What Have You Done Now?
(NOT GOING TO WORRY ABOUT USING THEIR LAST NAMES SINCE WE ALL KNOW THEM (: )
Would you mind if I hurt you?
Understand that I need to
wish that I had other choices
than to harm the one I love
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He had just gotten back to Konoha after a month long mission where he was suppose to track down one of the many people in the Bingo Book which also happened to be a missing-nin from Konoha. The village received word from an informant and Kakashi was sent out the next morning.
As he walked through the gates he saw a familiar head of pink standing with her back to him talking to the guards on duty. As he kept walking through the gates Sakura realized that he had finally arrived back and turned to him with a smile on her face. He gave her an eye crease and disappeared in a swirl of leaves and found himself in the Hokage's office. The blonde woman was looking out the window over the village as he threw his mission report on her desk. He was about ready to leave when she spoke.
"Welcome back." Did she honestly think that he wouldn't come back? He transported himself to the highest spot of the village, above the Hokage mountain (?). As he sat looking out over the village with the sun setting in front of him, thinking about his mission and the Hokage's greeting. Yeah the missing-nin was tougher than he had originally thought but he wasn't unbearable.
He sat there well after the sun had disappeared behind the horizon.
"There you are!" he heard a familiar voice come from behind him. He turned and saw Sakura coming near him. "I was looking for you." She said sitting down next to him.
"Oh?"
She smiled at him, "of course! Would you like to go get a drink?"
"I was actually getting ready to head home. Tsunade will probably send me back out again tomorrow morning." He said. He saw the look on her face fall a bit as she looked away. She seemed like she really wanted him to go with her.
"Ok." She said quietly.
"Something on your mind?"
She didn't answer right away and he was about to wonder if he was imagining it. "no." he barely caught it as quiet as it was.
"Maybe another time." he said as he got up from the ground and offered his hand to help her up as well. She looked up at him and nodded, taking his hand to be lifted up off the ground.
"Right. Another time." she said just before he nodded as disappeared again in a puff of smoke.
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What have you done now?!
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Sakura POV
She shouldn't have expected anything more from him. He wasn't one to hang around with teammates outside of missions unless it included a sparring or a free meal. So why did she think that he would change his actions when she asked him to have a drink with her? She had no idea. She walked back to her apartment silently. She was going to go to the bar but she didn't feel like having every guy hit on her while she was there. Maybe that is why she was hoping Kakashi would accompany her.
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I know I'd better stop trying
you know that there's no denying…
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She did wish that she had someone next to her that night. It was rather chilly and she didn't bring a jacket with her. Sakura wrapped her arms around her, rubbing her upper arms to try and create some warmth for her, but she made to effort to walk faster to her apartment.
Maybe I should just stop trying to get closer to him. There is no way that he thinks of me the way that I do for him. I will probably just end up pushing him further away.
Yes she did figure out that she had fallen for her old sensei a few months back when Ino was questioning her. As the days followed her interrogation from her friend she started noticing that Ino had. She didn't know what to do. She figured that maybe she would just let on a little bit at a time.
So far it got her nowhere.
He was just as elusive as ever.
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I know I should stop believing
I know that there's no retrieving
it's over now
what have you done?
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Kakashi POV
He was sitting on top of a rooftop, thinking to himself. Team 7 had definitely grown up in the past years. Naruto had learned much more after he came back from training with Jiraya. His new way of training was to create as many clones as he could and have them try out different techniques so if something did end up working it would get back to him when the clones disappeared.
It was a major success for him.
Sasuke still had yet to return to the village, even if his revenge was taken care of. He could only think that the village wasn't going to accept him anymore after what he had done. Little did he know that the village hardly knew what had happened to him. Only the shinobi and the elders knew.
And as for his other student that remained in the village, Sakura had grown the most. After training under Tsunade for 3 years she was well on her way of surpassing the blonde Hokage.
