Alright guys this is YamadaTsukamoto with another story hell yes :D this one's gonna be a chapter based fic so stay tuned for another update pretty soon :3 btw I love Ouran :D

These thoughts ran through his mind, there pestilence brought many more thoughts. The more he tried to get them away...the more they came back and burned into his mind.

What...?

What do you mean?

No!

Please don't!

Anything but that!

Please!

...

I can't do this! Please...just let me know what I can do!

Fine, if that's how you want things to be, then fine...

The whole world seemed to hate him, his usual golden brown eyes burned with the swelling from all the crying and all the drinking. Ever since the argument with Kaoru he's been depressed and did not attend the club after school, because the twins live in the same home, Hikaru has been out all day every day somewhere away from home and only comes back home late at night to sleep and leaves early in the morning to stay away from Kaoru. His body numb and lifeless, almost like a walking undead person. Hikaru's bright auburn hair had lost its unique shine, his eyes no longer a bright golden brown but a dull brown. He can still remember his argument with his brother, and secret lover, Kaoru Hitachiin.

Flashback:

"Wh...why?"

"It's for the best Hikaru, you'll understand this soon enough." Hikaru was on the brink of tears, Kaoru just stood there, bangs covering his eyes as he reminded his brother of the incident Hikaru took place in with Renge, the club's self proclaimed manager. They were in the music room where the club always hung out, it was 9pm and they finished up their cleaning for the day then.

"Understand? How can I understand? How can you do this? After all we've been through...Kaoru, I thought YOU of all people would have understood what happened with me and Renge! I TOLD you, it was before us, and I couldn't HELP it! I was practically FORCED into it!" Hikaru remembered the incident clearly now that Kaoru had brought it up, Hikaru and Renge were at one point secretly together after Renge got over Kyouya. Hikaru didn't ever consider it, but he just decided to go along with it and give her a chance.

Months passed and Hikaru and Renge were at a party, next thing Hikaru knew he was laying next to Renge naked, the first thing that came to mind is that they had sex, and he didn't tell anybody at all for the fear of being judged. After they went home he broke up with her, deciding it was all just too much for him. Renge practically raped him, she drugged him and had sex with him.

Renge was going around and telling people that he was just a sex crazed maniac only burning with lust and no emotion. Most people did not believe her, but there were some who did. Hikaru could never tell who hated him and who didn't.

"But STILL, you never told me! You didn't say you had sex with her! For all I know you could've raped her!" Kaoru's voice was now rising, his rage at his brother slowly increasing. The twins never have fought this badly before.

Hikaru's heart broke as he processed what his brother had said, his blood went cold, and his brain went numb, of all people he thought would hate him...he never thought it would be Kaoru. Hikaru looked down to the floor, his eyes wet and aching, tears running down his cheeks like a broken faucet.

"Fine Kaoru...if that's how you want it. You know, I trusted you so much, brother, but now I see. I see you never did believe in me. All our time spent together were just a joke to you huh? Tomorrow I'm leaving, I'm leaving from this country to go to America. Don't bother coming to say good bye to me Kaoru, because by the time you decide to care I'll be gone from here." he spoke in his soft tone of voice. And before Kaoru could say anything back at him he dashed off and disappeared, leaving Kaoru shocked and in repent for what he had told Hikaru.

End Flashback.

CLIFFHANGERRRRRR. Haha don't you guys just love these cliffhangers? xD well I'll be updating this story soon and I'll have the next chapter up hopefully by this weekend so let's hope for the best eh? :D btw I hope its well, give feedback so I can make story better please? :3

Cheers!

-YamadaTsukamoto