Sometimes, I wish that I hadn't walked through that door to Yuki's room. To tell you the truth, I'm damn confused about my feelings. When I saw Yuki in that position… I just felt as if we both had gone all through everything for nothing. I even went to New York to find him! Again, when I saw him in that position with some other chick on our-… his bed, the love I had for him immediately disappeared.

Heh, I'm starting to doubt the logic and science of Gravitation.

I shouldn't be down at all. Really, I wouldn't even harm myself to rid of my confusion. (Though, I always do that as a joke, but I don't do it seriously.) I won't even bother finding a new lover. I just feel like getting on with my life and joining other things that I've missed in my life, outside of Yuki's world and my fantasy.

I hadn't seen him that much lately, which I'm sorta' glad for. Though, it's gonna' be awkward if we ever meet. We can't just act like friends, and I can't just leave him out of the dust, of course. I ain't that heartless, and I never will be. So, I guess I'll just put him as an acquaintance.

But, to be honest…- I'm fine without him. Though, I do feel as if something is going to happen… Like a new problem, a new conflict, a new… odd predicament… Between… us…

I don't trust me gut feeling at all… I have become independent; I forgot to mention that… I even bought my own apartment room! Isn't that great? Yes? No? Oh well. Your opinion(s) don't matter. I still visit Hiro no matter what! That reminds me, I wonder what his older brother has been doing… Hmn… Oh well. I hope I get to meet him again!

I might visit my family again. I hadn't seen Maiko in-… ever! Also, mom and dad. Oh, I have lots of things to catch up with!

I wonder if I'm still gay… I am a little bit attracted to females… Like I said, I won't even think of relationships. I wonder where and how I'll get my inspiration out of my life. My life has changed, that's for sure. No love, no passion, no drama… Just plain, old, life.

Well, wish me luck. (If I have any... Explains why our band is titled: "Bad Luck".)

A/N: "Hello! I'm back! With a new story! Sorry that I didn't update Tutoring Punishment, I lost motivation for it. I'll force myself to write it, though! I promise! This new fan fiction is based on a new doujinshi that I'm about to do for Gravitation. I'm just going to go along with what I'm typing/writing. I stink at making up a main conflict of a story…

Anyways, I have been reading other fan fictions where Shuichi travels to America or something and comes back a year or two later with a boy friend and piercings, highlights, and somehow grew taller! (From what I've heard, I think a male stops growing at twenty.)

Well, folks. This fan fiction isn't one of those… This fan fiction is different. (Sorry if I got anyone mad, I'm just tired of reading those! But don't get me wrong, I like em'! I'm already used to reading them… So, cliché~!)

I'll try my best to keep every character in-character. It's really, I mean, REALLY important. So, please let me know if I'm portraying any character wrong. I see Shuichi as a dramatic, optimistic, hedonistic boy. He wouldn't commit suicide or cut himself!

(But, he does act it out in some parts of the manga (the cutting part, I think…), I'm pretty sure he's not serious or anything. But he's a boy at heart for me. (Or 'man', whatever floats your boat(s).) Oh man, I typed too long! Bye, folks! Don't forget to review!"