You: Finny! Is that you?
Stranger: Kurt?
You: Yes! It's me!
Stranger: omg!
You: Finn! 3
Stranger: Kurt! 3
You: I've missed you so much!
Stranger: me too!
You: I love you 333333
Stranger: is it true?
Stranger: You're transfering?
You: Yeah :( I just can't stand our school anymore :(
You: I'm really sorry Finn 3
Stranger: don't leave me Kurt!
Stranger: :(
You: I can't deal with those jocks anymore, Finn! I love you, but I have to respect myself too!
Stranger: yes I know dear that's the most important thing
You: 3333
You: You mean the world to me, you know that, right?
Stranger: aw thank you bb you too
You: 333
You: You're my everything 3
You: I can't wait until tonight ;)
Stranger: uuh
Stranger: what's that supposed to mean
You: You knoooow ;)
Stranger: I thought you were going after blaine or whatever his name is
You: No, Finn! He's a great role model and all, but I don't just go after any gay guy that I can find!
You: I love you! And I always will!
Stranger: Kurt you know this can never work
Stranger: I'm with rachel now
You: But I love you Finn!
Stranger: I'm sorry dear
Stranger: you'll find true love
You: Rachel is not for you!
Stranger: you of all people deserve it
You: She doesn't love you with all of her heart!
You: She still loves Jesse and Puck!
Stranger: I gotta go
You: No, Finn!
Stranger: tell sam to come out of the closet
You: No, Finn, don't leave!
Stranger: I need to go take a shower for realz
Stranger: have you heard of tumblr, Kurt?
You: I want to talk with you!
You: Yes, I have.
Stranger: If you really really want to talk I'll leave this up
You: Okay, please do!
Stranger: k brb
You: Okay 3
Stranger: Kurt?
Stranger: I'm baack.
You: Hey :)
Stranger: hey there
You: So, I really think that you should consider what your relationship with Rachel is.
Stranger: I can't do this, Kurt
You: Yes, you can!
Stranger: we've been through this before
You: I just want you to be loved properly!
You: Is that such a bad thing?
Stranger: Rachel's cool
You: Yeah, she's cool, but she will never love you like you deserve.
Stranger: I mean, kinda self absorbed at times
You: Exactly.
You: I mean, no one is perfect, but if you can't see her as perfect, then it's not love.
Stranger: Rachel or no rachel, I can't be with you, Kurt
Stranger: and it's just highschool
Stranger: I mean, honestly I'm not expecting to spend the rest of my life with her
Stranger: it's just practice, right?
You: Yeah... But no one will ever love you as much as I do.
You: Why am I not enough?
Stranger: You are enough kurt..I just *grr* can't be with you
Stranger: I can't do the guy thing
You: Love knows no gender, Finn.
You: I'm gay, but in all honesty, if you were a girl, I would love you just the same.
Stranger: that doesn't make any difference to me
Stranger: i mean
Stranger: from my perspective
Stranger: I just cant
Stranger: not all of us are as brave as you
You: As brave? I'm not brave, Finn.
Stranger: If I was like you, I could never be myself. I'm not as strong as you.
You: I've gotten strong with time, Finn. It's just like dealing with the loss of your dad. It's never easy, but it makes you stronger.
Stranger: yea, well
Stranger: I'm sorry.
You: I love you. You'll hear that so many times in your life, but no one will mean it like I do.
You: And here you are, just pushing me away.
You: You deserve to be loved!
Stranger: i'm sorry
Stranger: what can I do?
Stranger: gah
Stranger: I don't want you to be hurt
You: We can take it slow, Finn 3
You: I'll wait years for you, if that's what it takes.
Stranger: god why are you doing this to me? It hurts me when you say that
Stranger: it can never be
Stranger: besides
You: I don't want to hurt you Finn! I just want to love you!
Stranger: you are going to find someone else
You: No, I never will.
Stranger: just you wait
Stranger: you'll meet someone
You: No one as amazing and perfect as you.
Stranger: yes you will
Stranger: and I will be so happy when you do
Stranger: things will get better, Kurt
You: No, I refuse to love anyone else. You are my true love.
Stranger: well, I'm sorry
Stranger: you'll see
You: No, Finn. One day, you'll realize that we are destined for eachother.
Stranger: well well just both have to wait and see, won't we?
Stranger: in the mean time, Kurt, please for my sake get some
You: No, Finn.
