DON'T LET ME FALL
Disclaimer: I do not own Narnia, or any of the characters, or B.o.B.'s song, Don't Let Me Fall. Please enjoy.
Well it was just a dream, Just a moment ago
I was up so high, Lookin' down at the sky
Don't let me fall
I was shooting for stars On a Saturday night
They say what goes up Must come down
But don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
They say what goes up Must come down
But don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
I woke up from my wonderful dream. My dream where we had stayed in Narnia. Stayed with Caspian. My dream of what we could have been. It was so different from the hell I was living in England. I knew I was worrying my siblings, but I couldn't't help it. I loved him. I didn't know how it had happened. I had barely known him a month. But it seemed so much longer than that. I felt like I knew him so well. And I missed him. I missed him with every ounce of my being. Every thought that crossed my head. Every boy I saw on the streets. He was everywhere. But still out of my reach.
Cause I'm glidin' up there
Oh so very high that if the
Clouds were to drop me
Then I'd fall out the sky
I don't really know why I'm here
I guess I'm just here for the ride
I swear it feels like I'm dreamin
This vividly defined, yeah
So call me whenever you want
Call me whenever you'd like
But lets get one thing straight
You know my name, so I run this town
When I'm on my mic
So here I go B.O.B, Bobby Ray
I don't know, leedahdoe
But I know that I flow
Rack em up, lock em down
Dominos, then I go
Where's my story goes
How did I been done down here before
Come into my eastern catered home
Cause I was in the cold
Tryin to keep my toes unfroze
Now I'm in your house
Now I'm in your stove
Now I'm everywhere that your ipod goes
Everything I seen was a dream
Just a moment ago
It had felt amazing. Being back in Narnia. With him. I would give anything to go back to that. For more time. Just like he said when we left. I wished we had more time together. He haunted my dreams and plagued my thoughts. Sometimes I wished I could forget. But I couldn't. Not Narnia. Not him. Not my first love. I have had so many suitors, but none of them made me feel anything like this. None of them made me feel like I would give anything to be sure that he was happy, even if it wasn't with me. But thinking of someone else in his arms tore at me. I tried to convince myself I would be happy if he was, but him being with someone else - someone that wasn't me - just dug the scars deeper into my heart. He was everywhere. I would see him on the streets, at school, everywhere. But it never lasted. He would fade away. Because I would never truly see him again.
But it was just a dream
Just a moment ago
I was up so high
Lookin down at the sky
Don't let me fall
I was shootin' for stars
On a Saturday night
They say what goes up
Must come down
But don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
They say what comes up
Must go down
But don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
They say what comes up
Must come down
But don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
Yeah, not far much longer
From where that pavement is
Cause there ain't no parachute
That they can make for this
Cause I put my pain my heart
My soul my faith in this
Does anyone feel like how I feel
Then you can relate to this
Just a blaze of this
Maybe roll one up and take a hit
Toast to the good life
Then take a sip
Vaca(tion) everyday then take a hit
It was easy to see I was made for this
From the move all the way
To the way I spit
Just to show all you niggas
What greatness is
I'm talkin very loosic
Like makin movies
To picture my life, boy
You need a higher resolution
I used to cut class everyday
Then run away at night
But now I'm ruler of the upperclass
And I don't even write
No one could feel like this. How could they survive? If it weren't for my siblings, I wouldn't have survived the first day. I wouldn't have been able to take the pain, the aching of my heart. It would have killed me. It was worse than anything I had felt before. And nothing could take it away. There was no medicine for this pain.
But it was just a dream
Just a moment ago
I was up so high
Lookin down at the sky
Don't let me fall
I was shootin for stars
On a Saturday night
They say what goes up
Must come down
But don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
They say what goes up
Must come down
But don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
I sighed and turned back to my bed, trying to fall asleep. Oh, Aslan. I thought. Please, let me go back, just once more. Please.
AN: I might continue this...I wasn't planning on it, but... This is my first Suspian fanfic, so I kinda wanna see how it turns out... Please let me know if I should continue!
-Haru