Disclaimer: I don't own Escaflowne or anything from it.....uh, and that's about it for the disclaimer.
Dedication: To all who read this fanfic....it may not be the best but I'm trying, believe me I am!!! Enjoy!! ^.^
~*~Forgotten Love~*~
~*~Prologue~*~
~*~Love and memories....can't we have both?~*~
" Mommy! Look at the duckie....", baby Tony cried out in delight as he watched with fascination as the little duckling went chasing after it's mother.
Hitomi smiled tenderly at her four year old son. She walked over to him and crouched down. She looked into his eyes, which were the same as her own - sea-green with an unknown twinkle to them She reached out and smoothed his pitch black hair back away from his forehead.
He looked at her and cocked his head to the side, " Mommy alwight? ".
Hitomi grinned and nodded, " Of course Tony. No need to worry about mommy. Mommy can take care of herself. ", she looked down at her watch. " Uh oh....it's time to go home now....".
Tony's tiny pink mouth fell in a pout, " Tony want grandma...we go see grandma? ".
Hitomi reached over and tousled his soft hair. She smiled and shrugged, " I don't know if grandma's home sweetie...but do you want to try? ".
Tony's mouth turned upwards as he grinned. He nodded and cried, " Yeah! ".
Hitomi nodded. She stood up and looked down at her son. She extended her hand and he wrapped his little hand around her forefinger. She sighed lightly and began to guide him down the three blocks to her mother's house. When they arrived, Hitomi slowly opened the door. She found her mother standing in the kitchen, looking out the window with her arms wrapped around her chest.
Hitomi frowned and she felt Tony's grip loosen as he shot forward and clamped his arms around one of her mother's long legs. Hitomi's mother looked down and a smile broke out onto her face, " Tony! ", she exclaimed. " What a wonderful surprise. ".
She bent down and scooped him into her arms. She turned and looked at her daughter, " Well. Hello Hitomi. What's the occasion? ".
Hitomi shrugged, " Tony wanted to see you, so I said...sure why not. And besides....I missed you too... ".
Her mother smiled tenderly at her. She walked over to Hitmoi and wrapped her free arm around her. She whispered as she pressed a light kiss to her forehead, " I've missed you too darling. How you been holding out? ".
Hitomi pulled away and shrugged uncomfortablly. She didn't like to talk or even think about that dreadful day when Greig had died by her side, " Well...since I'm a widow...I guess....alright. ".
Her mother frowned lightly. She walked over to the window and looked outside. Tony began to squirm gently and she quickly and gently setted him onto the ground. He ran to the livingroom and busied himself with the toys in the toybox by the oak bookshelf.
Hitomi's mother scratched her head, " Hitomi. I-is it just me...or do I see feathers falling instead of rain? ".
Hitomi lifted a light brow as she walked up behind her mother, "Um....I believe your right. It is feathers...but what does it mean....? ".
Her mother shrugged uncertainly and brushed past her as she walked over to the doorway. She frowned and said over her shoulder before disappearing around the corner, " Maybe....he's calling you...? ".
The words hung in the air like thick fog and Hitomi frowned deeply as she stared at the feathers that fell to the ground from the gray sky. As soon as they touched the ground, they disappeared. The words were trying to sink into her mind and she bit the inside of her cheek as she knitted her brows together in confusion and as she felt something tugging at the back of her mind. She gasped quietly as everything went pitch black around her. She was surrounded by it.
She waited for her eyes to adjust and when they did, she saw a tall, muscular figure slowly making his way towards her. A strange yellowy light suddenly shone out from behind him as he walked and she noticed a pair of fluffy, long wings that followed closely behind him. She blinked and began to back away slowly and then quickly. It didn't matter how fast she went, he ended up matching her speed. She shook her head and clamped her eyes shut.
When she reopened them, his face flashed quickly before her eyes. She caught a pair of reddish brown eyes filled with love and yet pain. She leaned back away from him and everything flashed a bright light. When she blinked her eyes, she squinted against the harsh glaring light of her mother's kitchen overhead light. She shook her head to clear and she looked around as if uncertain of where she was or who she was. She slowly remembered, bit by bit.
She swallowed and whispered in a trembling voice, " Who's calling me? What is she talking about?....I don't know anyone who has feathers....except for an....angel. ".
***
Van sighed out loud in content as he looked out the window. He spotted his five year old daughter and his fiancé sitting in the shade by the back wall of the inner courtyard, reading a novel together. A faint smile touched his lips and Tida's head came up. She spotted her father watching her and she waved, then blew him a kiss. He smiled tenderly and waved back. She was the most precious thing to him. More then life itself.
There was a quiet knock on the door and Allen Crusade Schezar slipped into the room. He looked at Van and frowned as he walked over to him, " You alright? ".
Van shrugged, " I don't really know...".
" What do you mean? ".
" I mean, it's like there's something missing in my life. I have a daughter and a wife to be...but...".
" But what? You aren't thinking of doing anything rash now...are you? ".
Van shook his head, " No...it's just that Tida needs a mother. To help her learn and to grow. I can't do that...I'm never usually here, Aeria is though. But Allen....am I doing the right thing? ".
Allen frowned. He raked a hand through his long hair, sending it back over his shoulders, " I wouldn't be able to help you out on that one Van...I'm sorry. ".
Van nodded. He reached into his pocket and pulled out a pink pendant hanging on a gold chain. He examined it and grimaced,
" Allen....".
" What's wrong? ".
Van looked at the pendant as it began to glow and swing side to side by itself. He lifted a dark brow, " Why's it glowing? ".
