birthed of light
conceived of darkness
faceless
He is next to me
fading away
i'm... free now
so what is this... movement in my chest?
i tell master
that i have this... urge
to hurt Him
so he takes Him away
days pass
i recognize the movement within my chest as pain
and pain is a frequent visitor
at first it was something i ignored
but as time passes, i associate pain with hurt
and grief
and loneliness
why am i so weak?
i hate myself
for being so weak
pain turns into sadness
sadness turns into anger
and anger ends
with more pain
i cant help
but to miss Him
without Him
i have no one
i live a never-ending cycle
of hurt, frustration,
and tears
His has connected to another
a sharp pain, more penetrating
than the other pains i've felt so far,
reaches my heart
i am falling
but i hear a voice
"let's open the door"
something has appeared
completely unlike darkness
i think that its
...light?
and, for the first time
i break away from the usual bitter cold
and warmth is in my soul
barely any pain or isolation
but it fades away
as quickly as it came
and now i notice
i have a face
why do i exist?
why must there be so much pain?
what is this squeezing in my chest?
monsters keep coming, frustrated
i take them out with my keyblade
but the pain comes back
twice as strong
as another creature
appears to take the formers place
the cycle continues
until, finally, the pain
its too much...
i break down
tears fall down
master appears
"why?" i ask
"why am i so weak?
"how can i end this pain?"
he answers me
i know now
for me
the way to the light
is through the darkness
i want to free myself
from this pain
so i must go back to where i belong
and both Him and me...
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