-1This is me trying something new. I have no idea what direction this story's going to go in…bear with me.
this chapters warnings: none. my random ramblings is all.
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i suppose he's always been there. when i'm staring into the mirror. through a thick impenetrable fog that i cannot possibly begin to understand, slipping in and out of my line of vision - at what?. i though he was toying with me, with the idea of taking over my body. I was afraid.
who was he? was he a part of me, or perhaps a demented plaything i invented as i child? i do not know, nor remember. i was an over imaginative child, and still am. should i let him have his way? no. never.
i can remember the first time i heard his voice. calling me softly, sweetly. at first, i thought i left the television on - but no. there he was, his voice echoing in my head and crashing against my skull in a bittersweet fashion. i didn't know what to do. run? hide? apparently, he could hear my thoughts and found this amusing, for a coarse laugh suddenly began going off in my head. i wanted to cry.
he would do that for a few days. call my name, patiently waiting for me to answer. i never did. what would i be doing if i did answer? talking to myself, a schizophrenic crazyalbino?or would it be tempting the beast within?
i was not able to hold him in for long. he was so patient, so calculating, cold. he would begin calling my name again when i was relaxed, causing me to become rigid with fear, contemplating my options, which were few.
and then...i let him go.
inserting a rusty old key, pushing open a creaky door. forgetting what redemption and sin meant to me.
it was a terrible mistake. from his gentle tone of voice, i expected a kitten. what i got was a dragon of a spirit, violently pushing my soul into a dark chamber of my mind, laughing gruffly as i protested. i have yet to remember what he did that day, and i am terribly afraid to find out. my body was never the same, what with the random spasms i could never hope to control. where is he now…?
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