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The first story is about one of the most popular ships on this TV show and one of my favorites too.
She had learned that something was wrong when she had overheard Zay and Maya conversation as she came back to her bedroom with snacks for Maya and her. It goes against his grain to come in through her window, and whenever he did that because of their friends his action was always followed by several apologies. But that Saturday afternoon he was serious and at no time had he meant to say that.
Zay had overheard their conversation when he went to meet Smackle for his particular chemistry class that she was teaching him that semester like he always does after the Science Club meeting she and Farkle attended and his football practice. Zay had not heard much of their conversation since as soon as he realized that something was wrong he had turned away and hidden in the corner so he could watch the couple standing in the middle of the hallway. He had said that he had seen Smackle holding tightly into her books when she told Farkle that they were done. Farkle had tried to say something, but she had cut him off, saying that they were both too smart to know that things were not as they thought, and it was time to the face that they only saw themselves as friends and there were no more reasons for lies between them, since they both know how they really feel.
Riley had tried to call Farkle, but he didn't want to talk to anyone or at least not to her since he had been texting with Maya since yesterday when he had not hit her back after the moment he said he would not meet her for their study session. Riley had asked Maya to tell Farkle they were coming over that night and as soon as he knew who they mean he had told her he would not be home.
On Sunday Riley was already tired of this silent treatment. She knew he had received all her texts, but had chosen not to open them and text her back then when Maya left that night, Riley had walked out her window and headed for an of the largest buildings in the New York City. Getting in was easy because the guard already knew her because of the several times she showed up there and he always said that he would never fail to remember a sunshine like her. Walking into his apartment was even easier because as soon as Mr. Gomes had greeted her he'd asked her if she was hungry or thirst and then she'd said she was good, he told her that Farkle was in his bedroom and if she needes anything just let him know.
She found him sitting on the floor near the huge glass wall of his bedroom in the dark, he had turned around when he heard her close the door, he was surprised to see her standing there.
"Riley? Why are you doing here?"
"Hi! I was just wondering how are you doing today? You've kind of been ignoring me lately. "
"Sorry, I'm kind of busy."
"What's going on, Farkle?"
"Nothing, everything is fine."
He said turning to the window where he could see a large part of the city. Riley put her purse on his bed and joined him at the window, remaining silent for a few minutes.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"There's nothing to talk about, Riley."
Riley turned to him who keeps his eyes on the horizon.
"You know you can count on me for everything, Farkle?"
"I know!"
He said still avoiding look her.
"Farkle, we're friends and friends should tell each other everything, right?"
He didn't say anything that made Riley sigh in frustration.
"Please, Farkle! Talk to me!"
"There's nothing to say. She broke up with me and that's it. "
"Why? You two seem doing fine, you even told her you loved her. "
"I never said that, Riley."
"You said you're more than liking her."
"And I was, honestly, but I never said that I loved her."
"Farkle, I know it's hard to deal with this broke up, but maybe there's a way of fixing things between you and Smackle."
"There is not coming back for us, Riley"
"Of course there is! If you really love each other, fate will bring you together again."
She heard his hurt laugher.
"You still believe in you and Lucas, even after all these years, have not you?"
They had broken up in the freshman year after she learned she was going to London, but when her mom had made her mind and decided to stay in New York, they never said a word about come back together again. Maybe, they believed they were back in that unofficial thing like they had before on middle school, but she realized that none of them were struggling to get themselves together, so it was no surprise to her when he started dating a girl from his English class. Her first boyfriend after that was in the sophomore year, and he was a nice guy, but she felt lost when she was with him because he was a way more advanced level in that business, since Lucas had always been a respectful guy with her.
How does she feel about Lucas? He was an important part of her life and she loves him. Perhaps not as much as she did before, and maybe she had learned to love him the right way for them as a friend. She was not going to lie and say she had not been jealous of his ex-girlfriends because with football he had gotten more female fans who would do anything for him, more than she had done. And as time went by she realized that the problem was not him dating, but the girls he wanted to date, they were all superficial and did not care about his friends, always keeping him away from them.
She and Maya had a conversation a few nights ago when they were talking about his newest girl, Maya had told her not to worry that he would come back to her as soon as he realized how stupid choices he was making while he has someone special like Riley Matthews right next to him. Riley had told her that she did not see him like that anymore and that surprised Maya, and as soon as she had said what was really the problem Maya had told her that it was normal for them to want to date someone new, and maybe they will never be as close as they are today, but you can always count on each other. And maybe that has to do with the fact that Josh ended up their game because he wanted to date a girl he had met in one of his classes two years ago. Riley found herself saying that she would not mind if her best friend and Lucas decided to go out and Maya had got nervous at hearing her words before laughing at her friend's craziness.
She knew that Maya would deny it, most of the time those conversations about Lucas' love life started was Maya, and was she the one that was most hostile to those girls, and how the passage of time Riley had realized that maybe it meant something that her best friend refused to assume.
