Those curious ones.

Khyuu

01.

Sometimes she'd look at the green boy and wonder what he was thinking.

Well, she'd look at all of her friends and think this, but recently she'd been wanting to know what was on Beast Boy's mind more than the others. Ever since they'd seen just how much of a beast the boy could become, she'd been intrigued. How did he cope with learning that he was a monster, or at least had a monster in him? How did he deal with the urge to give in to the beast? To give in to his instincts?

She had so many questions that she'd wanted answered, but she could never bring herself to ask them. It just didn't feel right, asking him something so deep and personal when in all honesty they were barely friends. He probably didn't really like her at all, because she did pick on him a lot. Maybe she was hated by him.

So she kept her mouth shut, quietly watching him.

One night she'd seen him curled into a ball, whimpering and moaning in pain. She never moved to help him, only hid and watched curiously as the changeling experienced...something. Maybe he was struggling, fighting an internal battle with his other self. She'd been in that situation more than once. Maybe he was fighting to control and dominate his beast. Maybe she was thinking too much into this, and the boy had only had a bad dream and was still shaken up about it. It'd happened before.

Then, just as she'd been about to get up and walk over to the boy, his shaking form suddenly stilled, and he looked up. After a few minutes of just staring at the ceiling, his eyes turned in her direction. She didn't know if he could see her or not. She didn't understand why he'd suddenly got...creepy? She wasn't sure how to explain it.

His eyes were the deepest black instead of their usual dark green color. His eyebrows nit together in confusion as he stare, as if he were trying to figure out the most complicated puzzle in the world. She didn't understand it, but her curiousity was spiked.

It never really lasted long. He stare in her direction for five minutes before closing his eyes and just...laying there. She'd assumed he went to sleep or something. Something told her to leave him alone, and go back to her room, which she did.

After that, she'd began to wonder about Beast Boy, and the beast that live inside him.

"Why're you staring at me?"

His voice was harsh and cold. She stare at him in surprise, wondering ow long she'd been looking at him and how long he'd seen her.

She close the book in her lap, setting it gently at her side. She narrow her eyes at him. "...I was thinking." She say quietly, but loud enough that he was able to hear her. He raise a curious brow.

"About?"

She bit her lip, wondering if she was allowed to ask him her questions. They weren't exactly friends. Well, she considered him a friend, but maybe he hated her. She pick on him a lot. He was always too short to her, although he'd recently passed her in height. His jokes were never funny, although now a days he'd stopped teling them. He was loud and obnoxious, but now a days he was quiet and kept to himself.

She didn't really have anything to tease him about now. She isn't sure how she felt about that.

"The same thing you're thinking about." She says finally. "That beast inside of you."

Beast boy frowns at her. "And why are you thinking about that, Rae?"

Raven smile shyly at him. Now was her chance. "Because I'm interested in it. I have questions..." She bites her lip. "Questions that I'm hoping you'll answer?" She stares at him with big, hopeful eyes. She was pleading, begging him. Willing him to agree.

Beast Boy blink at her, and for a moment it was quiet as Raven held her breathe. Beast Boy wasn't sure he could deny her anything while she look at him like that.

"Sure, but I doubt I'll be any use. I barely know anything myself."

Raven smiled. That genuine smile that he rarely saw on her face, especially when she talk to him. Beast Boy felt nice, knowing that he'd caused her to smile this time.

"Okay, well..." Raven thought about what she wanted to ask first. There were so many topics and so little time to discuss them with him. Their friends would be home in an hour or so.

"First, how does it make you feel? To know that there's another side of you that wants things you know aren't right?" She decided to start off simple. That question wasn't too hard, right?

Beast boy thought about it for a moment. She saw many emotions swirling around him. Anger, sadness, but also pleasure and curiousity. Finally, he shrugs. "I have mixed feelings about it, I guess."

"How so?" She urge him to tell her more.

Beast Boy sigh, leaning back on the couch and closing his eyes. "I mean...I'm angry about it, of course. I sometimes have these thoughts that are just too dark and violent to be mine. I see images in my head, and I'm disgusted."

Raven was intrigued. "What kind of images?" She wanted to know so badly.

"Blood. Gore. People dying by my hands." He frowned deeply.

Suddenly though, he looks at her. It's the same like that time she saw him at night. His eyes were dark, darker than anything she'd seen before.

"But...there is also curiousity. Sometimes I ask 'what if'? What would happen if I gave into my instincts?" He paused, thinking. "I also have to deal with the horrifying truth that I am the beast. He isn't another person inside of me. He's me, and those thoughts are my own. That's what scares me."

Raven stare at him, surprised at how mature Beast Boy sounded. She was also surprised at how in some strange way, she could relate. She struggles with her own demons, and she also has similar thoughts.

Clearing her throat, she continued. "Um, do you sometimes wish the beast would disappear?"

Beast Boy bit his lip, shrugging again. His eyes had now returned to their normal green color. "Not really. Like I said, the horrifying truth is that I am the beast. He isn't some other being inside of me. I am him. If he were to disappear, then so would I." He close his eyes again. "And I don't want to disappear. Not yet, at least. There are some things I still want to do."

"Things like what?"

He didn't answer her, and she knew he wasn't going to. Their conversation was pretty much over now. She could tell he was done.

"...Thanks, for answering some of my questions. I was really curious." Raven gives him a small smile before getting up to leave.

"Hey, Rae."
She turns to him, confused. His eyes were narrowed at her, that mysterious dark color again. "You should maybe stop being so curious. Haven't you ever heard the saying, curiousity killed the cat?" He smirk, a sadistic look in his eyes. "Well, I guess in this case, it's curiousity killed the demon. Or at least gets her in deep trouble." With a wink, his eyes are closed again, but the smirk stays.

Raven wasn't sure how to feel about that. She was sure about one thing though, he'd made her even more curious.

...Fin/

AN/

So, I've recently been hooked on teen titan fanfictions, and I realized there wasn't exactly a big variety of ones that I liked to read. So I'm making one. BD

I hope you enjoy this. The second chapter will be coming soon.

Throwing in a little disclaimer, because that's a little important. I don't own teen titan characters.

-Khyuu BD