Allen shrugged and watched it swing, " I don't know. Maybe she's calling you or something....".
Van shook his head, " No...it's not that. ", he snapped his fingers. " I got it! ".
" What? ".
Van bit his lip and replied stupidly, " I don't know....I guess I miss her. How long's it been? ".
Allen cocked his head to the side, " About...ten years I believe. ".
Van whistled, " Really? That long huh? I wish she'd come back...I honestly do. ".
Allen lifted a light brow, " Why do you say that? ".
Van pursed his lips, " I miss her...I mean....I wish I knew of some way to get her to come back to Gaea. But what? ".
Allen opened his mouth to speak but a loud and insistant knock at the door interrupted him. Van looked at Allen then at the door," Who is it? ".
The door was thrown open and one of his guards breathlessly stumbled into the room. Blood smear along the side of his pale face as he looked at Allen then at Van, " Sire! Lady Aeria and her highness Tida are...dead...".
Van's heart stopped in his chest. He reached out and gripped the side of his desk. His mouth went as dry as cotton, " W-w-what are you talking about? They were perfectly fine two minutes ago...how? When? ".
" About a minute ago Sire. Me and Victore found them. They have no visible wounds on their bodies, and no blood either.
They were just laying there on the ground....", he shuddered at the memory.
Allen knitted his brows together in anger, " That doesn't make any sense! How would that be possible? ".
Van slowly lowered himself into his chair. He propped his elbows on the desk and leaned forward, resting his head in his hands. The guard looked at him and licked his lips, " Sire? What would you like us to do...? ".
Van swallowed with great difficulty. He also tried to swallow the lump of tears that had formed in his throat. He managed to say in a gruff voice full of emotion, " I'll handle it. Just leave them where they are...".
The guard bowed deeply and left the room. Allen looked at Van and noticed that his shoulder's rose and fell. He took a step towards him, " Van, I-I'm sorry...is there anything I can do for you in this time of need? ".
Van looked up at him. Pain etched clearly in his Reddish-brown eyes. Tears slid down his cheeks, " A-allen...I'd like to be alone. I'm going to go see them....".
Allen nodded, bowed deeply and left Van alone to grieve over the deaths of his daughter and fiancé.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything from or of Escaflowne....just the characters that I made up with my pathetic talent....
Dedication: To all who read this and actually appreciate it....*giggles* Just joking to all those who take offense....^.~
~*~Forgotten Love~*~
~*~Chapter 1~*~
~*~Lost Memories~*~
" Hitomi? You're going to bring Tony with you, when you come over?...right? ", her mother asked lightly into the phone.
Hitomi Kanzaki nodded as she twisted the phone cord around her finger, " Yes mom, you don't need to worry. We'll be around your house tomorrow at...about, a little after supper....".
" Good! Hitomi? Have you been seeing those feathers anymore? ".
Hitomi bit her lip, " I...have. I still don't understand what it all means though. ".
" Like I said back in the kitchen....maybe he's calling you. ".
She frowned in annoyance, " Who? I don't know anybody who has wings! Except for an....angel, and it wouldn't be Greig either mother.....".
" I didn't mean Greig dear. I meant your mystery man from that other planet. ", her mother groaned. " Oh! What was it called? Oh yes! Gaea...that's it! ".
' Gaea? What the....? '.
" Gaea? What's that? Where is it? ".
Her mother paused, " You mean...you don't...remember? ".
Hitomi shook her head, " No, I don't even know what you're talking about...a man with wings? An unknown planet named Gaea...it doesn't make any sense. ".
" Hmmm....what about...Fanelia? Or Asturia? Ring a bell yet? ".
She didn't even remember telling her mother about whatever she was talking about. Hitomi sighed lightly and shook her head,
" No...these names...they have no meaning to me whatsoever. I don't even know where or what they are! ".
Her mother coughed lightly, " Alright. Then, how's Tony been doing? ".
Happy to get off that subject, a smile broke out on her face, " oh, he's sleeping. He should be awake from his nap anytime now...".
Her mother chuckled, " Been staying out of trouble? ".
" Who? Me or him? ", she joked.
" Him silly....".
" Oh...he's been just a little restless lately. I have to take him to the park almost everyday. I guess this is the life of
a single parent...huh? ", she said softly.
Her mother remained silent on the other line.
" What's wrong? "
" wha - ? Oh....nothing. I was just watching a couple down the street....".
Hitomi frowned," I see....".
" Yes....".
Her mother frowned, " Is something wrong? ".
" Oh no....but I'd better let you go now. I have to get Tony ready for our little walk to the park...".
" alright dear. I'll see you tomorrow night, and do take care of yourself. ".
Hitomi smiled, " Don't worry mom. I'll be able to do that....I'll see you tomorrow. Bye. ".
She placed the receiver back onto the hook and slowly stood up from the sofa. She walked down the hall and turned left, ending up in Tony's doorway. He was sitting on the ground, surrounded be toy trucks, cars, and tractors. He looked up at Hitomi and grinned, " Mommie! Hiya....we go to the park? Go see the duckies? ".
Hitomi felt her heart melt. She crossed the room and sat crossed legged on the ground. She looked at him and smiled, " yes we are sweetie. Come on...let's go before the ducks leave...".
He jumped up and stepped over the assorted vehicles scattered on the ground around him. He walked towards Hitomi and sat down on her lap. He slid his little arms around her neck and planted a wet kiss on her cheek, " Let's go now. Okay mommie? ".