That confirmation had been at a party last week when she had seen Lucas and Maya in the kitchen. At first, she thought it was just one of their fights when Maya had pulled him closer and said something serious staring deeply into his eyes, but that had taken more time than enough, and as soon as Lucas had bent down to kiss her, Maya had pushed him away and run into the backyard.
Then she could safely say that Riley and Lucas were a chapter of her life that she had left behind, but she could not tell when this had happened and she wondered if anyone could tell when it was exactly the time that they had fallen out of love with someone.
"I believe that when something is meant to be it will be, no matter how many time it takes, it could take seconds, minutes, hours, days, months or years. But if it isn't meant to be, you should be grateful for everything you have learned from that person because that person has prepared you for something better to come. "
"So you still hoping that you and Lucas will come back together."
"I'm just grateful to have him as my first boyfriend and all the things we went through together. But I can not say what will happen in the future, but I don't see myself in that position in his future and I think we can both see this, don't we, Farkle? "
She saw him bite his bottom lip.
"She told me not to tell you. She asked me not to talk about it with you because she is uncertain about how she feels and how you feel about them."
"I want her to be happy, and if he makes her happy, I can only hope she doesn't take so long to say it."
They were silent.
"We're going to figure it out. You helped me when I most needed, so let me do the same for you. "
"It's not necessary, Riley."
"If you like her, fight for her, Farkle!"
"She doesn't like me, Riley. I've noticed that a couple of months after she started doing those classes."
Riley had looked at him not understanding what he was saying.
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm not the only person with who she feels comfortable to be with."
"What do you mean?"
"She likes Zay."
"Zay? Our Zay? "
Farkle nodded and Riley felt utterly lost because she had not seen it happen.
"She had told me that she was feeling something different when he was around, and then she had kissed him in their last private lesson she had given him just to confirm it."
Riley felt betrayed at that moment because no one had bothered to tell her about it.
"Zay did not tell me anything."
"Smackle asked him not to say, and seems he's good at keeping secrets when they're important."
"I'm so sorry, Farkle! This must be hard for you, I know how much you like her."
Farkle sighed and shook his head negatively.
"Do you know what's the problem? I should feel something, but I feel nothing."
"Maybe you're still taking in what happened, this is normal..."
Farkle cut her off.
"She told me that she kissed him and I did not feel anything. I should feel something, something bad, but I did not feel it, Riley. Will I ever be able to understand that?"
"If one day you understand how feelings work you can bet that there will be a queue at your door so you can help people understand them."
"Sorry, I mean do I ever will be able to feel anything? Or just feelings is not something that was made for me."
"Of course you do, Farkle. You own feelings so pure... "
"She said I never really liked her. Not like someone, I'd like to be in a relationship with."
"Of course you do, Farkle."
"She said that we ended up together because we both admired the intelligence in our partners; we both have an acceptable aesthetic appearance; we both have big plans for ourselves, and we were both trying to understand what feelings were supposed to be. But it's never been about feelings because we don't have that spark that everyone talks about when we're alone."
"Maybe you have not gotten to that phase yet."
"We dated for over three years, Riley. When would that phase come in? Shouldn't those sparks be present from the beginning? "
"You are not like everyone. Every relationship has its pace, its chemistry. You should not compare your relationship to other relationships."
"Did you and Lucas kiss, Riley?"
Farkle turned to her curiously.
"Yeah, We did when we were alone. Okay, that was not often because my dad did not leave us alone."
She said confused.
"We didn't, we never did it. The only kisses between us were on the cheek since Smackle did not feel comfortable otherwise. And suddenly she kissed him."
"I must confess that I am surprised because you two are the most curious people that I know, and if there was someone who could go further in this way in our group, these people would be you."
Farkle laughed at his friend's supposition.
"Your dad did not teach us about supposing?"
Riley found herself laughing.
"You are right!"
"Do you know what's the problem?" He looked at her uncertainly. "She said she always knew that I would never love her, maybe I would like her, but never love her."
"Why?"
"She told me that I like someone else, and if I really into someone else, shouldn't I supposed to know that?"
"Why did she say that, Farkle? Who is the person she thinks you're into?"
"I've always said to you and Maya that I'll always love you two equally, don't I?"
"Yeah, but what does that have to do with it."
"Smackle said that I could not promise this because I would be lying since I could never love you and Maya in the same way."
"But you love us." Farkle took a deep breath looking down at the city. "Don't you love us, Farkle?"
"She said I don't. I don't do it."
"Why would she say that, Farkle?" Said Riley confused. "Wait! Do you like Maya?"
"Maya?"
He looked at her confused.
"You were never happy when other guys came close to her. You two apparently decided to keep secrets from me..."
"I don't like Maya!" He said cutting her off as if that were the most absurd thing he had heard "Not in that way."
