Disclaimer: I don't own twilight.

A/N: This story takes place after new moon. Alternate ending.

It's raining outside… again.

But, I am safe here, it's dark inside but safe.

I think something is missing though, I can't remember it but something is not here… maybe Charlie knows about it.

I am happy though, I don't get nightmares anymore… I can sleep now, peacefully.

Charlie is late… again.

Oh now I remember, I haven't seen Edward after saying goodbye yesterday.

I asked Edward about him joining me for breakfast… he refused.

He said he will visit me after dinner, Charlie is still mad at him for leaving me like that. I was mad at him in the beginning too, but after he told me that he will never leave me again I forgave him, I just can't stay mad at him for too long.

He told me yesterday about the surprise he is planning for me, and I told him how I hate surprises but he's stubborn.

He told me to wear that blue dress he bought me last year; he says I look beautiful in that dress.

I don't believe him.

Alice came to visit me, he said I look beautiful.

I thanked Edward for his surprise after dinner.

He told me how much he loves me.

I asked Edward about him joining me for breakfast… he refused, again.

I think I am ill, there's this ever present pain in my chest, I have not told Edward about that, he will probably freak out.

Someone's knocking on my door, finally Edward's here.

I was slightly disappointed when I saw Jake entering in instead of Edward but I am happy he is here… he's my best friend.

We talked.

He doesn't hate Edward anymore, but still avoids talking about him… I wonder why?

Charlie is late.

He is in the hospital.

I am crying, my chest and my body hurts.

Edward came after diner and told me be strong… to be strong for Charlie.

I stopped crying.

Charlie died after having a cardiac arrest.

I feel numb… I need Edward, but it's not dinnertime yet.

Edward told me to say goodbye to Charlie with a smile.

I am smiling.

I asked Edward about him joining me for breakfast but he refused… again.

My skin feels so saggy; a child told about my wrinkles, I can't find my mahogany hairs anymore.

Edward still looks the same… I told him about my skin and hairs.

He said I look cute.

I don't believe him.

Today I fell down after lunch; Edward said I am still a klutz.

I don't know why but it still feels like I have forgotten something.

Yesterday Edward said I would have to wait just a little longer. I don't know why he said that.

I am ill… again.

I have not seen the meadow this year around spring… it was difficult.

So instead, I slept.

Today Edward was very happy, and he asked me if I want to go out with him for breakfast.

I said yes.