Kakashi felt as though he had failed her, but everything that he had taught them she had exceeded the others with flying colors. He could only teach her some much. And that is what he did before she went to the fifth to ask to be her apprentice.
He noticed before he took the mission that she was either trying to flirt with him or she was just bored. She would ask him to go to dinner or go out to get a drink. Sometimes it was just the way she acted around him. Maybe he was just being paranoid. He didn't know, but what he didn't know was that he needed to be careful around her so she wouldn't get her hopes up. He hoped that tonight would clue her in a bit. He hoped.
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I've been waiting for someone like you
but now you are slipping away
(what have you done now?)
Why? Why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
between me and you
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Sakura POV
She left her feet carry her through the village. She didn't mind the cold all that much anymore. Her thoughts were wandering. Kakashi had seemed just as distant as ever lately. She didn't like that. Not one bit. But she knew that there was probably no changing it. She wanted to know. Even if she knew that he didn't. But she wanted to know what he felt about her.
Her thoughts were spinning so much that she didn't even realize that a familiar chakra signature was coming up from behind her. The next thing she knew there was something being put on her shoulders that wrapped around her making her warm again. Startled she looked around and found that Kakashi was walking right next to her. She could tell that he was smiling since he frightened her.
"You looked cold." He said.
"I thought you were heading home?" she asked pulling his vest closer to her.
"Ah, well, I was but I guess I got lost on the path of life." He said looking ahead of them. (Who doesn't love that quote?! Lol)
"Right." she said, smiling. His excuses were always the same. Some things never get old.
They walked in silence until they reached her building. "You know if you don't go on a mission tomorrow then maybe we could train together?" she asked looking for her keys. "I don't have to work but Naruto is still out on a mission and won't be back for a while longer. So if you don't would you like to?" she asked looking up at him after she found her keys. He had a thoughtful look on his face.
"Sure sounds good." he said with his happy eyes crease. "How about noon?"
"Sounds good to me." she said as she removed his vest and gave it back to him. "See you at 2." She said as she walked into her apartment and shut the door. She caught a glimpse of the puzzled look on his face before she completely shut the door.
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Sakura woke up to the sun shining in through her bedroom window. Looking at her clock she noticed that she only had a few hours until it was noon and that she needed to be at the training fields. She got up and got something quick to eat before she got into the shower and started her day.
She ended up at the fields at noon, surprised to see that Kakashi was already there in one of the many trees reading his infamous orange book of his. Shocked is what she was. Sakura had never known him to actually arrive on time to anything that he set up. She decided not to mention anything about it and just keep this piece of information in the back of her mind incase he started acting even weirder.
"Ready to begin?" she asked looking up at him in his tree. He moved his book aside and nodded.
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As they sparred Sakura continued to think about the predicament that she was getting herself in. she was going to end up hurting herself if she didn't stop it now. So in that respect she decided that she would start while they were sparring.
No more teasing could be heard in the field, only the clash on metal on metal every once in a while.
"Let's take a break." Kakashi said jumping up into the tree she found him in. He grabbed his canteen and jumped back down.
Kakashi POV
She changed and it wasn't anything subtle, it was drastic. And he didn't understand. Thinking back on what he had done during the first part of the sparring match and couldn't come up with anything. She just stopped with her teasing him. He was pretty sure that he hadn't said anything wrong.
Sitting down underneath the tree across from her he studied her without it being obvious. She paid him no mind as she drank from her canteen. Maybe it's my actions towards her? I know I don't accept any offer that she extends but that is just the way I am. He sighed in frustration. He didn't want to push her too far away, just far enough away so she wouldn't get any ideas. But was he too late?
"Something bothering you, Sakura?" he asked putting leaning against the tree. He noticed her flinch a bit, probably from him noticing that there was something.
"Oh, no, nothing wrong." She said looking up into the sky.
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What have you done now?
