A/N: I don't even know guys, I've fallen so far off the edge with this one. The movie was amazing, but I'll never be over Tadashi's death, so here have a butt load of angst and pain! The one thing I notice when I watched the movie a second time was that Gogo really steps up and acts like a big sibling to Hiro after Tadashi dies, and I loved that dynamic between them. I also shamelessly ship Gogo and Tadashi, so that'll probably show up in the second chapter.
Song behind the title is from Bastille. Not a huge fan but the first couple of lines sum things up pretty damn well so.
Just the one drabble for now, at least one more to come soon. Enjoy!
Hiro watched in horror as the science center erupted into a ball of flame. Even from yards away, the heat scorched his face and the force of the blast knocked him back off his feet. He didn't even feel the sting of the concrete as it bit into his hands, nor the ache in his skull when it collided with the ground, his only thoughts were of his brother.
"Tadashi, Tadashi!" he yelled, running towards the entrance of the building. He couldn't be gone, he couldn't be dead, this just wasn't happening.
Before he even got close to the building Hiro felt a pair of arms wrap around his waist, holding him back. Hiro didn't even look back to see who it was. It didn't matter. He had to get to Tadashi.
"Hiro, no!" Gogo shouted over the roar of the flames, struggling to pull him away from the burning building. Hiro fought her every step, his arms flailing, trying to push her off, like a man possessed.
"Let me go! He's still in there, we have to save him!" He pleaded frantically, his voice starting to go horse. Why wouldn't she listen to him?
"You can't!" Gogo grunted, holding fast. Ahead of them, firefighters were swarming the building, combating the raging flames with jets of water. None of them tried to enter the building. None of them tried to rescue survivors. They knew there wouldn't be any.
"He's gone, Hiro! And if you go in there you'll die too!"
"I. Don't. Care!" he screamed, trying to yank himself from her grip with each word. Gogo may not have been tall, but she was stronger than she looked, and Hiro was quickly losing steam.
"Do you think this is what Tadashi would want?" Gogo asked. "Do you think he'd want you to just throw your life away? He's gone, Hiro, there's nothing more you can do for him!"
"No! He can't be! He's not dead, Tadashi's not-" Hiro's voice finally broke as he said his brother's name, all the fight in him suddenly dissipating. He stopped struggling and slowly sank to the ground, his desperate screams descending into broken sobs.
Confident he was no longer going to run headlong into a burning building, Gogo relinquished her grip on Hiro. She knelt down in front of him, trying to block out the sight of the burning building. He refused to look at her, part of him still mad that she'd held him back. Tears fell freely down Hiro's face as he clutched Tadashi's hat to his chest, his whole body shaking with the force of each sob. It absolutely broke Gogo's heart.
Gogo gently reached out and placed a hand on Hiro's shoulder, causing him to finally look up at her. Without warning, Gogo pulled Hiro into a hug, wrapping her arms tightly around his shoulders.
"He can't be gone, he can't be..." Hiro cried over and over again, burying his face in Gogo's shoulder, his tears soaking the fabric of her jacket. Gogo held him tighter, tears spilling from her own eyes as the same words echoed endlessly through her mind.