Hitomi nodded and slid an arm around his waist. Standing up, she shifted him over so he'd be sitting comfortably on her hip. She walked with him over to the door, setting him down onto the ground, she bent over and tied his shoelaces. He watched her face as she tied his shoelaces. She looked up and smiled, then reached over and slid her bare feet into a pair of black, strappy sandals.
She wiggled her baby-blue painted toes before stepping out into the bright sun with Tony. She locked the door and then gently took his hand in hers. They headed down the street to the park.
Tony looked at the ground while they walked and Hitomi noticed that he had become more distant since they had left the house. She frowned lightly, " Tony? Baby, is there something on your mind? ".
Tony looked up at her and he had the same frown pastered to his face, " I miss daddy. ".
Hitomi swallowed and nodded, " I know baby...I know. ".
" Do you miss daddy too? ".
The question had caught her offguard," Of course I do. Why wouldn't I? ".
Tony shrugged. He remained silent the rest of the way there. When they finally reached the park, he tore his hand from her and took off after the ducks that were collected by the pond. Hitomi smiled lightly and went to sit on the grass in the shade. Her short, spagetthi strap sundress hiked higher up her legs and she quickly pulled it down with a frown as she stretched out her long legs out on the grass.
She watched as Tony was crouched down on the ground, looking at the ducks with fascination. She wrinkled her nose and smiled. A long strand of light brown hair whipped in front of her face and she reached up to brush it away. That's when she heard the voices.
" I'd love to stay, I mean....I love it here in Fanelia...but...I have to go back. ".
" It would be more then fine with me Hitomi, if you stayed here....in Fanelia. ".
She blinked hard and looked around in confusion, ' what's going on? I've heard that name before....but where? '.
The lost memory continued and this time she was able to catch a glimpse of the boy behind the mysterious voice that made her curious to find out who it was.
" You're always welcom here....in Fanelia, and Gaea. You know that...", he said softly as he looked into her eyes with his
own Reddish-brown ones.
' I've seen those eyes before....'
His pitch black hair swayed to the side as the light breeze ruffled it lightly. His face was kind and sincere. She looked at him and noticed that his eyes were filled with pain, love, and curiousity. His features were somewhat ruggish as if he had sustained a lot through his life and his baby-cuteness was making her go crazy.
" I know that....I will try to come back...", she promised him.
She swallowed and held out her hand, the pink pendant hung from her fingers. The man extended his hand and she lowered her hand onto his. He held her hand in his for awhile, and she looked into his eyes. The grip he had on her hand was gone, but she felt his hand again as it slid up her forearm gently until it rested holding her elbow. He then drew her into the comfort of his strong arms....
" Mommie! ", Tony's persistant voice snapped her back into reality.
She blinked and looked at him as he ran up to her, " what's wrong sweetie? ".
He plopped down onto the grass beside her, trying to catch his breath, " Whatcha doing? ".
' Having really strange....dreams? ', she thought, but then said instead. " Just sitting her...watching you chase the duckies...".
He shook his head, " No you weren't. You looked like you were sleeping. ".
She lifted an eyebrow, " But I wasn't....".
Tony frowned, " Yes you were....", he insisted.
" Alright baby, if you say so. ", she said in a soft voice. " Shall we head back for some supper? ".
He jumped up, " Yeah! ", he cried. " what will we have? ".
Hitomi shrugged as she gently took his hand in hers and began to walk home, " I don't know....".
The words of the unknown man echoed throughout her mind, and his reddish-brown eyes haunted her the entire way home, ' " You're always welcome here...in Fanelia, and Gaea. You know that...." '
***
Van slanzar de Fanel looked at his advisor Keldorn while he rambled about how great it would be if the King of Fanelia settled down with a Queen. Keldorn looked up at his King and then frowned. His clear blue eyes took on a hint of concern as he searched Van's face, " Sire? You alright? ".
Van frowned, " Why wouldn't I be Keldorn? ".
He shrugged uncomfortably, " Well...you look a little lost. I mean....ever since the deaths of Lady Aeria and little Tida..".
Van swallowed the lump of tears that had begun to form in his throat, " W-what do you mean? ".
" Well...you're...forgive me Sire, but...", he stopped and leaned forward and whispered in a low tone. " you're dragging your...uh, ass around the castle these days. You're never outside admiring the flowers in the courtyard or even the young noble women who pass by to see you. ".
Van flinched noticeably, " I'm sory....I just have so many things on my mind at the moment. ".
Keldorn nodded understanding what he meant. Van blew through his lips as he pursed them together. He turned his head to the side and looked out the window. He then stood up and walked to the door, " I'm going for a walk Keldorn. Would you please stay and try to hold up the fort while I'm gone? ".
Keldorn stood up and bowed deeply, " Sire. ".
Van nodded and then left the room in silence. He walked down the hall and turned left. He stood in front of the door that led to the courtyard. He took a deep breath and pulled the door open. He stepped out into the bright sun and inhaled the sweet scent of roses. The smell immediately brought back painful memories of when he would have Hitomi standing near him, or when he'd hold her in his arms. She smelt like roses as did Tida. When she was first born, she smelt like roses when he held her in his arms and nuzzled her baby soft face.
He closed his eyes against the memories, " I can't keep living in the past. I've got to keep going....got to move on. For the sake of Fanelia and for....myself....".
