Why? why has everything happened to me?
My family is gone, first Firestar, then Sandstorm, Squirrelflight, Hollyleaf, Jayfeather, Lionblaze, and at long last Crowfeather.
But why?
I broke two codes, I suppose.
I don't know why I deserve this.
Even my old friends have abandoned me.
Why has it come to this?
Why? Why do I deserve this?
Even when I see the leaders den, I do not remember with joy, only sorrow.
When I see the medicine den, I hide my head.
I gave up on starclan long ago.
I hate myself for that.
I hunt for myself, and spend long hours away from Thunderclan.
The cats look at me with distaste.
In a dream, the dark forest comes to me.
"Come and train with us" they say, I train with them.
"Kill your leader for us" They say, I kill him.
"Kill the stars for us" They say, I say no.
"Come join us" They say, they kill me.
I run away. I see everything.
I lost everything.
I have no name.
I remember nothing but sorrow.
You see me as a shooting star.
I see you as the cause of death.
I look down, far away, on Skyclan.
A queen is expecting kits.
She will kit tomorrow.
Starclan, give me a chance.
Starclan, let me live again.
I see my father, he looks upon me with sorrow.
"I will let you be born again, if you take the burden of being leader of Skyclan"
"Yes! Anything to live again!" I say, I see my mother there too, she smiles, but says nothing.
I am born again.
Thank you, Starclan.