Vai Greythorn is the English translation of Ai Haibara, if you don't believe me watch the translated movies after #4 and see that I am right

Permanent Losses

Chapter 1

Never Be the Same

Conan Edogawa was walking down the sidewalk on one particularly rainy day. He was looking for a secluded area so he could call Rachel as himself. He hated having to be so sneaky just to talk to the girl he loved, it made him depressed thinking about it.

"This looks like a good place" Conan said running into an alleyway.

He got out Jimmy's cell phone set his bowtie voice modulator to match his old voice and dialed Rachel's number

She picked up the phone "JIMMY WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!!!!!!" Rachel screamed into the phone, nearly breaking Conan's eardrums.

"R-Rachel I'm sorry I haven't been around more it's been case after case over here, I've barely had enough time to breathe" he said trying not to anger Rachel more.

"Jimmy I don't get you sometimes" Rachel said aggravated, but her voice had a hint of sadness "You spend all this time on your 'Big' cases and when your show up it for an hour or two and then you disappear without a trace without saying goodbye half the time, why don't you ever tell me what's really happening"

"Believe me Rachel, I would if I could" He murmured realizing that Rachel was right

"Rachel I have to go now"

"Jimmy, wai-" she slammed the phone on the receiver "That big jerk"

Conan was walking through the rain back to Rachel's house, which was kind of his house now. It's been about 3 months since the men in black gave him the poison shrinking him down to a 6 year old, and he wasn't a bit closer to finding them than he was 3 months ago.

There was a large flash of light followed by a crash "a thunderstorm!" Conan said as the rain started pouring harder, he had the strange feeling something bad was going to happen "I should probably hurry" he said picking up his pace to a run. However, just as the Moore detective agency came into view there was another flash of light. This one had enveloped Conan.

Rachel had heard the crash from the lightning strike, it sounded like it came from outside. She ran outside to see what had happened. When she got outside she saw Conan lying on the ground across the street. Rachel was speechless, she ran over to Conan to see if her suspicions were true. He was laying on the ground his blue eyes fearfully staring into the sky. His arm was clutching his chest, which was moving up and down chaotically like he was trying to breathe.

"Conan hold on" she ran inside to call 911

She ran back outside to the now dying child. His eyes were closed and there was no sign of him even trying to breathe, Rachel ran over to Conan's side again, his eyes were closed, no sign of pain at all, Rachel was sure he was dead.

Later at the hospital 3 hours after incident (because I'm lazy)

Rachel was waiting in the hospital waiting room for some sort of news. She had tried to get in contact with anyone she could, but because her father was out on a case and Jimmy is impossible to reach when she needs to she could only get a hold of Dr. Agasa. He appeared 10 minutes after Rachel called with Vai close by.

"Rachel I came as I heard the news, what happened to J-uhh Conan?"

"I'm not entirely sure but I think he was struck by lightning" Rachel said worried

"Most people can't survive being struck by lightning" Vai stated as if out of nowhere

"Uhh Vai my dear you really aren't helping" Dr. Agasa said sternly

Just then a nurse came in "I'm looking for those affiliated with Conan Edogawa" she said looking at her clipboard

"That's us," Rachel said, all 3 walking over there

"Follow me" she walked down the hall to Conan's room the 3 followed her

"This is the room, the doctor is in there already" she said as she left.

Rachel opened the door to see the doctor looking at a monitor writing information on his clipboard. He turned to see the people walking in.

"Ahh you must be little Conan's family" he stated with a forced smile

"Y-yea, the closet thing he has to one" Rachel stated looking at the comatose child "How is he doctor?" Rachel said worried.

"Well" he stated looking back at the monitors "He's going to live, but-" he stepped away from the monitor; it had 2 brain scans on it. The first one looked normal except for the fact that there was a big indentation in the bottom section of the brain. The second one looked the same except the indentation was now filled in, but in a weak shade of blue. "This first monitor shows his brain when we first brought him in, the black areas show places where the brain either isn't occupying or isn't functioning. The indentation down here, we believe is the section of his brain that governs memory. The fact that it's not showing up is due to the fact that it was shut down by the brain."

"Shut down?" Rachel interrupted "How did that happen?"

"We believe that when the lightning hit young Conan here it virtually destroyed his nervous system. As a result his muscles couldn't function mainly the heart. Since the brain wasn't getting oxygenated blood it began to shut down certain sections of the brain in an act of self-preservation. Luckily, he got his heart beating before any of the major, more vital sections of the brain were effected."

"So that means," Vai said as calm as she always is "Because the sector of the brain that governs memories was shut down, he will wake up with a form of permanent amnesia."

"That's correct" the doctor smiled at her "You're a very smart little girl"

"What's good though is" the doctor said pointing at the second scan. As you can see by this scan, the formerly black area is now blue"

"What does that mean?" Rachel said now getting slightly hysterical

"I was about to get to that. The fact that the more recent scan is blue means that section is coming back to life means that even tough he wont ever regain his old memories, he will be able to get new memories and retain them"

"Well that's not as bad… I guess" Rachel still sounded depressed

"Well I'll leave you 3 alone for now, if there are any problems press the call button"

The doctor left the room; the room was silent except for the sound of the heart monitor's beeping.

About 1 week passes and Conan remains comatose. It wasn't until 8 days later when he finally woke up from his coma.

Rachel, unfortunately, wasn't there when he woke up. In the morning of the 9th day was when Rachel got the news of Conan awakening. She rushed to the hospital immediately after she got the call from the doctor. Rachel ran over to Conan's room to meet her rather confused little brother who was alone in his room.

