Sex and the City

Change of a Dress

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First of all of course I don't own Sex and the City so no getting in shit for writing about it. If I did own it (which I wish I did), season 6 would NOT be it's last season. Hope you like it, please review!

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In season 4, I really hoped Carrie and Aidan would make it this time around. When they broke up I was so sad, they were so cute together. And I've always wondered what Carrie was thinking when she and Aidan were talking outside, in front of the fountain. This is my little spin on what Carrie was thinking in season 4, episode 63. Change of a Dress.

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"Who else's would I be?!"

As soon as those words came out of my mouth I knew the answer. The look on his face told me what I should have already known.

"Oh my god..." I should just come out and say it. "You still don't trust me."

How can I make him see that I don't want anyone but him? I guess you can forgive...but can never truly forget. This is all my fault. Why is it that I always say or do the wrong things? Why can't I be the normal, happy wife Aidan wants? Can't we live happily ever after without marriage?

"You don't even wear that ring on your fucking finger." Aidan stated pointing at the ring that's around my neck.

No I guess not. The harshness of his words hurt a lot. But I know that on a certain level, I deserve them. But he's right, I don't wear it on my finger. I should be happy to be engaged to such a wonderful man like Aidan. But I'm not, I'm scared to death. Why can't I figure this out?

"I am yours! There is nobody else!" I say, pleading with him. "I love you, but I can't marry you to make you trust me." He turns away and I grab for his hand. "Aidan, look at me, look at me before we make a huge mistake."

He finally looks at me in the eye and I'm afraid of what he may be thinking.

"If you don't wanna marry me right now, you'll never wanna marry me." Aidan said too calmly.

I shake my head, this isn't happening. I love him, but I need time. Getting married...it's such a big deal. I can't do it yet. I look up at him trying not to show him how scared I am.

"That's not true."

But my voice gives it all away.

"I think it is." Aidan said. I shake my head again in disbelief. "I'm going to sleep in the other apartment tonight."

I look back up at him. What? I don't understand, why does he want to sleep there? He can't be that upset with me. Can he?

"Really?" I ask him.

"Yea, really." Aidan replies.

Oh no...please no, not again. I ask just to be sure.

"Just for tonight...?"

He looks away from me, he can't fully look me in the eye. That's never good. His body shifts and he turns away. I grab for his arm but he pulls away. He finally looks me square in the eye.

"...I can't believe I'm back here again." Aidan said.

...Oh shit.

"Oh shit..."

I lay in bed later that night all alone. I lay there thinking of the man on the other side. He's so close, yet...completely out of reach. I find myself grasping at the ring, the ring I should have never accepted. I let go of it and sit up. I get out of bed and leave my apartment and tip toe into the other one. I see him lying there on the floor and feel my heart sink a little. He's leaving and there's nothing I can do about it. I make my way over to him and see him look up at me. He opens his arms to me and lay down beside him. He holds me for probably the last time.

That was the only night we would ever spend on the other side of the wall. The next day, Aidan moved out.