I never really had that many friends. I never really had anyone I could be close to an share all of my secrets with. I never really had a family. My dad left my mother for a Swedish model when I was only two years old. Even though, the affair had obviously been going on a while. I know this because she was pregnant. 5 months in. for 5 months, or maybe more my father did that to me, to my mother.
This is my story. Its not a very happy one im afraid to say. I wish I could say I was the luckiest girl in the world, had the best mother and a devoted father. But, sadly it was not to be. well, not for me. anyway my name is Bella. My stage name is Isabella. I am 18 years old and live in forks Washington. Me and my mother live in a big house, not the one I grew up in with her and my father. She couldn't bear to look at that house from the day she found out about his cheating.
We live on the edge of forks in a house that over looks a cliff. The front of the house has a huge veranda running all around the top floor. The back of the house was completely covered in glass. It had a beautiful view out over all the mountains. My room is on the top floor the north side of my room is covered in glass, I love it when I look out of it I feel so, so free. Like nothing in the world could ever bother me.
I have my own bathroom and 2 walk on closets one is full of my normal clothes. The other. Well, we will get back to that one later. We had our own pool. Yeah I know what your thinking. Why would anyone in their right mind have a pool in forks? The rainiest place in Washington. Its an indoor pool. My mother was infamous for her weekly pool parties. She invites all of her friends and their children. Their all just a bunch of stuck up snobs if you ask me but I wont go against my mothers wishes and make her upset.
Ever since my father left I feel as though im always looking after her. She has a almost constant stream of boyfriends and new husbands. She used the money from the divorce with my father to buy all of this. She really took everything from him. Even me. I don't know how she did it but she got sole custody of me. I wish she hadn't.
In reading my story so far you all probly think im the luckiest girl ever. Maybe even perfect. But no one is perfect. All the people my mother brings home are just out to use her and after every single break up she does the same thing. Drowns her sorrows in drink. After a break up I will always find her in the wines cellar. Asleep in a pool of her own vomit. Disgusting but true.
She tells me its my fault that father left. I wasn't a good daughter and he just couldn't stand the sigh t of me. She's said it so much ive started to believe her. She lets her boyfriends do anything they want to me. She wont stick up for me. She says I deserve everything im getting.
Its sad to say that I lost my virginity to my mothers boyfriend one night. Most girls just want it to be with someone they love. But no, I got the drunken mess. His name was James. They were in the pool room and I brought in drinks, it was after one of my mothers parties. I gave James the drink and he grabbed my arm and pulled me down and wouldn't leave me back up.
And all the while my mother sat there and watched . When I screamed at her to help me she slapped me so hard I was left unconscious. I woke up in the pool room with no clothes on. Even from this day I never found out fully what he did to me. I shudder even to think of it.
My mother owns a club in forks town called "Renee's". as you have probly guessed she spends a lot of her time their. That where she meets most of her boyfriends. But one thing you don't know yet is why I brought this place up because it's the one thing I resent my mother for the most in this world. Its because I work there. Im a stripper.