Stranger: it's killing all of us with your sexual depravity
Stranger: It'll do you good
You: I'm young, I don't need sex that badly Finn.
Stranger: You're a guy
Stranger: nuff said
You: I would marry you and have kids with you, and never have sex with you, if that's what you wanted. I don't need it.
You: I just need love.
Stranger: well I guess we're at a standstill then, aren't we?
You: No, Finn, we're not.
You: Why can't you just open up to me? I'll show you true love.
Stranger: I'm sure you could
Stranger: I don't know what to say anymore
Stranger: can't things just go back to the way they were?
You: Can't things get better for the both of us?
Stranger: I hope so
Stranger: god I hope so
You: Can't we just be together, and forget about everything?
Stranger: :( I'm sorry dear
Stranger: I don't know what to say
Stranger: or do
You: Just say you love me.
Stranger: how do we move on from this?
Stranger: or move forward?
Stranger: you know I can't
You: You can love me.
Stranger: not in that way.
You: Yes, you can. I can show you how great love is.
Stranger: god you sound so desperate it's tearing me apart, Kurt
Stranger: why do you even love me, why?
You: I'm only desperate for you.
You: I love everything about you.
Stranger: what's so great about ME
You: Oh, I could go on forever and ever, Finn!
You: You are beautiful, inside, and out.
You: You are the kindest, gentlest soul.
Stranger: okay, I shouldn't have asked that
You: You are amazing.
Stranger: I screw up, Kurt
Stranger: all the time
You: You do what you think is right.
Stranger: don't think I don't kick myself every day for standing by and letting them dumpster you
Stranger: and yet you still love me
Stranger: I never stood up
Stranger: for either of us
You: I'd love you if you wanted to kill me Finn.
You: You just did what you thought was right.
Stranger: no
You: What you thought would work.
Stranger: i never thought it was right
You: You thought it would be the best for you, so you wouldn't have to be punished by the rest of your group.
Stranger: it was weak
You: And that was right for you.
You: It wasn't.
Stranger: how was it not weak?
Stranger: and..selfish?
Stranger: ugh
You: You were thinking of yourself, but it wasn't selfish, because, with time, you showed how unselfish you really are.
You: If I was faced with that situation, and I could avoid being punished by them, I would probably do the same thing.
Stranger: that's still no excuse
You: Anything that you ever did that you thought was wrong, you've made up for now.
You: You've stood up for me.
You: You're my knight in shining armor 3
Stranger: what do we do?
Stranger: I want us to remain..normal
Stranger: but they can't really, can they?
You: We can love each other, be together, and be happy.
Stranger: you know thats not an option
You: It is, Finn. It's always been an option.
Stranger: well whatever. As of right now, not gonna happen
Stranger: I don't want to see you miserable
You: You would never make me miserable, Finn.
Stranger: You already deal with enough shit
You: Everyone has shit in their lives.
Stranger: unrequieted love can break a person in two
You: It already has.
Stranger: oh, god
You: But I can be put back together.
Stranger: don't do this to me, Kurt
You: Don't do this to me!
Stranger: you know I can't help that
You: Yes, you can! You know you can!
Stranger: how can I say I love you when I don't?
Stranger: some things you just have to accept, Kurt
Stranger: I know it hurts
You: You can spend time with me.
You: You can take time to understand me.
Stranger: and have you pretending in your head that I share your love?
Stranger: It might be okay for awhile, Kurt
Stranger: but after awhile
Stranger: you'd start to hate me
Stranger: hate what I'm doing to you
Stranger: I couldn't see that happen
You: I could NEVER hate you, Finn!
Stranger: no
Stranger: a different kind of hate
Stranger: it would start to eat you from the inside
Stranger: i think
You: You love me so much, just not in that way, but can't you just bridge the gap, and make it easier for the both of us?
Stranger: it would be false
You: You could learn who I am Finn. You could love me!
You: It wouldn't be false.
Stranger: *sigh*
Stranger: I honestly wish I could
Stranger: it would be better for the both of us
Stranger: but I just can't!
Stranger: can't you understand that!
You: Just try!
Stranger: how?
You: I can't understand how you can't see us together!
You: You can spend time with me!
Stranger: that wouldn't be good
Stranger: you'd just have your hopes up..
Stranger: how can I explain
Stranger: it's like if you met some guy, you just didn't like him
You: I'd rather you try and fail, than not have you at all.
