Told so sadly, with those clear eyes I so adored, looking at me full of regret. I wondered how long I would last before my last shred of dignity shatter. Don't worry. Don't be so serious. I just wanted to let you know what I really feel, actually.
Silence.
I never thought it could be defeaning.
Sempai, do you have something you should do? Saying anything just to escape this quiet limbo we've managed to get into. Well, don't let me keep you any longer! I said cheerfully as I could muster, tilted my head in a way I knew I looked cute in, and smiled.
Smiled like the adoring cute junior Nanba-sempai thought of me to be.
But, dammit, inside I was breaking.
He nodded, threw a sad smile at me, turned around and left.
People say I am weak-willed and frail. A boy who never did any sport was no one special at all. Someone proud of his girly built was nothing but an embarrassment. I had been the brat, the spoiled one in the whole group.
But at that moment, watching him walk away, I had never felt so strong and selfless trying to stop my tears from falling, keeping a smiling face even when my jaw was getting numb just so he would never feel guilty hurting me.
Falling in love...it was not like it was a choice, huh?
OWARI
Author's Note: Reviews and constructive criticisms are very much appreciated.