Sanity is overrated. Its also boring, boring and dull. It also takes time. I have no time. Its always rush rush rush with me. Going to America, going to school, going to a tournament, I have a busy life, so I have no life. I don't have a lot of friends, a few at school, a few on the dueling citric, and my brother of cores. He's my best friend, which at times I think is pretty pathetic. But what the hell am I supposed to do about it? He's the only person I see every day. And its not like I have time to support another major relationship, Like I said, I'm always busy. Woman confuse the holy shit out of me, as far as I'm concerned they are an entirely different species. I know how to look at one, oh yes, I understand that perfectly fine. I'll never forget the first time Mai Valentine bend over in front of me, She was showing off to Seto, but he wasn't paying attention to her, I on the other hand, was. She was the object of all my wet dreams for almost 4 years. Seto has tried to introduce me to other girls, more my own age, but I would always freeze up, blush and sulk away.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" He would ask.
"Nothing, I just don't handle girls well."
"Your not gay are you?" Yes Seto, I'm gay. He was always asking me if I was gay. Do I come off as gay? I don't think I do. I know I'm not gay, After that dream with Ishizu, I know I'm not gay.
Like I said, Sanity is overrated. I learned a long time ago that life is hard, harder for others than some. This hard life, you have to manage. And the best way to manage is to be a little bit crazy, I more than can handle that, believe me. I learned for the best.
I'm not sure if you know my brother or not, but he's the CEO of Kaiba Corp, the largest gamming company in the world. He's my Hero. Why? Well because he's everything one should be and then some. He's not crazy like me, that's the difference between me and him, He deals with his hard life perfectly. Its hard to explain how, he just dose. I look at him and think, how can I ever be like him? I'm too emotional, so he says. But I'm happy to be crazy. Because sanity is overrated.
I'm 16 years old. Sweet 16, whatever. I think that that's a girl thing, god knows I don't understand. But what I do understand is that, 16 is a weird age, Like did you know that in some parts Africa, people live to be only like 32. That means, that if I were there, I would be having a midlife crisis. Which leads me to believe that I'm only gonna live to be 32. 32 or 16. I think 16 right now. Its funny dieing at 16, I'll never be able to do a lot of things, like have sex. That's the only thing I'm really gonna miss. Or see if Seto ever gets married, I don't think he will, but I wont be around to see. I'll miss him period.
Razor blade. So shiny, like a Blue Eyes. Just as deadly. Which is what I hope for. I don't know why I want to die, I just do. Its unexplainable. Its like I cant handle it, all this sanity, and insanity. So I want to die. Close, closer, blood. It feels good. I like the Feeling. The door?
"MOKUBA! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?" 32 then.