Summary: Clare has enough. After the lockdown, she don't know who she was anymore and decided to leave everything behind. Can Eli find and try to stop her before its too late? Eclare.
A/N: Well I got this idea by the episode of Degrassi-All Falls Down Part 2 and the preview of the next episode of Degrassi of Clare's wild phrase, but this time I'm going in the direction of what if Clare runs away or anything like that? Well I do not own Degrassi or any song lyrics at all. I just own my own plot and my own Original Characters.
Don't Know Myself
Prologue
Take the pills that they give you mornings
Spit them out when they aren't looking
Keep a smile but you burn it hot
It's a mad, mad, world
-Hotblack by Oceanship
How come her life is so mess up right now? Why can her life be picture perfect or at least peaceful without so much drama? Maybe it's her destiny to emotional suffer for the last of her teen years. She once thought it was the school Degrassi, caused all this. People, say that the school is cursed. So many things happened there in the past years and since the lockdown, she almost believed it.
Eli Goldsworthy almost been stab right in front of her eyes the night of the dance and she couldn't do anything to stop it from happening. She could still remember the terror on Eli's face, realizing that Fitz was actually serious on what he's about to do and this hurts Clare more, when he pushed her a way from him to safety.
It had broken her heart on his sacrifice trying to make things right out of fear and desperation. When the knife stuck on the wall just a inch beside his head, he fell to his knees in fits of hallow breathing.
Eli wouldn't change the way he is. He refused of being bullied, Fitz reminded him of that kid Mike when he was younger.
At the end of that night Clare began to question herself of who she really was. Everything is falling apart and the only image she saw in her dreams recently is the gleam of the knife that almost stab her beloved.
Her heart clinged once more, maybe if she get rid of everything that hurts her she will not felt this pain any longer.
She could still hear his voice...His voice that was never scared until that night when everything goes down and when the cops arrested Fitz, taking him away to jail where he belongs.
He dropped his voice to a fearful mutter, tired and worn out of the previous events. His features shivered, still scared, but his once bright green eyes were now shown a hint of fear begging her...her to forgive him.
"I'm so so sorry.. Oh Clare, I'm so damn sorry..."
and she too broke down crying.
She didn't know what else to do.
to be continued
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