"It's okay if you like her..."
"Riley, I don't like her."
"So, who do you like?" She said confused. "I can't think of anyone, Sarah?"
"Riley, stop!"
"I just want to..." then reality hit her. "Farkle, do you like me?"
Farkle kept his eyes locked on the window, avoiding to look at her. He had said nothing and Riley was willing to hit him so he would say something, so he could deny it.
"She said I do. I like you."
"This isn't about what Smackle says, this is about how you truly feel, Farkle!"
"I don't know. I never thought about it." Farkle looked at his hands "I've always loved you for the person you are, finding someone like you is a rarity these days. You're so beautiful and this is not just about appearances because I had not noticed how you look until the day Smackle made me look at you and Maya in a different way. I honestly always thought that you would be by my side when I could rule the world when we were kids, but I always knew that you would never see me as something more than just a friend, since I was never attractive to you like Lucas is. I'm just the smart weird boy with an equally weird name that you can call your friend."
"I hated seeing you suffer like that when we got back from Texas and I wondered how no one could see how unhappy you were. I just wanted you to go back to being who you are. I hope you have forgiven me for what happened on New Year's Eve, but that was the right thing to do for all of us; and if I had not done that maybe you would never have the chance to really date Lucas because I know you, and I know you would try to do everything to forget him, even if it would cost you your happiness and I don't want to live in a world where Riley Matthews isn't happy."
Farkle looked back at the window. Riley stared at him uncertainly what to say. She had to be honest, he'd never been more than a friend to her; a person she could trust at any moment.
"Smackle said it was all because I wanted your happiness above anything, above even to Maya's confusion, but I don't agree with her because if I had not done what I did maybe it would all be even more confusing now."
"One thing I know all about, after all these years deciding which is the right way to love you, I realized today that I do not know how I really feel about you, Riley."
They were silent. Riley was confused, the possibility that Farkle had feelings for her frightened her because she can't say it back to him. Okay, she had never questioned his feelings for him since he was her friend, one of the friends she could count on the most, who was always paying attention to her and knew when something was bothering her more than her boyfriends. But she could not deny that he had changed much over the years in the physical aspect and maybe if she did not know him as she knows him now, maybe she would think of going out with him.
So that idea popped into her head. That was so stupid and she knew that if she stopped and think about it she would never do that. Her eyes fallen on the blond-boy next to her, his eyes still trapped in the city below them and then she put her hand on his chin making him look at her confused. Riley knelt next to him and cupped his face before kissing him gently. This was strange, she could not deny it, but she was a kind of good stranger way. His soft lips were against hers and Farkle had apparently frozen in place, not knowing what to do. She pulled away and Farkle looked at her even more confused.
"Why did you do that?"
"I do not know, maybe it would help you somehow."
She said nervously getting up.
"That was different."
He said trying to find a word to describe it, Riley smiled nervously and went to her purse.
"I'd better go, my dad..."
She could not finish what she was saying because as soon as she had turned to say something she had bumped into him. Riley held on to his shirt to keep herself from falling, she felt his hands gripping her waist and as soon as she felt stable Riley lifted her face to be able to look at him. His blue eyes locked on hers and she could not move anymore. Her brain told her to move, but her body seemed stuck there, the intensity of his blue eyes on her made her legs go limp and then she watched him, in slow motion, bending down.
He kissed her gently and Riley found herself doing the same. Her hands went to his neck bringing him down and Farkle's hands went to her hair, stopping at the nape of her neck bringing her even closer, giving gentle tugs in her hair. Riley felt her legs wobble as that comfortable warmth invaded her body. That kiss was unlike anything she had ever experienced. What she had felt on her first kiss on the subway with Lucas did not come close to what she felt with this kiss with Farkle, and she thought that she had learned how to like someone with her first boyfriend.
Farkle apart their lips and Riley found herself bringing him back to the kiss and she could feel him smile for a few seconds against her lips before they returned to the kiss.
This was perfect until a knock on the door made them apart, Mr. Gomez had walked into the room asking if they would like something to drink and Riley could see the shadow of a smile behind the butler's serious posture, and she wondered how long he was watching them there. Farkle had looked at her waiting for her answer, and Riley found herself saying no, that it was too late and that she had to go home; dismissing Farkle's offer of a ride to her home.
So there was Riley Matthews daydreaming about the kiss she had shared with Farkle Minkus something she never thought she would do in her life. If someone had told her how much she would enjoy kissing Farkle Minkus, she would have laughed and pretended to throw up because Farkle was only her smart and weird friend, but now, maybe, he could be something more than just her friend.
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I have to confess that I almost gave up on writing all my stuff, then I must apologize for the quality of these stories.
I got some bad news at the end of May and it really gets me feeling down, it is something related to the health of a person that I love very much and it's so serious and frustrating because I can't do anything about it, I'm so scared.
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