The inner thoughts of Draco Malfoy
Summary: A diary of Draco's inner thoughts about…. The Unfairness of the world and his way of apologizing by keeping it wrapped up inside…
Draco's inner thoughts:
Why am I here? I cant believe I am still hiding…
Hiding from everything I want to be…
Normal…
I see kids in the streets, playing and laughing, like nothing could ever happen to them…
No pains…
No worries…
They are…
Carefree…
Its hard to believe that I used to be like that…
As a kid I was…
Happy…
It seemed like nothing could happen that could change this carefree ecstasy…
Then it all changed…
What have I become?
So lonely…
Hard…
I don't want to be this way…
I want to change…
Is it even…
Possible?
How long has it been since I last smiled?
A true…
Happy smile?
When did I last laugh?
I don't want to burden people with my existence…
And the possibility of them being hurt…
That is why…
I shall never love someone again
It hurt too much to lose my family once…
I cant imagine losing a friend…
Mother …
Or uncle again…
Its beyond my capability to cope with that…
I am sorry Mother …
I feel horrible…
Hurting you and leaving you so many times…
But I do this…
Out of Love…
Please understand how grateful I am to you…
I just…
Cant bear…
Losing someone like you again…
Harry…
And your friends…
I agree with what you once said to me…
I do think that…
That maybe once we could have been friends
But I must insist on hunting you down and delivering you to my father…
There is no way you could ever…
Understand me…
That is why…
I cannot allow myself to open up…
To change…
Although I want to…
I cant…
I just…
Cant…
Hermione…
I appreciate your efforts at comforting me…
Saving me even…
Someday ill make it up to you…
But for now…
We shall go about the duties the world has set upon us…
And until the day we can be friends…
Ill say this…
I'm…
Sorry…
I'm so…
So sorry…
For…
…
Everything.
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