To Be Loved

by nickule

Sakura's point of view on herself, her life from when she was married to Kakashi and was loved to the relationship with her current boyfriend Saskue. Rated M for Language.

To Be Loved

by: Nickule

don't own anything of Naruto.

Told from Sakura's point of view of here marriage with Kakashi than her relationship with Saskue after her divorce from Kakashi.

I used to could tell you how that felt.

I felt wanted, attractive, safe, among other things.

But as a typical woman it wasn't enough.

I had everything a woman could want, house, land, trucks, guns, and a handsome hard working man that would rip his own heart out put it on a platter and hand it to me if I asked.

You know its crazy I wasn't happy... I couldn't love him any longer... I broke him emotionally even worse than he already was because I left.

Instead I'm happy with nothing, no house, no trucks, no guns, and no safety... no love... nothing... what the fuck is wrong with me?

I don't have the answer... I have only one,... It seems it was healthy to be unhappily married with everything than with nothing.

But that's not right how is it healthy to be unhappy?

How is being happy make you unhealthy?

Well I'm a paradox, not confused like you would think. I'm not a material woman, just underneath the underneath is a very sad, lost, lonely girl that cant be seen. I wear a mask you don't know or cant see the sadness and loneliness behind my eyes.

On the outside I'm calm collected always smiling but its my curse to be truly unhappy.

I wasn't happy with every thing and not happy with nothing...there in lies the paradox no matter what I will always be that sad, lost, lonely girl hidding behind a fake smile.