He opened his eyes and began to walk towards a shaded area. His black pants strained against his muscular legs as he walked. His red shirt was the same as it was when he was fifteen, only it clung to his chest and stomach like a second skin and it showed that he had grown up. His long black cape flared out behind him as he walked. His hands were covered in a pair of black gloves as he held them clasped behind his back. When he reached the tree he liked to lean against, he sat down on the soft grass and leaned his head back against the rough bark. He looked up at the leafs and sighed loudly. He felt a sharp prick on his leg and he grimaced.
He reached down into his pocket and pulled out the pink pendant. He looked at it and frowned. Then as if commanded to, it began to once again glow and swing from side to side. He shook his head and quickly placed it back into his pocket. His frown deepened as he felt something tug at the back of his mind. He quickly reached back into his pocket, pulling out the pendant. He smiled lightly and slipped the chain around his head. The pink pendant hung from his neck but it wouldn't stop glowing. He sighed and then closed his eyes. He felt himself slowly drift off into a deep sleep with the face of his first wife in his mind. She looked a lot like Hitomi herself, only Nalia had light blue hair and deep violet eyes.
***
Allen Crusade Schezar sighed lightly as he watched his four year old daughter Marianne sitting on a windowseat. she was flipping through a picture book that he had gotten for her 3rd birthday which was on (the) Blue 4th moon, a day after his. He carefully studied her face. She had Millerna's deep violet eyes, her figure - which he so much loved, and their blonde hair. He raked a hand through his own long blonde hair and quietly slipped from the room.
He walked down the hall to where he had left Millerna a few minutes ago. He found her standing by the window. She was tenderly rubbing her bulging stomach and she was talking to it, saying soft and loving words. He silently slipped up behind her. His arms went under hers as he hugged her from behind and pulled her against him. she sighed lightly and he frowned, " What is it? ".
Millerna Sara Aston Schezar closed her violet eyes and shook her head, " nothing Allen...the doctor was just here, and he said that baby Leon isn't due for another month or two. ".
Allen kissed her hair and smiled, " Reall? Interesting...I can't wait anymore. ", he said against her hair. " Can you? ".
She shook her head, " No...I can't. I just want to push him out now, but I can't....".
Allen chuckled loudly as he felt Millerna cover his hands with her own. She guided them over and around her stomach, " What are you doing? ".
" Shh! Just feel and enjoy....", she whispered quietly.
She began to move his hand slowly over and around her stomach, as if massaging it. She felt a hard kick and she sucked in a sharp breath. Allen knitted his brows together in concern, " What's wrong? Did I hurt you? ".
She shook her head, " No...Leon just kicked me...a little TOO hard. That's all. Don't worry Allen....".
He nodded, " So...", he slowly took his hands from hers and he spun her around to face him. She looked up at him and smiled lightly, " What's wrong Allen? ",
He shook his head and lowered his face to hers. He rested his forehead against hers and gazed lovingly into her eyes, " No, I'm just so happy. That's all. And if yuo're wondering why...it's because I have a beautiful princess for a wife and two beautiful charming children to go with my life. ".
Her smile widened and she lightly blew on his lips. Allen pulled away slowly. Millerna looked up at him frowning, " What's wrong now? ".
He looked down at her and lowered his face to hers. He smiled lightly and said before he captured her lips in his for a passionate kiss, " What makes you think that something would be wrong love? Nothing's wrong. It's all perfect. ".
Millerna pulled away from him. She looked at him with concern etched in her eyes, " Well....how's Van's doing? ".
Allen frowned and scratched his head, " I haven't heard from him since the day it happened. He's probably doing alright...".
Millerna quirked an eyebrow, " Really? You think so? ".
He nodded, " yea...."
" I think we should go se- ".
Allen cut in, " Millerna...no! We can't. ".
She frowned. She placed her hands on her hips, and narrowed her eyes, " And why can't we Allen? ".
" Because! ", he snapped. " We have to give him time to grieve. He just lost his little girl...and his second wife. ".
Millerna looked hurt, " You didn't have to snap at me Allen Crusade Schezar! And I know he just lost his family. ".
Allen flinched at the name she used when she was pissed off and he sighed in frustration, " I'm sorry Millerna, I didn't mean to snap love...I-I just don't know what I would do if I lost you and Marianne. ".
She let out a breath that she didn't know she was holding. She walked up to him and slipped her arms around his neck. He surpressed a groan and buried his face into the curve of her neck, inhaling the light scent of vanilla that she wore, as he wrapped his arms around her bulging waist. Millerna reached up and began to twirl a strand of his long blonde hair around her finger.
She quietly whispered into his ear as she kissed his temple lightly, " A-allen...don't worry. You won't ever lose me or Marianne. Ever! You have the word of a princess....".
" I better not lose you. My life would end up like Van's....and I don't want that to happen...", he said against her neck.
His warm breath caressed her neck gently and she shivered, " Well...? ", she sid impatienty.
" What? ", he siad as he pulled away and looked down at her.
" Are we going to go see him....or not? ".
Allen sighed in defeat as he noticed the look of pure determination in her eyes, " Alright...we'll go and pay him a little unexpected visit. ".
Her eyes lit up and she smiled, " Great! Shall we bring Marianne along? ".
Allen nodded slowly, " Sure....I'm sure she'd like to meet him, and also Merle....".
" Ahh...Merle. I forgot about her....", she chuckled lightly.
" Yeah.....shall we begin packing for an overnighter? ".
Millerna nodded, " Yea....I'll go get Marianne ready. ".
He nodded. He walked towards her and smoothed away her bangs from her forehead before he kissed her lightly, "
Yea....better hurry love. ".
" Right ", she said as she turned and left Allen alone in the room to brood over his thoughts and worries about their trip to Fanelia.
