He stared at his parabatai. His best friend. His brother. He had walked through the portal with the same plans as everyone else. The same dreams. He had imagined that he would hold his parabatai by his shoulders, shake him, beg him. He had thought that his parabatai would remember what he was, who he was. He had thought his parabatai would beg for him to forgive him for the deeds he had done as an endarkened. He had thought he would smile and say he didn't need to apologize, not to him.
But as he stared at his parabatai and didn't see the customary sparkle of amusement in his eyes or the everpresent kind smile, he knew. He knew, what the others around him who were doing exactly what he had planned to do, didn't. He understood what Jace Herondale and Clarissa Fray had been talking about.
His parabatai was gone. It was a demon in his skin, taking advantage of the fact that his voice shook as he whispered "Adriel" to the seraph blade he was holding. He hesitated glancing up at his parabatai. His parabatai's lips curled into a cruel, mocking smile. His parabatai said to him condescendingly,"You can't do it.". That was all he could take. He dodged his parabatai's dagger and drove the seraph blade into his parabatai's heart.
He collapsed to the ground-ignorant of the battle raging around him- and gathered his parabatai against him. He whispered "Ave atque vale" to his parabatai over and over. He knew his parabatai would have preferred death, but that didn't make the burden of the knowledge that he had killed his parabatai-the person he had sworn to protect-any easier.
He felt as though the whole world was looking at him and whispering about the man who had killed his parabatai.Not able to take it any longer he tugged the blade out of his parabatai's heart-painted red with blood- and drove it into his own. He smiled, calm in the knowledge that he would meet his parabatai on the other side.
A/N: Hey! Thank you for reading! Flames and constructive criticism is anticipated since this is my first fic. So review and tell me awful this was.
-Love Lakshmi