Do you see the change in me?

There's something about you.

I'm not the same as I used to be

Look in the mirror, but I don't see

Something's making me stop walking away from you when I know I should. I don't know what it is, but you hold my attention like nothing has before.

Do you see the change in me?

Even though I know I shouldn't be doing this, I know I shouldn't be laughing when you make a joke and holding your hand sneakily behind our backs.

I don't sleep like I used to do

Lying there the whole night through

I can't stop myself. There's something about you that's drawing me to you even though I know I'm only going to end up hurting you.

Tell me what I'm supposed to do

I don't sleep like I used to do

Something about the way you dance, the way you smile, that way your hair looks in the moonlight…

Nothing is the same anymore

Nothing is the way it was before

The old ways are now left behind

You are weighing on my mind

I shouldn't be doing this. I shouldn't be indulging you, or my own selfishness. I want to be happy again, but if my happiness means you getting your heart broken, I'm not sure I want it so much anymore.

No one gets their heart's desire

But I shouldn't be thinking like this. What if I end up meaning nothing to you, and you dance out of my life forever? I don't have the right to think about you this way.

Holding smoke when you're wanting fire

I'm sick, and you're only nineteen. I don't see how this is going to work.

Headed down 'cause I can't go higher

I shouldn't be happy that you're sick too. What does that make me? But I am happy, on some selfish level. At least this way we have a chance.

No one gets their heart's desire

But Mimi, I don't want us to have a chance. You shouldn't even be considering the possibility of maybe having to get tested, let alone having to take pills with you wherever you go.

Nothing is the same anymore

Nothing is the way it was before

You should be in the best days of your life, not contemplating the end of them. You shouldn't be with me, having to deal with me and my baggage.

I think if I had the time I could fall in love with you. But you shouldn't have to stick around just because of that.

The old ways are now left behind

But on the other hand, if you did want to stick around…

You are weighing on my mind

You are weighing on my mind

There's something about me. Sometimes, even though I know I shouldn't do something, I go ahead and do it anyway.

Do you see the change in me?

Here goes…

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I own neither RENT, Roger, Mimi, or the excellent song "The Change" by the equally excellent Jon Dee Graham.

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