Stranger: there's no way you ever would. He's nice, but you just couldn't see yourself
Stranger: with him
You: I know, Finn. Brittany has liked me for a long time.
Stranger: it's complicate
Stranger: she's fucked half the school, kurt
Stranger: i don't think using her
Stranger: is a good example
You: But, she really has a crush on me, Finn.
Stranger: and your the expert in that field
You: She told me, Finn.
Stranger: well, fine. Whatever. Maybe. I don't care. the point is
Stranger: where was I going with this?
Stranger: there is no point
Stranger: it's pointless
Stranger: and I feel horrible for saying that
You: I just want you to be happy.
Stranger: you too, kurt. You too.
Stranger: but I don't know how to do this
You: I'll never be happy if I'm not with you.
Stranger: you're 16, Kurt. We're both so young.
You: Love knows no age, either, Finn.
You: Married couples have fallen in love at our age.
You: And we don't have to be as serious as a married couple.
You: We can just have a regular teenage relationship.
Stranger: no matter how many times you say that
Stranger: you know
Stranger: I don't know what to do..
You: You can try to love me.
Stranger: no, I can't.
You: Yes, you can.
Stranger: You need to let go, Kurt
You: When I first saw you, I didn't want to fall in love. But I opened up, and I did.
Stranger: it's the only way
You: If I let go, I'll die.
Stranger: no you won't
Stranger: you'll be fine
You: Yes, I will. I'll make sure of it.
Stranger: you know why?
You: No.
Stranger: how do you think I'd feel to have that on my conscience?
Stranger: if you love me, you wouldn't do that to me
Stranger: dragging around the rest of my life
You: If you love me, you wouldn't do this to me.
Stranger: with the weight
Stranger: of you
Stranger: I can't help it
You: Well, I can't help that I would die for you.
Stranger: that's the honest to god truth
Stranger: we're running in circles here
You: We can always stop. You can just try.
Stranger: what, pretend to love you?
You: No, learn who I am. Understand me.
Stranger: It'll never work
You: How do you know?
Stranger: because I know me
You: But you don't know me.
Stranger: it's all on me here!
Stranger: how do you think that makes me feel
Stranger: If I could love you, I would
Stranger: you know that
You: Then just do.
Stranger: I can't
You: If you want it so badly, then just love me.
Stranger: it's not that easy
You: I know, but you can take your time.
Stranger: if we had all the time in the world, it wouldn't make a difference
You: How do you know that?
Stranger: just because, ok?
Stranger: we've been through this
You: What do you want me to say, Finn! Do you want me to just forget you?
You: Do you want me to just deny who I am?
You: Do you want me to lie to myself, every day?
Stranger: you'd heal
Stranger: eventually
Stranger: all wounds heal
Stranger: you have a whole lifetime ahead of you
You: You really think I'd heal, knowing that after all I've been through, I can't even have love?
You: A whole lifetime of pain.
Stranger: don't waste it on a 16 year old straight boy
Stranger: you can have love
Stranger: if you open yourself up to it
Stranger: i don't know what i've done to deserve this
You: No matter who would love me, I could never love them like I love you.
Stranger: well, sometimes we have to settle
You: And I could never do that.
You: I could never settle for a life without you.
Stranger: I could say I'm sorry for you over and over
Stranger: it wouldnt make a difference to you
Stranger: thats the best i can give
Stranger: that's all I've got
You: Sorry couldn't fix this.
Stranger: well, sucks to be us then, doesn't it?
You: Do you know how many times, every day, I just look at my bottle of antidepressants, and think of overdosing?
You: It might suck to be you, but you don't have to go through this.
Stranger: you need help, Kurt
You: I don't need help, I just need hope.
Stranger: and I can't give it to you
Stranger: it would be a lie
You: No it wouldn't. You could love me, you could save my life.
Stranger: If you love me, you wouldn't do this to me
Stranger: what choice do I have
Stranger: say I love you so you don't kill yourself?
Stranger: what am I supposed to do?
You: No, you could learn to love me.
Stranger: I can't do this
You: Yes, you can.
Stranger: no, I can't
You: You can! You can see how great life can be 3
Stranger: god Kurt you're so fucking stupid I just want to take you by the shoulders and shake the love out of you i'm sick and tired of this, i don't know..I can't..I can't, I just can't can't you see?
