Another fic! Sorry if I didn't update this 'til it's the near end of SEPTEMBER! I had promise one that I'll update this a looooooooooong time ago..so I'm very sorry 'bout this!
SHADEXFINE:
I never saw you first..you are always second to your twin for me.. you are the second that I had love.. the second that I notice.. the second that I'd know. Yet you are always the first that I had hurt. The first that I ignore. The first I had killed through heart. I had always thought that you'll hate me, despise me and ignore and never love me back. And yet, you had smile at me like I didn't do anything and love me back like I had love you first not your sister. And you don't know how it hurt me.. why? Because I had hurt and ignore you all the time but you still love me…
I had love you from the start. I had ignore the first prince who love me because of you. I had known that you love my twin first. That you ignore me because I had hurt my twin obliviously. That I'm the second you knew. How much you cause me pain, I had endure it.. just because I had love you. And that love will never change.
I got tired sometimes of thinking… thinking if maybe, just maybe.. you don't deserve me… that sometimes you deserve someone which will never hurt you, who would promise you forever, who isn't afraid thinking that it will the last day that you two will be together because you got tired. Yes, I have toyed with the idea of letting you go, to find someone.. but then, I'll cower and hid you from everyone else because I cannot live without you. That's the only thing that I hated loving you because now I cannot stay alive without you..
I had never feared of letting you go if it means that you'll be happy. But I sometimes ask myself… is he happier that he's now mine? Yes. Sometimes I think it over and over again. And I only made it more complicated, I question sometimes… will there be an us if I let you go? But then.. I'll cower in fear.. and observe you from behind my cage in your heart where I am lock If you had left the key for me to escape.. Because if you do….. I'll die instead escape this cage..
I love you.
I had always love you.
But can there be me if you are gone?
But can there be purpose if I'm not the one in your heart?
Now tell me..
Please tell me…
Do you love me because I am the one which completes the you and I to make an us?
THERE YOU GO! HOPE YOU LIKE IT! LOVE YA ALL! PLEASE REVIEW!
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