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Sometimes I wish I hadn't fallen for her.
Fallen in love so deeply that I fought for every breath,
every blush that graced her cheeks,
every tear that she shed over the most hopeless of things.
That I hadn't of pushed this and just let it be.
Maybe then it wouldn't hurt so much to watch her laugh
or see the sparkle in her eyes as she speaks of him,
the one that she left behind, the only one she remembers from her past.
I watch her fade sometimes into memories.
They can last for minutes, hours, days she always smiles afterwards.
Should have known that her power would be her connection to him.
The one that I fought to deny. The one I ignored. The one she hides, but doesn't know why.
He is her only companion, the only one who understands her,
She says this constantly whenever I try to reason with her.
Its her defense whenever I try to get her to see that I am here for her.
I am the one she has now and has always had, but she always says no.
I'm not the one she remembers, I'm not the one who put her together for a reason she doesn't remember.
I tell her that I am the reason she needed fixing, but she doubts that.
She says she would never let someone have that much of her unless she had that much in return.
She says that only he understands what she was like.
Thats why she keeps her connection open, so she can speak to him.
He tells her things. Things that I will never know, things they share.
Sometimes I wish I had just left her alone, that way it wouldn't hurt like this.
It wouldn't hurt to have her here with me, but not really here,
to have her tell me I have never been in love so I wouldn't understand,
and for her to have eternity, but my time with her slipping through my fingers,
and for Alice to look at me with such sorrow because Bella's future keeps flickering.
Sadly, I wait for Alice's vision of her to fade to black that way this can end.
My only wish is that she be happy even if I'm no longer here with her.
Thats my last and only wish.
Ok, hey guys. So this story has been hit/visited a lot, but there haven't been too many reviews. I would really appreciate it if someone would...review that is. Constructive criticism is key in growing as an author so I need feedback. points to the review button You know you want to ;)