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Ever since the sparring match he hadn't heard from or seen Sakura. He just couldn't, for the life of him, figure out what he did wrong. Normally she would find him at least 3 times a week if he wasn't on a mission and ask to have some meal or a drink with her. Now it was a whole month and a half since he has seen her. So today once he got back to the village he was going to find her and ask her to have a drink with him. He just hoped that she didn't slip away from him.
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After he dropped off his mission report he set off the find his student. He searched all over the village. He was starting to lose hope when he felt a familiar chakra signature coming from somewhere in front of him. He was in the training field's right about now and it was getting dark. He knew that if he didn't find her he probably wouldn't be able to sleep at all tonight.
It was the same field that they had sparred at all that time ago. He walked slowly towards the signature that he knew so well now. And sure enough there she was sitting up in the tree that he so often occupied. Seeing as he masked his own chakra when he first noticed hers she didn't know he was there until he said something.
"Yo." He greeted her. He noticed that again she flinched. She must be wrapped in her thoughts again.
"Kakashi-sensei!" he was just able to notice that she had tears in her eyes some falling down her cheeks just before she flung herself at him wrapping her arms around his waist. Startled he was that she would do that. He chuckled and patted her back.
"Hello Sakura. I take it you missed me?" he heard he chuckle against his chest.
"I'm just glad you are back." He was glad he was back too. All he could think about while he was on his mission was her. He never did figure out why it was. The only thing he could figure out was what he didn't want to admit for fear of losing her. But he was going to have to face it eventually. So why not now and get it over with?
He was getting attached to Sakura.
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Would you mind if I killed you?
Would you mind if I tried to cause you have
turned into my worst enemy
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Days had passed and Kakashi found that he was being accompanied by Sakura more often than not. He was getting way too attached and he had a feeling that it wasn't going to end real well. This was the one thing that he tried to avoid. And when he didn't avoid it, it always ended badly.
He knew what he had to do.
But could he?
***
He was leaving on his next mission and he knew he had to do it then or else he would back out of his decision.
As Kakashi was walking to the gates he was secretly wishing Sakura wouldn't see him off. but as he neared he knew that nothing normally ever goes the way he wants it to go, because there she was, smiling at the site of him. He sighed; this wasn't going to go good.
"Ohayo, Kakashi." She greeted waving. He sighed.
"Ohayo, Sakura." He greeted standing in front of her. "Follow me." he told her as he started walking a little ways away from the guards on duty today. And she did just that keeping pace with him until he was just outside of the forest beyond the gates.
"What's wrong Kakashi?" she asked when he stopped and looked at her. She had a worried look on her face.
"Sakura…" he didn't know how to word it right. He didn't want her to take it as her fault. She didn't say anything waiting for him to say something.
He couldn't do it. There was just no way!
"See you when I get back?" he asked. She smiled at him and wrapped her arms around his waist.
"Yes. I will be waiting." She said letting go of him. He turned and took to the trees hoping he would find an answer during the mission.
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you carry hate that I don't feel
it's over now
what have you done?
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He was dragging himself back to the village. The mission had gone wrong. Unexpected company made it worse throwing him into battle. He was able to finish of the unwanted company but just barely. He was battered and bleeding his life away. The gates came into his view a few miles down the road. Can I make it that far? He thought to himself. A sharp pain came from his back every time he tried to take in a breath.
His vision around the edges was getting fuzzy and he knew that he wouldn't make it much longer. But slowly he made his way to his destination. He just wanted to get home and sleep for a day at least. Looks like his body had other things in mind because just as he was about to cross over the threshold into the village he completely blacked out losing consciousness.
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There was an urgent call that came from the gates. She ran there as fast as her chakra enhanced legs could carry her. She knew it was one of her boys right off the bat. One the messenger came straight to her and only her, and two because it was always one of her boys that seemed to cause a big commotion.
She arrived at the gates within seconds of receiving the message but it felt like an hour. There on the ground she could see a familiar head of silver hair. She sighed, wonder how much damage he caused himself this time. She thought walking forward to Kakashi. Once through all of the people that had gather she saw just how much damage he actually caused. It still amazes her to this day at how extensive it was. Blood was pooling underneath him and there was a kunai sticking out of his back.