Dedication: To all who read this fanfic....it may not be the best but I'm trying, believe me I am!!! Enjoy!! ^.^
~*~Forgotten Love~*~
~*~Prologue~*~
~*~Love and memories....can't we have both?~*~
" Mommy! Look at the duckie....", baby Tony cried out in delight as he watched with fascination as the little duckling went chasing after it's mother.
Hitomi smiled tenderly at her four year old son. She walked over to him and crouched down. She looked into his eyes, which were the same as her own - sea-green with an unknown twinkle to them She reached out and smoothed his pitch black hair back away from his forehead.
He looked at her and cocked his head to the side, " Mommy alwight? ".
Hitomi grinned and nodded, " Of course Tony. No need to worry about mommy. Mommy can take care of herself. ", she looked down at her watch. " Uh oh....it's time to go home now....".
Tony's tiny pink mouth fell in a pout, " Tony want grandma...we go see grandma? ".
Hitomi reached over and tousled his soft hair. She smiled and shrugged, " I don't know if grandma's home sweetie...but do you want to try? ".
Tony's mouth turned upwards as he grinned. He nodded and cried, " Yeah! ".
Hitomi nodded. She stood up and looked down at her son. She extended her hand and he wrapped his little hand around her forefinger. She sighed lightly and began to guide him down the three blocks to her mother's house. When they arrived, Hitomi slowly opened the door. She found her mother standing in the kitchen, looking out the window with her arms wrapped around her chest.
Hitomi frowned and she felt Tony's grip loosen as he shot forward and clamped his arms around one of her mother's long legs. Hitomi's mother looked down and a smile broke out onto her face, " Tony! ", she exclaimed. " What a wonderful surprise. ".
She bent down and scooped him into her arms. She turned and looked at her daughter, " Well. Hello Hitomi. What's the occasion? ".
Hitomi shrugged, " Tony wanted to see you, so I said...sure why not. And besides....I missed you too... ".
Her mother smiled tenderly at her. She walked over to Hitmoi and wrapped her free arm around her. She whispered as she pressed a light kiss to her forehead, " I've missed you too darling. How you been holding out? ".
Hitomi pulled away and shrugged uncomfortablly. She didn't like to talk or even think about that dreadful day when Greig had died by her side, " Well...since I'm a widow...I guess....alright. ".
Her mother frowned lightly. She walked over to the window and looked outside. Tony began to squirm gently and she quickly and gently setted him onto the ground. He ran to the livingroom and busied himself with the toys in the toybox by the oak bookshelf.
Hitomi's mother scratched her head, " Hitomi. I-is it just me...or do I see feathers falling instead of rain? ".
Hitomi lifted a light brow as she walked up behind her mother, "Um....I believe your right. It is feathers...but what does it mean....? ".
Her mother shrugged uncertainly and brushed past her as she walked over to the doorway. She frowned and said over her shoulder before disappearing around the corner, " Maybe....he's calling you...? ".
The words hung in the air like thick fog and Hitomi frowned deeply as she stared at the feathers that fell to the ground from the gray sky. As soon as they touched the ground, they disappeared. The words were trying to sink into her mind and she bit the inside of her cheek as she knitted her brows together in confusion and as she felt something tugging at the back of her mind. She gasped quietly as everything went pitch black around her. She was surrounded by it.
She waited for her eyes to adjust and when they did, she saw a tall, muscular figure slowly making his way towards her. A strange yellowy light suddenly shone out from behind him as he walked and she noticed a pair of fluffy, long wings that followed closely behind him. She blinked and began to back away slowly and then quickly. It didn't matter how fast she went, he ended up matching her speed. She shook her head and clamped her eyes shut.
When she reopened them, his face flashed quickly before her eyes. She caught a pair of reddish brown eyes filled with love and yet pain. She leaned back away from him and everything flashed a bright light. When she blinked her eyes, she squinted against the harsh glaring light of her mother's kitchen overhead light. She shook her head to clear and she looked around as if uncertain of where she was or who she was. She slowly remembered, bit by bit.
She swallowed and whispered in a trembling voice, " Who's calling me? What is she talking about?....I don't know anyone who has feathers....except for an....angel. ".
***
Van sighed out loud in content as he looked out the window. He spotted his five year old daughter and his fiancé sitting in the shade by the back wall of the inner courtyard, reading a novel together. A faint smile touched his lips and Tida's head came up. She spotted her father watching her and she waved, then blew him a kiss. He smiled tenderly and waved back. She was the most precious thing to him. More then life itself.
There was a quiet knock on the door and Allen Crusade Schezar slipped into the room. He looked at Van and frowned as he walked over to him, " You alright? ".
Van shrugged, " I don't really know...".
" What do you mean? ".
" I mean, it's like there's something missing in my life. I have a daughter and a wife to be...but...".
" But what? You aren't thinking of doing anything rash now...are you? ".
Van shook his head, " No...it's just that Tida needs a mother. To help her learn and to grow. I can't do that...I'm never usually here, Aeria is though. But Allen....am I doing the right thing? ".
Allen frowned. He raked a hand through his long hair, sending it back over his shoulders, " I wouldn't be able to help you out on that one Van...I'm sorry. ".
Van nodded. He reached into his pocket and pulled out a pink pendant hanging on a gold chain. He examined it and grimaced,
" Allen....".
" What's wrong? ".
Van looked at the pendant as it began to glow and swing side to side by itself. He lifted a dark brow, " Why's it glowing? ".
