Dear dairy
To day was ok but I keep thinking about the time in the prison well it was not a prison that we sand people but it felt like one. Ever since I want on the "trip" for my father I have not had much sleep since I was with Michel. So, now I am home and the tension between Tony and I has gone from just can't believe your back to why did you do this to me. Abby has been trying to get me to tell her about what happened but I don't know how to tell my best friend I was raped it was hard enough for me then I don't want to relive it but she want me to tell her I'm sure she will look in this so I will write about it…
When I first got there nothing happened but they did not give me food or water unless I told them what they wanted but they got tried of me not telling them so the started to rape me hoping that I would give in but I never did .right before Tony, Gibbs , and Magee came they told me I had one more chance or the were going to make sure that I was with child .He pushed me down and was about to rape me when Tony and Magee came into the room so he told me that they would have to finish latter and took me to get some thing to eat because he needed me healthy to give him a child so he left me with some gourds and told them to feed me what I wanted to eat he was about to leave the room when he turned and told me that he would be right back then he left. I ate some food that I asked for .The gourds tried to keep me happy by talking to me because if I was not happy there was going to be a fight. While the gourds talked to me even thought I did not want to talk I hard that the leader was the king and he was going to make me his queen and I would be able to have what ever I wanted as long as I did not leave him. Some how one night before they got me talking because the king wanted to know what I wanted and I told them about me friends so he order some men to find them and not to come back till they had them with them so that I would be happy I even had lady-in-waiting to talk to so that I was not bored. I could have fun [ am much as you can when your held prisoner] but every night I was to make the king happy and every day that my friends were no9tn there was a fight because I would cry the king wanted me to be happy because I was caring his child but I never was .when the day came to have his kid every one was to be there to help me he even had doctors there I hated every moment that his son was inside me . Finally Tony and Magee were there and I was happier than I was when I was there with them. When the king saw me smile for the first time he told every one to get out so that way I could be alone with them . When Tony told me that they were going to get me out of there I was delighted .we had to wait for the right time so I had to act like the queen for a litter while longer. The last day there the king gave me eight gold bracelets, two diamond rings ,a ruby crown which he promised me I would get two months ago , and 2 pairs of earrings set with diamonds and Safire. When every one was killed I took the stuff he gave me I only kept two gold bracelets and a pair of earrings them rest I gave to charity.
Sincerely
ZIVA