Why was this happening to her?
Hamato Miwa was up late again, staring at the ceiling and pondering recent events...then again...maybe they weren't that recent.
Hadn't she always preferred girl-ier things, ever since she was a little girl? Lace, ribbons, sparkles, makeup, the whole feminine shebang? Should...preferences really be all that different?
Sighing, she rose from bed and slipped out of her room to the kitchen, treading especially lightly when she passed her parent's room. Turning on the light, she approached the coffee maker and decided to get herself a cup of hot tea to calm her nerves.
It had all really started in gym class this year. The seventh grade girls had to change in the locker rooms...and for the first time she got to SEE them...girls that weren't Maggie, that is. She found her heart racing when her friend Robin changed herself and struggled when it came to looking away from all that extra feminine skin. She sighed as the mug in front of her filled.
Wasn't she enough of a freak already? Didn't she have enough to worry about with school and adolescence and ninja training, did she really have to lump sexual deviance in with everything else?
What would her parents think? What would Ojiisan say? What would her uncles, her cousin...would they hate her? Cast her out? She knew it seemed absurd, most of them were mutants, but still...it had been three weeks since her first gym class and these feelings hadn't gone away. What was she supposed to do?
Finished with her tea she placed the empty mug on the counter, switched off the kitchen light and headed back to bed. She flicked on her bedside table lamp for a moment to say her evening prayers once more (Ojiisan was still a strong believer in Shinto; the prayers were something they shared and she couldn't sleep without them) when she saw a familiar framed photo at her bedside.
Maggie smiled back at her, her arm slung around Miwa. It was a picture of them from two years ago, when Miwa had gotten her first real katana to work with. Maggie was smiling proudly in the picture, gesturing to the swords with one hand and giving a thumbs up with the other.
"I'm so proud of you, Mi." She had said. "I'm so proud to be your sister." Maggie was her cousin, of course, but in tender moments like that they usually overlooked the technicality and spoke frankly about what they meant to one another.
"I wonder if you would still be proud...if you knew..." Miwa whispered, kissing her fingers and pressing them to Maggie's likeness' forehead before turning out the light and losing herself to sleep.
AN: Miwa belongs to Aangismyhomie and is the daughter of Leonardo and Karai. :)
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anomimes: Sure! I'd love to write a short where the girls start dating. :)