I stand in the bathroom of my small apartment in Mystic Falls, looking into the mirror. At least my hair looks normal, but my skin…it's so pale. I try to remember if I ever looked that bad but I can't. For sure it won't take long until I die…I already look like I'm dead, but honestly I don't care. I know, I'm Katherine Pierce…and Katherine Pierce doesn't give up, right? Is she allowed to give up when there is nothing left to lose? When there's not even hope? I sigh, placing my both hands on the wooden cupboard right next to the washbasin. I take another look into the mirror.

"Hello stranger…what do you think, should we try and climb up to the clock tower again?" I mumble to myself, staring at my reflection. I shake my head. I feel like Gollum…for sure I'm going insane. Now it's 9 days ago since I've seen Nadia last. "Rot in hell!" were the last few words she said to me after I killed her beloved boyfriend…a traveller, who didn't do anything but using her. Did I ever care for the words of others? No! Of course I didn't, but to be honest…her words meant a lot to me and they hurt me. I think Nadia was the very last person who more or less believed in me…at least she wanted to find out if the things people told her about me were true. I mean such things like the psychotic bitch, the one who only loves herself. I think there's no need to explain, you know what I mean, everyone does.

I leave the bathroom and take my black leather jacket. After leaving the apartment I notice that it is really cold…snow, maybe too cold for an almost dead human, but I don't care anyway. I walk into the direction of the Grill. I need a drink to get the courage to jump of that clock tower again. When I finally arrive at the grill I go inside, taking a seat at the bar. It's Matt who asks me for what I want to drink, but of course he knows. I put my hand into my pocket trying to find the last twenty dollars I've got to pay for the alcohol. After paying I don't need much time until I finish my first drink…and the second…and the third, my very last one. I stand up slowly, feeling a little dizzy…I'm drunk again. I leave the grill and notice that I forgot my leather jacket, but I ignore it and head towards the clock tower. Fifteen minutes later I arrive, my clothing is wet because of the snow and I'm shivering. I remember when I stood there 9 days ago; I needed 30 minutes until I jumped off the tower but Stefan caught me and saved my life. Today, I won't hesitate that long. I want to go upstairs to reach the top of the tower, when I notice that the door of it isn't open. What to do now? I'm confused but suddenly notice that the door of a house, not as high as the tower, is open. I run into the house and walk upstairs until I can climb out of a window. Soon I'm standing on the roof. I close my eyes; taking a few deep breaths "Goodbye Katerina…goodbye for good" I whisper to myself and jump. I open my eyes for a few seconds and close them again as I see how close I am to reach the ground…

One moment later Katherine's body hit the ground. Within a second the snow around her turned red, blood red. She lost consciousness but was still barely breathing. She was alive, but it was just a matter of time until her wounds would kill her…