A/N: This feautures the song 'when it rains' by Paramore, its in New Moon and if you haven't listened to it, you really should. This is just something I came up with while listening to it just now. REVIEW PLEASE! Also, please check out my story Mine! I need more inspiration for it, so please give me some ideas!
It was raining. I sat on the fallen log by the pond, watching the ducks. They loved rain, but for me it reminded me of him. So, I came here, hoping for a distraction from my gloomy thoughts.
None came.
Although it had been months since he'd left me, and I was with Finn, there was an empty hole in my heart that had just gotten worse over time.
It wasn't fair. Finn was what I had always wanted. He was kind, and hadn't I spent months trying to get him away from Quinn?
But then, Jesse was even more than what I had always wanted. He was talented. Gorgeous. And so much more.
As soon as I thought that, I felt guilty. What about Finn? He was convinced I was over Jesse, like I'd told him months ago. He was convinced that I was fully committed to our relationship, not pining after the angel boy who had left me all those months ago.
But I wasn't over him, not really. I had been lying to everyone else in Glee club.
I had been lying to myself.
Because, the truth was, I missed him. I wanted him, or at least an explanation.
And when it rains
On this side of town it touches
Everything
Just say it again and mean it
We don't miss a thing
He had cracked an egg on my forehead. He had took my Regionals trophy.
He had taken my mother.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And convinced yourself that its not the reason
You don't see the sun anymore
The rain fell harder. I was getting cold, but I couldn't go back, not yet.
Why did he do it? Did he ever even love me?
And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming
Oh,oh, I need the ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain.
What was Jesse doing right now? Was he thinking about me, like I was thinking about him?
Or was he in Calafornia, slowly forgetting me?
And when it rains
Will you always find an escape
Just running away
From all of ones who love you
From everything.
Maybe he had a new girlfriend already. Maybe he had decided to leave girls altogether, and focus on his performing.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And you'll sleep till May
And you'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore
I swore I wouldn't do that. I loved singing - it was my life - but I was a person. I had soul.
And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming
Oh,oh, I need the ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain.
I had learnt something this year.
Never let love go for your career. You may not find it again.
Take your time
Take my time
Take these chances to turn it around (take your time)
Take these chances, we'll make it somehow
Take these chances to turn it around (take my...)
Just turn it around
I had to try to be with Finn. Jesse didn't want me anymore.
Did he?
And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming
And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming
And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming
Oh,oh, I need the ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain.
I slowly stood up and walked down the path in the trees, towards home.
Sometimes you just have to let things go.
You can take your time
Take my time.
A/N: So, what did you think? Not to many flames please! Thanks!