Allen shrugged and watched it swing, " I don't know. Maybe she's calling you or something....".
Van shook his head, " No...it's not that. ", he snapped his fingers. " I got it! ".
" What? ".
Van bit his lip and replied stupidly, " I don't know....I guess I miss her. How long's it been? ".
Allen cocked his head to the side, " About...ten years I believe. ".
Van whistled, " Really? That long huh? I wish she'd come back...I honestly do. ".
Allen lifted a light brow, " Why do you say that? ".
Van pursed his lips, " I miss her...I mean....I wish I knew of some way to get her to come back to Gaea. But what? ".
Allen opened his mouth to speak but a loud and insistant knock at the door interrupted him. Van looked at Allen then at the door," Who is it? ".
The door was thrown open and one of his guards breathlessly stumbled into the room. Blood smear along the side of his pale face as he looked at Allen then at Van, " Sire! Lady Aeria and her highness Tida are...dead...".
Van's heart stopped in his chest. He reached out and gripped the side of his desk. His mouth went as dry as cotton, " W-w-what are you talking about? They were perfectly fine two minutes ago...how? When? ".
" About a minute ago Sire. Me and Victore found them. They have no visible wounds on their bodies, and no blood either.
They were just laying there on the ground....", he shuddered at the memory.
Allen knitted his brows together in anger, " That doesn't make any sense! How would that be possible? ".
Van slowly lowered himself into his chair. He propped his elbows on the desk and leaned forward, resting his head in his hands. The guard looked at him and licked his lips, " Sire? What would you like us to do...? ".
Van swallowed with great difficulty. He also tried to swallow the lump of tears that had formed in his throat. He managed to say in a gruff voice full of emotion, " I'll handle it. Just leave them where they are...".
The guard bowed deeply and left the room. Allen looked at Van and noticed that his shoulder's rose and fell. He took a step towards him, " Van, I-I'm sorry...is there anything I can do for you in this time of need? ".
Van looked up at him. Pain etched clearly in his Reddish-brown eyes. Tears slid down his cheeks, " A-allen...I'd like to be alone. I'm going to go see them....".
Allen nodded, bowed deeply and left Van alone to grieve over the deaths of his daughter and fiancé.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything from or of Escaflowne....just the characters that I made up with my pathetic talent....
Dedication: To all who read this and actually appreciate it....*giggles* Just joking to all those who take offense....^.~
~*~Forgotten Love~*~
~*~Chapter 1~*~
~*~Lost Memories~*~
" Hitomi? You're going to bring Tony with you, when you come over?...right? ", her mother asked lightly into the phone.
Hitomi Kanzaki nodded as she twisted the phone cord around her finger, " Yes mom, you don't need to worry. We'll be around your house tomorrow at...about, a little after supper....".
" Good! Hitomi? Have you been seeing those feathers anymore? ".
Hitomi bit her lip, " I...have. I still don't understand what it all means though. ".
" Like I said back in the kitchen....maybe he's calling you. ".
She frowned in annoyance, " Who? I don't know anybody who has wings! Except for an....angel, and it wouldn't be Greig either mother.....".
" I didn't mean Greig dear. I meant your mystery man from that other planet. ", her mother groaned. " Oh! What was it called? Oh yes! Gaea...that's it! ".
' Gaea? What the....? '.
" Gaea? What's that? Where is it? ".
Her mother paused, " You mean...you don't...remember? ".
Hitomi shook her head, " No, I don't even know what you're talking about...a man with wings? An unknown planet named Gaea...it doesn't make any sense. ".
" Hmmm....what about...Fanelia? Or Asturia? Ring a bell yet? ".
She didn't even remember telling her mother about whatever she was talking about. Hitomi sighed lightly and shook her head,
" No...these names...they have no meaning to me whatsoever. I don't even know where or what they are! ".
Her mother coughed lightly, " Alright. Then, how's Tony been doing? ".
Happy to get off that subject, a smile broke out on her face, " oh, he's sleeping. He should be awake from his nap anytime now...".
Her mother chuckled, " Been staying out of trouble? ".
" Who? Me or him? ", she joked.
" Him silly....".
" Oh...he's been just a little restless lately. I have to take him to the park almost everyday. I guess this is the life of
a single parent...huh? ", she said softly.
Her mother remained silent on the other line.
" What's wrong? "
" wha - ? Oh....nothing. I was just watching a couple down the street....".
Hitomi frowned," I see....".
" Yes....".
Her mother frowned, " Is something wrong? ".
" Oh no....but I'd better let you go now. I have to get Tony ready for our little walk to the park...".
" alright dear. I'll see you tomorrow night, and do take care of yourself. ".
Hitomi smiled, " Don't worry mom. I'll be able to do that....I'll see you tomorrow. Bye. ".
She placed the receiver back onto the hook and slowly stood up from the sofa. She walked down the hall and turned left, ending up in Tony's doorway. He was sitting on the ground, surrounded be toy trucks, cars, and tractors. He looked up at Hitomi and grinned, " Mommie! Hiya....we go to the park? Go see the duckies? ".
Hitomi felt her heart melt. She crossed the room and sat crossed legged on the ground. She looked at him and smiled, " yes we are sweetie. Come on...let's go before the ducks leave...".
He jumped up and stepped over the assorted vehicles scattered on the ground around him. He walked towards Hitomi and sat down on her lap. He slid his little arms around her neck and planted a wet kiss on her cheek, " Let's go now. Okay mommie? ".