Stranger: why can't you see?
You: Finn! Don't do this!
You: Why can't YOU!
Stranger: If you were here I'd hug you and never let go
You: I would never let you go either.
Stranger: I don't know why, Kurt
Stranger: I don't know
You: What don't you know?
Stranger: everything
You: All you have to know is that we are meant to be together.
Stranger: fine. Got that. You've told me often enough.
Stranger: god kurt if you ever did anything to yourself, I'd fucking kill you don't talk suicide, ok?
You: Well, at least I'm not lying to you.
Stranger: I'm not lying
Stranger: to myself or to you
Stranger: thats the truth
Stranger: as much as it pains both of us to hear it
You: Why would I want to live a life of misery?
Stranger: It's not your fault, I get that
Stranger: it isn't either of ours
You: I never said anything is anyone's fault.
Stranger: i know
Stranger: i meant the situation were both in
Stranger: *sigh*
You: You'll never know what this feels like.
Stranger: no, I probably never will.
You: Because everyone loves you.
Stranger: that's not tru
Stranger: *true
You: It is.
Stranger: no it's not
Stranger: just because I'm the qb and popular
Stranger: doesn't mean anything
Stranger: it's all superficial
Stranger: it's just highschool
You: Everyone in Glee club loves you.
Stranger: they love you too, Kurt!
You: My dad even loves you more than he loves me.
Stranger: more than you know
Stranger: he does not
You: He does.
Stranger: now youre just being stupid
Stranger: god, kurt, you really think that?
Stranger: he LOVES you
Stranger: now I really want to shake you
Stranger: he loves you so much
You: He loves you more.
Stranger: if you don't know that
Stranger: no he DOES NOT.
Stranger: I wish you could hear yourself
You: I wish you could see how lucky you are.
Stranger: he just misses having a kid he can relate to, sometimes thats all
Stranger: I didn't chose to be who I am
Stranger: I know you have it hard kurt
You: You don't know Finn.
Stranger: don't think that I don't know for one second how hard you have it
You: You don't.
Stranger: i can never fully understand maybe
Stranger: but I get it
Stranger: I'm going to talk to your dad
Stranger: have you talked to him about this?
Stranger: about us?
You: No.
Stranger: you should.
Stranger: you need someone to talk to.
Stranger: besides me
You: He doesn't understand me at all.
You: We just fight.
Stranger: he would if you let him
Stranger: who do I sound like now?
You: What do you mean?
Stranger: nevermind.
You: God, Finn.
You: I wish love didn't exist.
You: I wish the world was just filled with hate.
Stranger: we wouldn't be human if it didn't
Stranger: no you don't
You: I wish I could just die.
Stranger: no you don't
You: Right now.
Stranger: kurt
Stranger: you need to go to sleep
You: No, I don't.
Stranger: and tomorrow we'll talk face to face
You: I never want to sleep.
You: It's better we talk here.
You: That way I won't make you feel uncomfortable.
Stranger: We can't get anywhere here
You: Yes, we can.
Stranger: go to sleep, dear
You: Never.
Stranger: well i don't know what to do.
Stranger: don't say just get to know me
You: It's so easy though, Finn.
You: We can spend time together, and bond.
Stranger: not for me.
You: We are such good friends, why would making our friendship go further be such a bad thing?
Stranger: because I CAN'T DO IT
Stranger: WHY CAN'T YOU SEE THAT
You: You can! You know you can! You just refuse to!
Stranger: this is pointless.
You: It isn't.
Stranger: it is.
You: It isn't. We need to talk. We need to understand each other.
Stranger: I think we understand each other fine.
Stranger: it won't change anything
You: It will change how we treat each other, and how we think of each other.
Stranger: no, it won't
You: Yes, it will.
Stranger: listen to us! we're just going to have to agree to disagree!
You: We've already done that, and it needs to end.
You: I love you, and I can't have you, so what's the point of life?
Stranger: don't say that
Stranger: I don't doubt you're in love, Kurt, but you are so young
Stranger: i know you don't believe it
Stranger: but things will change
Stranger: you'll look back on this time
Stranger: and laugh
You: So many people have met and loved, and have been younger than us.
Stranger: but i'm not one of them
You: I will laugh, because we'll be together. And if not, I won't exist.
Stranger: dear, I'm going to come over there tomorrow, and we'll talk
You: No.