Rachel walked into his room "Conan, your awake"

"W-Who are you?" Conan said confused

That one phrase felt to Rachel like a punch in the gut "Well Conan, I'm," Rachel thought for a second "I'm your big sister, Rachel," she blurted out

"I-I have a big sister? But I don't remember anything … Rachel right?" a slight smile went over Conan's face, but there were small tears forming in his eyes "But the doctor told me my current situation, so I shouldn't expect to remember"

Rachel couldn't stand seeing Conan cry like this. She went over to comfort the child.

"Shh Conan its ok," the paused and stroked the back of his hair "I know you are confused and scared, but if you ever have questions you can ask me ok?" Rachel said with a comforting tone

Conan quickly yawned; his frightened blue eyes became tired and hazy, he smiled at Rachel before he was overcome with sleep.

"I'll always be here for you," she whispered to the sleeping amnesiac, he kissed his forehead and found a chair to sit in, she had her eye on Conan before she fell asleep in the chair.

Conan opened his eyes, he was on a street, a familiar street to him, maybe he lives there, but he couldn't remember exactly what made it familiar. He looked around. No one was there.

"This is a busy intersection isn't it" Conan said looking around "There should at least be a few pedestrians" Conan continued to look around until he found a building, Conan read the vibrant Kanji located on the side of the building. "Moore… Detective Agency?" he read aloud "Maybe some one in there can tell me what happened" as he was about to walk over to the building it started to rain, very hard. He started to cross the street before he saw someone standing in the doorway to the detective agency, it was a girl with long brown hair roughly 10 years older than Conan "I-is that that Rachel girl" Conan started running over to Rachel, but before he could the familiar light and sound over took him.

Conan was hurt really hurt, a familiar pain overtook him, he was trying to breathe, to get air in his lungs, but he couldn't. He looked over to where Rachel was; she was nowhere to be seen; he was alone, all alone.

"Conan! Wake up" Rachel yelled at the thrashing child.

Conan's eyes opened they were wide and filled to the brim with fear "All alone, all alone, all alone" he chanted as if it was the only word he knew. He was shaking violently and tears were streaming down his face like a faucet that never turned off. He moved his eyes over to a concerned Rachel. His eyes seemed to fill with anger hatred and fear

It was at this point that the Dr. Agasa arrived again, this time not only Vai tagged along, but the Jr. Detective League as well. The group of 5 arrived just before Conan had woken up from his nightmare. They saw Conan staring angrily at Rachel; the room was completely silent.

Then as if out of nowhere the frightened boy spoke; His eyes seemed to glow red with hatred. "WHERE WERE YOU?" he screamed at Rachel. The sheer tone of his voice startled everyone in the room. "YOU SAID YOU WOULD BE HERE FOR ME BUT YOU LIED" Conan yelled tears still streaming out of his fearful angry eyes "YOU'RE A LIAR!!!" Conan's voice seem to split, it was a pitch that his voice couldn't produce; the tone that came out made everyone cringe. "I'm all alone" he said now quiet, anger leaving his eyes "all alone." He continued to say religiously. "ITS YOUR FAULT" he yelled at Rachel again. "ITS ALL YOUR F-"

"Conan stop it" Amy now yelled at Conan as if to calm him down

Her voice seemed to reach Conan. Break through his barrier of anger and fear. He got close to Rachel, wrapping his little arms around her feebly. This time he clung to a new phrase. "I'm Sorry" he now spoke quietly into Rachel's blouse.

She started to rock the child back and forth. The tears slowly stopped as well as the sobbing. Conan's eyes opened this time they were full of confusion.

"W-who are all these people," Conan said to Rachel as if what just happened hadn't happened

Everyone was silent; Rachel was the only one who spoke. "W-Well Conan"

"Were your friends Conan" Amy interrupted "What's wrong you don't remember us" Amy said not realizing the severity of Conan's injuries.

"I-I would like to, but I don't" Conan said saddened by her remark. "I-I don't remember anything, but you all seem nice and look so familiar" a slight smile was forming on his face. "I definitely know you, but I don't KNOW you"

Around 1 week later still, Conan had grown stable enough and had gained enough dexterity to be released from the hospital. He still had a few problems walking, restricting him to short distances. Dr. Agasa drove Conan and Rachel to their house. Rachel had to carry Conan up the stairs; Conan wasn't too fond of it.

Rachel opened the door to the living room. Conan looked around with confused eyes wondering what door leads where, this place didn't feel familiar at all.

Rachel looked down at Conan who looked back up at her "I-I don't recognize anything Rachel"

That phrase was like another punch in the gut to her, but she didn't show it trying not to upset the child "Well Conan I'll just show you around, then maybe you'll recognize something, ok?"

"O-Ok" Conan replied back feebly As Conan started to follow Rachel he spoke up again "A-Actually Rachel I'm in a little pain can you just show me my room?"

"Ok Conan whatever you want" She showed Conan to his room, it looked like a storage closet with a random futon in the middle. There were boxes everywhere; the only thing keeping him from questioning was the reading lamp, the small dresser, and a random stack on books next to the futon. Conan walked over to his bed, and Rachel turned out the only light in the room, it was pitch black there were no windows in the whole room. He turned on the reading lamp in order for there to be some sort of light source. Conan lay down in his bed and quickly went to sleep, ignoring the pain in his still weak legs.