Hitomi nodded and slid an arm around his waist. Standing up, she shifted him over so he'd be sitting comfortably on her hip. She walked with him over to the door, setting him down onto the ground, she bent over and tied his shoelaces. He watched her face as she tied his shoelaces. She looked up and smiled, then reached over and slid her bare feet into a pair of black, strappy sandals.
She wiggled her baby-blue painted toes before stepping out into the bright sun with Tony. She locked the door and then gently took his hand in hers. They headed down the street to the park.
Tony looked at the ground while they walked and Hitomi noticed that he had become more distant since they had left the house. She frowned lightly, " Tony? Baby, is there something on your mind? ".
Tony looked up at her and he had the same frown pastered to his face, " I miss daddy. ".
Hitomi swallowed and nodded, " I know baby...I know. ".
" Do you miss daddy too? ".
The question had caught her offguard," Of course I do. Why wouldn't I? ".
Tony shrugged. He remained silent the rest of the way there. When they finally reached the park, he tore his hand from her and took off after the ducks that were collected by the pond. Hitomi smiled lightly and went to sit on the grass in the shade. Her short, spagetthi strap sundress hiked higher up her legs and she quickly pulled it down with a frown as she stretched out her long legs out on the grass.
She watched as Tony was crouched down on the ground, looking at the ducks with fascination. She wrinkled her nose and smiled. A long strand of light brown hair whipped in front of her face and she reached up to brush it away. That's when she heard the voices.
" I'd love to stay, I mean....I love it here in Fanelia...but...I have to go back. ".
" It would be more then fine with me Hitomi, if you stayed here....in Fanelia. ".
She blinked hard and looked around in confusion, ' what's going on? I've heard that name before....but where? '.
The lost memory continued and this time she was able to catch a glimpse of the boy behind the mysterious voice that made her curious to find out who it was.
" You're always welcom here....in Fanelia, and Gaea. You know that...", he said softly as he looked into her eyes with his
own Reddish-brown ones.
' I've seen those eyes before....'
His pitch black hair swayed to the side as the light breeze ruffled it lightly. His face was kind and sincere. She looked at him and noticed that his eyes were filled with pain, love, and curiousity. His features were somewhat ruggish as if he had sustained a lot through his life and his baby-cuteness was making her go crazy.
" I know that....I will try to come back...", she promised him.
She swallowed and held out her hand, the pink pendant hung from her fingers. The man extended his hand and she lowered her hand onto his. He held her hand in his for awhile, and she looked into his eyes. The grip he had on her hand was gone, but she felt his hand again as it slid up her forearm gently until it rested holding her elbow. He then drew her into the comfort of his strong arms....
" Mommie! ", Tony's persistant voice snapped her back into reality.
She blinked and looked at him as he ran up to her, " what's wrong sweetie? ".
He plopped down onto the grass beside her, trying to catch his breath, " Whatcha doing? ".
' Having really strange....dreams? ', she thought, but then said instead. " Just sitting her...watching you chase the duckies...".
He shook his head, " No you weren't. You looked like you were sleeping. ".
She lifted an eyebrow, " But I wasn't....".
Tony frowned, " Yes you were....", he insisted.
" Alright baby, if you say so. ", she said in a soft voice. " Shall we head back for some supper? ".
He jumped up, " Yeah! ", he cried. " what will we have? ".
Hitomi shrugged as she gently took his hand in hers and began to walk home, " I don't know....".
The words of the unknown man echoed throughout her mind, and his reddish-brown eyes haunted her the entire way home, ' " You're always welcome here...in Fanelia, and Gaea. You know that...." '
***
Van slanzar de Fanel looked at his advisor Keldorn while he rambled about how great it would be if the King of Fanelia settled down with a Queen. Keldorn looked up at his King and then frowned. His clear blue eyes took on a hint of concern as he searched Van's face, " Sire? You alright? ".
Van frowned, " Why wouldn't I be Keldorn? ".
He shrugged uncomfortably, " Well...you look a little lost. I mean....ever since the deaths of Lady Aeria and little Tida..".
Van swallowed the lump of tears that had begun to form in his throat, " W-what do you mean? ".
" Well...you're...forgive me Sire, but...", he stopped and leaned forward and whispered in a low tone. " you're dragging your...uh, ass around the castle these days. You're never outside admiring the flowers in the courtyard or even the young noble women who pass by to see you. ".
Van flinched noticeably, " I'm sory....I just have so many things on my mind at the moment. ".
Keldorn nodded understanding what he meant. Van blew through his lips as he pursed them together. He turned his head to the side and looked out the window. He then stood up and walked to the door, " I'm going for a walk Keldorn. Would you please stay and try to hold up the fort while I'm gone? ".
Keldorn stood up and bowed deeply, " Sire. ".
Van nodded and then left the room in silence. He walked down the hall and turned left. He stood in front of the door that led to the courtyard. He took a deep breath and pulled the door open. He stepped out into the bright sun and inhaled the sweet scent of roses. The smell immediately brought back painful memories of when he would have Hitomi standing near him, or when he'd hold her in his arms. She smelt like roses as did Tida. When she was first born, she smelt like roses when he held her in his arms and nuzzled her baby soft face.
He closed his eyes against the memories, " I can't keep living in the past. I've got to keep going....got to move on. For the sake of Fanelia and for....myself....".
