Hello Xander.
Sometimes I wonder if you remember me. You used to visit my grave everyday, even though my body isn't there, weeping as you laid down a bunch of roses, my favourite flowers. I remember the day you didn't come. I was waiting for you, but you weren't there. The next day you came and said sorry, telling me that there was a terrible accident concerning Dawn. She's here with me, you know. She's made friends with some other girls that are floating around up here. She'll be seventeen forever now. We don't talk much.
You haven't visited me since then. I don't mind though, I'm glad you're moving on with your life. I'm still waiting for you, up here in the clouds. It's weird being up here. I always thought I'd be down in hell. Maybe they made a mistake? Or maybe it's because I fell in love with you. You turned my life around and that's why I'm here. Thank you.
I watch Andrew sometimes too. He's living my life you know? I died to save him. I don't regret it. The little wimp deserved a second chance. I got one.
Willow and Kennedy are the perfect couple. I don't watch them often. I know Willow found me annoying and blunt. That's a good thing about being an Angel, I can hear their thoughts. She loves you very much. Just as a friend of course, which is good, because you're mine and I don't want to share you with her.
But I will share you with Buffy. She needs you. She's been broken ever since Dawn died. I know she seems like she wants to be alone, but when she's alone is when she hurts the most. She looks older than 28, you should take care of her. Just don't forget me, okay?
I can't believe Giles is still kicking. I guess he wasn't as old as I thought he was! I shouldn't be surprised that he outlived me. I was over a thousand when I died.
I miss you. I never thought I'd be waiting for the day you died, but I am. I love you Xander. Even when you broke my heart into a million jagged pieced and ruined my plans of ever having a boat or a tiny pink wriggling baby, I still loved you and I always will.
Forever yours,
Your guardian Angel,
Anya