Disclaimer: I do not own Fairy Tail! I only own the story rights. Hai! It's Neko-Neko-Senpai. I've finally decided to write. About time anyway. I'll admit this isn't the first fanfiction I've written. I've been writing on other sites in order to build up enough courage to write on this site. Anyway enough of my ramblings. Hopefully this story is good. On with the story!

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Summary: With everything she ever loved left in shattered remnants, Lucy had no choice but to move on. With only the stars as her guide Lucy sets on a perilous journey filled with bitterness to find her true self. After a year with the return of Natsu and the guild, will she ever be able to return back to her normal state or will she forever be a slave to her own demons?

Prologue: Battle Scars

Tartaros has taken so much from us. I looked around at the destroyed buildings and what little was left of Fairy Tail. Was this fight really worth all of this loss. I stare down at Aquarius's broken key and felt hot tears run down my cheeks. Despite all the hell that she gave me, I knew she loved me just as much as mama did.

I sniffled making my way down to my apartment. I just want to crawl in bed and never wake up. With jingle of my keys I unlock my door. I half expected Natsu and Happy to be there rummaging through my stuff like they always do, but they weren't here. Maybe they finally understood privacy. I mused myself with the thought. I dropped my keys on the coffee table and took notice of a neatly folded letter.

Natsu's handwriting was scribbled across the envelope. So he finally learned to write. I opened the letter. The more I read the more my heart sank. What really hit me was that Natsu and Happy stated they were leaving me behind to train for a whole year.

I half hazardously thrown all of the clothes and money I had and ran towards their little cottage in hopes that maybe just maybe I'd catch them before they left. Tears streamed down my face as I raced down the forest path. My knees gave way in front of their cottage as my heartbreaking sobs filled the air. I was too late. I balled pathetically on the ground for probably a good hour and a half before I was found by Erza and Mira. The two of them gently helped me up.

"W-why do you look like you were crying too?" I hiccuped drying the last of my tears.

A lone tear fell from Ezra's cheek and she quickly dried it.

"Master disbanded the guild." Mira mumbled.

My heart sank once more. Everything, everything I loved and cherished. Gone. Aquarius. Natsu. Fairy Tail. My family. Gone. Gone. Gone!

Anger flooded my system. I clenched my jaw and fist and sent the most heart stopping glare I could manage. Obviously it worked because both Mira and Erza seized up.

"How could you?" I muttered still clenching my fist.

"How could you?! How could you let this happen?! After all we've been through! Hell! After all I've been through!" All of my negative emotions reared their ugly heads.

Silence. Silence was all they could manage.

"Answer me!" I snapped fire blazing in my eyes.

"It was the master's will." Erza finally answered.

"Why does everything I love get taken away from me? Is this some sick fucking joke to you?" I screamed at the sky.

When I finally unclenched my hands I saw that my nails had dug into my palms causing blood to ooze down my fingers.

"Lucy we should take you back to Wendy to get that fixed." Mira spoke softly.

"Don't touch me." I spat pulling away from her.

I grabbed my bag off the ground and started in a random direction out of Magnolia.

"Where are you going?" Mira called me.

I froze and turned towards them. This was probably the last time I would ever see them.

"I don't know." Was the only answer I gave as I made my way deeper into the forest.

I could hear Mira and Erza calling my name distantly but I didn't care. This was just all to damn much. I wasn't going to cry anymore. I'm done with hiding behind my friends. For now on I'm no longer little miss Lucy. I'm done showing weakness...

An:/ Prologues. I had to write one in order to make this fic make sense at all. I kinda had a headcanon of what would happen if Lucy had become bitter and cold hearted because of the initial events and this brain child was born from this idea. Anyway don't forget to follow/favorite this story and feel free to leave a comment/review. Constructive criticism is always welcomed in my eyes. It makes me a better writer. As for flames you can leave them if you really feel the need to, but I will let you know that they are completely pointless. I'll continue to write how I see fit.

~Neko-Senpai