He opened his eyes and began to walk towards a shaded area. His black pants strained against his muscular legs as he walked. His red shirt was the same as it was when he was fifteen, only it clung to his chest and stomach like a second skin and it showed that he had grown up. His long black cape flared out behind him as he walked. His hands were covered in a pair of black gloves as he held them clasped behind his back. When he reached the tree he liked to lean against, he sat down on the soft grass and leaned his head back against the rough bark. He looked up at the leafs and sighed loudly. He felt a sharp prick on his leg and he grimaced.
He reached down into his pocket and pulled out the pink pendant. He looked at it and frowned. Then as if commanded to, it began to once again glow and swing from side to side. He shook his head and quickly placed it back into his pocket. His frown deepened as he felt something tug at the back of his mind. He quickly reached back into his pocket, pulling out the pendant. He smiled lightly and slipped the chain around his head. The pink pendant hung from his neck but it wouldn't stop glowing. He sighed and then closed his eyes. He felt himself slowly drift off into a deep sleep with the face of his first wife in his mind. She looked a lot like Hitomi herself, only Nalia had light blue hair and deep violet eyes.
***
Allen Crusade Schezar sighed lightly as he watched his four year old daughter Marianne sitting on a windowseat. she was flipping through a picture book that he had gotten for her 3rd birthday which was on (the) Blue 4th moon, a day after his. He carefully studied her face. She had Millerna's deep violet eyes, her figure - which he so much loved, and their blonde hair. He raked a hand through his own long blonde hair and quietly slipped from the room.
He walked down the hall to where he had left Millerna a few minutes ago. He found her standing by the window. She was tenderly rubbing her bulging stomach and she was talking to it, saying soft and loving words. He silently slipped up behind her. His arms went under hers as he hugged her from behind and pulled her against him. she sighed lightly and he frowned, " What is it? ".
Millerna Sara Aston Schezar closed her violet eyes and shook her head, " nothing Allen...the doctor was just here, and he said that baby Leon isn't due for another month or two. ".
Allen kissed her hair and smiled, " Reall? Interesting...I can't wait anymore. ", he said against her hair. " Can you? ".
She shook her head, " No...I can't. I just want to push him out now, but I can't....".
Allen chuckled loudly as he felt Millerna cover his hands with her own. She guided them over and around her stomach, " What are you doing? ".
" Shh! Just feel and enjoy....", she whispered quietly.
She began to move his hand slowly over and around her stomach, as if massaging it. She felt a hard kick and she sucked in a sharp breath. Allen knitted his brows together in concern, " What's wrong? Did I hurt you? ".
She shook her head, " No...Leon just kicked me...a little TOO hard. That's all. Don't worry Allen....".
He nodded, " So...", he slowly took his hands from hers and he spun her around to face him. She looked up at him and smiled lightly, " What's wrong Allen? ",
He shook his head and lowered his face to hers. He rested his forehead against hers and gazed lovingly into her eyes, " No, I'm just so happy. That's all. And if yuo're wondering why...it's because I have a beautiful princess for a wife and two beautiful charming children to go with my life. ".
Her smile widened and she lightly blew on his lips. Allen pulled away slowly. Millerna looked up at him frowning, " What's wrong now? ".
He looked down at her and lowered his face to hers. He smiled lightly and said before he captured her lips in his for a passionate kiss, " What makes you think that something would be wrong love? Nothing's wrong. It's all perfect. ".
Millerna pulled away from him. She looked at him with concern etched in her eyes, " Well....how's Van's doing? ".
Allen frowned and scratched his head, " I haven't heard from him since the day it happened. He's probably doing alright...".
Millerna quirked an eyebrow, " Really? You think so? ".
He nodded, " yea...."
" I think we should go se- ".
Allen cut in, " Millerna...no! We can't. ".
She frowned. She placed her hands on her hips, and narrowed her eyes, " And why can't we Allen? ".
" Because! ", he snapped. " We have to give him time to grieve. He just lost his little girl...and his second wife. ".
Millerna looked hurt, " You didn't have to snap at me Allen Crusade Schezar! And I know he just lost his family. ".
Allen flinched at the name she used when she was pissed off and he sighed in frustration, " I'm sorry Millerna, I didn't mean to snap love...I-I just don't know what I would do if I lost you and Marianne. ".
She let out a breath that she didn't know she was holding. She walked up to him and slipped her arms around his neck. He surpressed a groan and buried his face into the curve of her neck, inhaling the light scent of vanilla that she wore, as he wrapped his arms around her bulging waist. Millerna reached up and began to twirl a strand of his long blonde hair around her finger.
She quietly whispered into his ear as she kissed his temple lightly, " A-allen...don't worry. You won't ever lose me or Marianne. Ever! You have the word of a princess....".
" I better not lose you. My life would end up like Van's....and I don't want that to happen...", he said against her neck.
His warm breath caressed her neck gently and she shivered, " Well...? ", she sid impatienty.
" What? ", he siad as he pulled away and looked down at her.
" Are we going to go see him....or not? ".
Allen sighed in defeat as he noticed the look of pure determination in her eyes, " Alright...we'll go and pay him a little unexpected visit. ".
Her eyes lit up and she smiled, " Great! Shall we bring Marianne along? ".
Allen nodded slowly, " Sure....I'm sure she'd like to meet him, and also Merle....".
" Ahh...Merle. I forgot about her....", she chuckled lightly.
" Yeah.....shall we begin packing for an overnighter? ".
Millerna nodded, " Yea....I'll go get Marianne ready. ".
He nodded. He walked towards her and smoothed away her bangs from her forehead before he kissed her lightly, "
Yea....better hurry love. ".
" Right ", she said as she turned and left Allen alone in the room to brood over his thoughts and worries about their trip to Fanelia.