If somebody would ask Yondu to use two words to show what he´s feeling right now, that words would be : pain and loss.

He doesn't know what he should do, think or say. He doesn't know if someone is talking to him and he doesn't realize which hand is gently hold his shoulder. He hears so many voices : some are crying, some are screaming.

But even in this chaos of yelling, he recognize one calm - almost whispering voice. His owner is probably the one who still holds his shoulder with slightly shaking fingers.

But that doesn't matter. Nothing is really matter...

Only thing what's matter to Yondu is body which is still lying in his arms. Frozen, silent ... dead body.

His boy's body. His son's body.. Frozen, silent.. dead..

Dead.

Dead.

"My boy... why are ya so silent ?" he think. "Why did ya do that, you idiot?"

In act of pure despair, Quill somehow gave up his suit and and slapped it on the blue man's back. Half-frozen Yondu could only watch how damn galaxy took the life out of his boy. He could only watching how life's light in Quill's leaving.

It took few minutes until other guardians came for them but it was too late. Quill's heart (clearly weaked thanks that fucking jackass) stopped. Light was gone, life was gone.

After twenty-six years of trying, protecting and caring about this kid. He developed a close fondness of Quill. He never said it but the boy was the best of him. But even after all his best trying, Ego found a way to break him in the end.

Ego won. Ego didn't have to survive battle, but he won the war. That felt like shot through the heart.

Yondu lost Stakar, he lost his first family, he lost his loyal ones from his crew and.. and now he lost the son.

But technically...

He lost him the first time when the boy stole from him the Orb, and then they brought him back from universe with his new green girl, and then he lost him again to his other family.

And now, he is losing him to death. Three times, Yondu lost his boy. Three times,he had the chance to tell him everything he wanted to tell him, and three times Yondu ruined it.

He ruined so many things. He dissapointed all those children.

Dammit!

Ignis, Uru, Vulmaro, Tenzing and... and Bellona and Astrid, Elian..Quill..

Even Quill.. they are dead, the are gone!

"It just hurts.."

"It hurts so much."

"It just hurts so much."

" Captain, please let him go..ya an't help him anymore."

It takes moment before he finally realize that the calm voice which was talking to him for awhile belongs to Kraglin. With the all his left strength, he look at him. He can't see him very well. It's probably because his eyes are half-frozen but he can feel they are full of tears. Is he crying? He can't even remember when he cried last time...

But he let his arms still protective around Quill' body. He just can't let him go. He can't do it.. His boy... is lying here and he can't leave him. No, he will not leave him...

Kraglin gently squeezes his shoulder with shaking fingers.

"Sure"

Despite all jealousy, Kraglin likes Peter too. To be fair, all crew was mad because Yondu's soft part for Quill. Captain shouldn't have a favorite.

"Well now just liked " another painful hit.

Then Yondu look around. Friends of boy are here. Rat is standing like statue without doing anything and Twig is crying, hugging Quill's foot. The green ex-daughter of Thanos is sitting next to him and holds Peter's hand in her's hands, her eyes are empty but.. she looks kinda empty and dead inside. She kiss Peter's cheek and then stare at the other girl - "Mantis" as he believes.

"Out" Gamora mutters and her voice is full of rage.

"I just.."

"OUT!" shrieks now. Everybody is quiet as sobbing girl running away. Yondu doesn't understand what's going on but he doesn't care..

Probably in Gamora's eyes the bug's girl was a somehow guilty like Ego. But even if that was truth.. it's pity but Yondu can't even go mad. For him was his fire's out. After all, Ravenger without flames is not a Ravenger. Captain without crew and is not Captain.

And..

„ If ya have a kid and kid dies.. Do ya stop saying ya have him? Or are ya always daddy?" he asks out loud and doesn't care if it is sentiment or not. Why should he ?

Pause.

Suddenly Gamora look at him and in her eyes he see something strange for ex-assasin. It is gratitude. Without saying anything she put her forehead against his shoulder and start crying. Like from a pure reflex he hug her with right arm and bring her closer to him.

Strange. All this scene is so strange.

Ex-Kree warrior slave and daughter of Thanos are hugging each other as they're crying silent tears, both holding a body of boy who for them means more than thousand worlds.

Somewhere behind Yondu, a big grey guy "Drax" declare the answer for his question. His voice is tearful but firm.

„ If anyone would ever dare to say, I'm not anymore daddy to my little girl only because she is on better place, I would cut off his head."

Yondu turns to him surprisely. He had no idea...

So the big guy also lost the child. Child who he loved. Child who died and let on his dad's heart lifelong scar... He will never ever love somebody same way as he loved that kid.

„Thanks." That is all what he's able to say.