Stranger: we need to talk face to face
You: I'll be gone by tomorrow.
Stranger: we've been avoiding it
Stranger: you wouldn't do that to me
You: Yet, you would do this to me.
Stranger: it scares the shit out of me when you say that
Stranger: you know this isn't intentional
Stranger: we've been through this
You: It is intentional, Finn.
Stranger: you really think that?
You: If you really wanted to love me, you would.
Stranger: That I would hurt you this way?
Stranger: drive you to be suicidal?
You: Yes.
Stranger: I care so much for you Kurt
You: Not enough to save me.
Stranger: why would I do that? You know I do
Stranger: can we atleast talk tomorrow?
Stranger: for me?
You: No.
You: I told you where I'll be.
Stranger: i'll do anything to keep you from hurting yourself
Stranger: tell me what you want
You: You know what I want.
Stranger: fine! okay! what do you want? A date?
Stranger: get to KNOW YOU?
You: Yes! What else would I want? Of course I want that!
Stranger: open minded, right?
Stranger: thats exactly the same thing as having a face to face talk, but whatever, I'll take it
You: Really?
Stranger: if it'll keep you from hurting yourself
You: You know I won't want to talk about this, if it is a date. I'll only want to teach you more about me.
You: If it means I get to have you, then yes, it would keep me from that.
Stranger: I feel like I'm luring a gazelle away from the edge of a cliff
You: Well, you are, in a lot of ways.
Stranger: maybe if we do this your way, you'll se
Stranger: see*
Stranger: it's the only way out of this as I see it
Stranger: but honestly
You: Or maybe you'll see.
Stranger: I think you'll end up even more heartbroken
Stranger: I just don't want to see that
You: Then I'd just die anyways. But hey, it would be worth the try, right?
Stranger: oh god.
Stranger: yea. whatever. So where do we go from here?
You: What do you mean?
Stranger: balls in your court. What next?
You: We can just talk.
Stranger: okay.
You: You know, I love you as a friend.
Stranger: what does that mean?
You: We'll always be friends.
Stranger: unless you kill yourself.
You: I love you as more, but I love you as a friend.
You: Yeah, unless I kill myself.
Stranger: :(
You: But we'll always be friends.
Stranger: of course.
You: I'll always be here for you, if you need to talk about anything.
You: And we can go anywhere together.
Stranger: you're the one who need to talk lol
You: I know, but you have your own problems too.
Stranger: I'm not suicidal.
You: Yeah, but you have problems just like anyone else.
Stranger: yeah, sure
You: And we can talk about the good things too :)
Stranger: thats a relief :)
You: Yeah, it is ;)
Stranger: okay.
You: I miss just hanging out with you.
Stranger: I'm sorry..I have a lot going on
Stranger: as do you
Stranger: and honestly
Stranger: I've been kind of avoiding you
Stranger: it's just easier I think
You: I know.
You: But, even though it hurts, I enjoy our time together.
Stranger: me too.
You: We can always just hang out and be friends. You don't have to avoid me.
Stranger: we can never just be friends
Stranger: as long as this is hanging over our heads
Stranger: but nevermind
You: Of course we can be friends.
You: I'd like to be yours.
Stranger: you are my friend, Kurt and always will be
Stranger: you know that, right?
You: Yeah, I do 3
Stranger: good.
You: :)
Stranger: :)
You: So how has your life been?
Stranger: hectic. The usual. Football, glee, school
Stranger: yours?
You: Aside from you, I've just been preparing to get into the fashion industry and Broadway, which you already know ;p
Stranger: hey did you pick a song for that assignment due next week?
Stranger: I can't decide what to do
You: I have a huge list, as always ;p
You: I can help, if you need it.
Stranger: any suggestions would be great :)
Stranger: not right now i mean
You: Hmmm... Well you could do something from Spring Awakening. All of their songs are classics :)
You: Haha.
Stranger: we can work on it
Stranger: some other time
You: Yeah :)
Stranger: I'm getting tired, man
Stranger: gotta get up early
You: Well, then, get your beauty sleep 3
Stranger: thanks, you too. We'll talk tomorrow
You: I love you 3
Stranger: I know.
You: 3
Stranger: goodnight dear
You: Night, my love 3
Stranger: you go first
You: I'm keeping this open until you go ;)
Stranger: ahh fine
You: :)
Stranger: night
You: Sweet dreams 3
Stranger: you too
You: 3