FIRST FANFICTION! But not first story. I'm writing stories all the time. Feel free to cricize in every way.

I don't own any characters. Except: Kai Raze, Terra Valentine, Delilah Fig, Marcus Tenah, Cameron Haida etc.

When I was 8 I would jump about a yard away to get to my bed. I'd put a chair in front of my closet and pull the covers over my head at night. I thought this would protect me the dangerous creatures that stalk the midnight streets. Somehow..., somehow it didn't save me from the animal I have become myself. The creature I cannot control. As hard as I've tried. The change was unbearable. The worst was that I thought no one would love the monster I had become.

"Bella! You can't let him do this. You're human and that's all you have," Bella and my conversations became more and more intense each time we talked. I missed her. After finding out about her needs of becoming a bloodsucking vampire, I didn't really want to miss her. The fact that she'd betray me was all I needed to let her go.

"Jacob.. I'm sorry. I have to. It's the only way," Her voice was strain. I hope I wasn't making her cry.

"The only way? It's a 50/50 choice Bells. I can't... I can't let h.. I can't love you Bella," I thought that was the perfect time to disconnect the line but I couldn't let her go. The pause was aching.

"Jake. That's fair." The crackling of the line was getting worse. Edward's cell phone needed an upgrade.

"No it isn't! Why can't you see what you're doing? Don't you want to live and die like a normal human!? He.. He probably doesn't even really love you!!" I heard a gasp and a click. I insulted her.

I threw my beat up cell to the ground and buried my head in my hands. I was drowning in my palms. The tears were coming fast. I punched my wall once again and made the twelfth hole in it. The phone rang. Was it her?

"Hey Jacob? I'm waiting outside." It was only Quil. Embry in the background pushing him to tell me to hurry up. I forgot about Emily's Halloween party. I wondered if it would cheer me up.

"Oh right. I just need to uh.. Find my-" I searched for my keys that had seemed to slip away while I was talking to her.

"Hurry Jake.." Embry took the phone. "Emily said there were gonna be some smoking hot girls there! We're late." I chuckled at the thought of Emily saying 'smoking hot girls' the way Embry had said it.

"Well if you'd let me put the phone down maybe I can find my keys and you won't have to be late.." The click of the phone upset me again. I rummaged around in my room. Finding no sight of keys.

"Dad where are my keys? There's a council meeting at Emily's and I'm late." I hated lying to my dad. He didn't deserve it, but I hated the personal questions he asked. And the change made me so anxious and impatient. My dad had to suffer from my anxiety.

"Check your jacket pocket son," My dad murmured while keeping his eyes on the paper.

"What are they doing here!?" Knowing that I never where anything more than an undershirt I figured my father was wearing my hand-me-downs again. (hand-me-ups?)

"Well thanks Dad, I'll be home pretty late. Don't wait up," Without waiting for a response I searched for the door knob and stepped out into the mucky mess of Forks, Washington. I myself did not like to say that I lived in Forks. La Push was my town. Pretty civilized. Not as crowded as Port Angeles and not as rainy as Forks.

Quil and Embry were outside waiting in Quil's 1989 Mazda. I noticed Embry first when I got in the car. He cut his hair again. His wolf appearance grew hair so quickly. The longer your hair is as a human even longer once you've mutated.

"Geez Jacob. You reek!" I wafted my black undershirt realizing I hadn't showered in three days when I keep promising myself I would. I sighed. I didn't want to go to this "council meeting" smelling like a rampaging banshee. Or better yet a rampaging wolf.

"Oh damn. Five minutes!" Without caring about their response I jumped out of the car and ran into my house for a change of clothes. Without a word from my dad or a fall or trip to interrupt my hurried pace I was back to the car in less than 3 minutes.

"Well, off to Emily's party," Quill sounded annoyed as he put the car in reverse and backed out of my dirt trail of a driveway.

"Sorry guys! Do you really want me to go to this party the way I smelt? If you guys really are my friends then I don't think you should answer yes to that question.,"

"They wouldn't care! Right Embry?" Quil added sarcastically.

"Well what if he found his I.G. Quil? He wouldn't put that great of an impression on her, eh?" Embry sided with me. I.G. Was our acronym of Imprinted Girl. I sighed at the thought of Bella Swan. That was her. And the legend says you can only have one. It also says she can choose whether she wanted me or not.

"That's not possible," I whispered hoping that didn't hear me.

"What? Do you really still think she is the one still?" Embry complained. I shivered at the way he said she instead of using her name. I could handle the thought.

"Hey guys! I'm over her. She made it clear that we were just friends," Very clear. I lied about the over her part.

"I.G.'s don't have only have to be lovers Jacob" Quil turned to look at me.

"Quil just keep your eyes on the road," This five minute drive seemed like it was lengthened to thirty. I was ready to get out of this tense car and get over her.

Did it end too quickly? (: I'm sorry. Next chapters already uploaded anyway. Thanks: Nicole. Taylor. Jackson! Astrid for reading in U.S. History and getting in trouble by Mrs. Espinosa.