Running over to him she knew she had to remove the kunai from his back so she could roll him over to breathe. Grabbing the kunai with her hand, getting chakra to heal in the other, she started healing the wound from the kunai as she pulled on it. Once the wound was closed up she was able to roll him over out of his own blood to breathe even if it was shallow and rugged.
Quickly assessing that she wouldn't be able to heal him without help she had to get him to the hospital. She looked around to find another Jonin to help her get him to the hospital and spotted Genma walking by like there wasn't a big commotion going on only a few feet away from him. "GENMA!!" Sakura yelled for him. He flinched but turned to her anyway. Upon realizing who was lying on the ground he ran over to them and lifted Kakashi over his shoulder and took to the rooftops. Sakura was stunned for a moment but followed him immediately.
She was getting so angry and she had no idea why! It might have something to with the fact that he always managed to get himself badly injured on the brink of death just like now.
She got to the hospital just before Genma did. She found the first room open and ran into it getting everything ready for Kakashi. Genma put him on the bed and leaned against the wall.
"Why is it always you, Kakashi?" he mumbled.
"Thank you, Genma. Before you go I need you to run a get Tsunade-sama." Sakura said tearing Kakashi's shirt off so she could see the extent of his damage better. She hissed. He had two deep cuts. One ran from his right shoulder to his left hip. And the other went along his left arm, from his shoulder to his wrist. There were many smaller cuts elsewhere. She immediately started working on the large, deep wound on his arm, leaving the smaller ones for later. They weren't as life threatening.
"How bad is it?" a voice came from the door. Sakura knew right away that it was Tsunade. She didn't look up for fear of losing concentration.
"Internal bleeding, a punctured lung, and severed muscles. The artery in his arm was not hit but the cut is near it." Sakura said in a rush trying not to break her concentration as she sewed the skin together with her chakra.
What have you done!?
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I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
(what have you done now?)
Why? Why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
between me and you
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It has been weeks since Kakashi returned from his mission on little more than nothing. He entered into a coma shortly after he arrived in the hospital and now everyone was waiting for him to regain consciousness, but nothing was looking good for him. Sakura had stayed by his side every night and everyday when she didn't have other patients to look after. Every day when she watched him sleep she wondered how it would be if he did ever wake up and how he would act. He already knew he feeling but she never once found out his. Each night she was afraid to sleep for fear of him slipping away from her. Tsunade and ordered her to go home and sleep but Sakura couldn't make herself move. She explained herself to Tsunade and she took her off of hospital duty until Kakashi got better.
Maybe it was fate. And fate just didn't want them to be together.
Or else it was a curse.
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I will not fall
Won't let it go
We will be free when it ends
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No matter what anybody told her she wouldn't let it go that any minute Kakashi would wake up and be alright. Once he woke up she would tell him that everything would be alright and that the two of them would have nothing to worry about. Tsunade would handle everything that came up. They would be free.
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I've been waiting for someone like you
but now you are slipping away
(what have you done now?)
Why? Why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
between me and you
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She waited so long for someone to come and free her from herself after Sasuke left. She only found him about 2 months ago and now he lay in the hospital, no one knowing if he was going to wake up or stay asleep. Sakura felt as if he was slipping away from her. She felt as though she was suffering more than him. Maybe it was just from not getting sleep in the last 3 weeks, relying on coffee alone, but then again maybe not.
It was another day had come and gone and night was approaching. Sakura hadn't had any coffee today since Tsunade was threatening to strap her to a bed to make her sleep for at least a day. As time wore on she could feel the three weeks of no sleep catching up to her as her eyes were becoming difficult to open every time she blinked.
"Maybe it is fate." She whispered to their interlocked hands, letting her eyes close for another time and sleep wash over her.
ook! so it took me a few days to get this story together. i kept getting writters block and didnt know how to get it to flow together. so i really hope it payed off. let me know in a review! :)
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