Gazes At The Sky

With all my ideas popping up like 'Whack a Moles', I just had to make a drabble collection.

Oh, and I rambled in this one. Hope you don't mind. ;)

Title: Just A Fairy Tale
Number: #1

Dedication: Maria (this . pen . is. red.), because I was inspired by her Distance Between Two Worlds' first drabble. :) Which is amazing, by the way. So remember to check it out~!
Pairing/Characters: Ruka
Genre: Hurt/Comfort, Friendship

Disclaimer: Nothing of Gakuen Alice belongs to me. Except a share of the fandom, thank you very much. :D

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/ Just A Fairy Tale /

When she had turned her amber eyes to you, ones that sparkled with fresh tears, all you could do was keep your heart from jumping out in a frenzy. You had always loved this girl. Her naivety, her sunlit attitude, her never-ending smiles that would continually give you strength. You wanted her. More than you would admit. Yet you chose what was good for her instead.

You had always wanted to help her, whether it be making her smile or a simple conversation complimented with your always flustered face. You wanted to save her, but deep down, you knew. You knew that you weren't strong enough for her. Heaven be damned though. You never cared about inner strength, and neither did she. But he did. Your best friend did. And so did everyone else. And perhaps, you hated it. You hated the fact that it was your kindness that caused you to hand her over. And sometimes, you felt like killing yourself for not getting angry at your best friend. But not her. You could never stay mad at her.

You loved her so. Perhaps too much to let her go.

But even then, you would vaguely remember that it wasn't your best friend that fell for her first. It was you. Sure, you respected him enough to wait for him, but that didn't mean your heart waited. No, your heart sped right along, despite your shouts, and raced to be first. To be first in her eyes.

But things changed, and he made his move, never waiting for you. And for that reason, you hated your best friend. You hated that he didn't wait for you, despite your lead. You hated the fact that he won in her eyes. You hated everything revolving around him and her together. But again, you didn't blame her. You couldn't. Just couldn't blame her. Then the AAO came, and she was their target. You were desperate to protect her, despite of your own weaknesses, but you couldn't and froze. So Natsume took over. He did the protecting, the comforting. And all you could do was watch, and fervently pray that his job would be handed down to you, despite your hesitation before.

And finally then, his job was passed to you. Only you. You wanted to scream in joy, wanted to laugh at Natsume's pained expression, but what made you stunned speechless was the look on her face. It was tear-stricken, and you froze. You learned. That it wasn't right to win. It just wasn't. So you stopped. You stopped being a rival, the arch nemesis, and instead, you chose the post of 'Protector of Happiness'. Her happiness. But that didn't work either, when you realized that it wasn't you who made her happy. But him. Again. You couldn't stop your bitter thoughts from overwhelming you then. It's him again. Always, just him. He takes everything you could ever want.

Everything…

No, just her, but she was everythingto you.

You wanted to hurt him, do anything, so that you would win instead, so that the outcome would be changed. Anything. But you didn't. You shook away your bitter thoughts, ones that were brimmed with hatred. You remembered, you thought. Of all the things you both did together. As friends. And then as rivals. Your childhood and your life, and all the special moments in between.

You knew that you weren't destined to be with her.

But you wished it. You wished for something that never would happen. In fact, there was nothing you wished more than your fairy tale with her. Just with her.

But it wasn't going to happen. Not ever.

Always, just a fairy tale. And only a dream to you. And for you only.

But no matter what, you just couldn't blame her. Or him either. Because you remembered, you thought and you smiled. One genuine sincere smile…

Even if it was. . . just a dream. . .

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~5/21/11

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