Dear Stargirl,
No, please don't love me, please don't miss me, please don't change again, not for me, I don't deserve it.
I read your letter, twice, every world killed me, I was only happy when you were angry at me, or when you were with Perry, it isn't right. I loved you when you were here but, now your not, you moved away and I moved on with my life. I started living the life I lived before you, with Kevin and school, no desert walks, no meditating sessions.
I thought of you, now and again. But, you weren't the main thing in my life anymore. I got a girlfriend, Cristina, she's no Stargirl but I love her, all the same.
I sent you that note, you know the one with that word on to answer a different question, one you asked me just before you left. Do you remember? You asked if I would be able to get over you, it was a joke but I thought about it for days, the answer was yes.
You said Archie said I was nearly deserving of you well, its not true, I'm not deserving of you. I changed you, you used to only know happiness, you used to have a full happy wagon, know you have an empty one. Its all my fault, I hate myself for it and I hope you hate me for it.
Please don't reply, I don't deserve it, please throw this away, don't keep it, don't treasure it, please don't love me, I don't deserve it.
Leo