Only Sometimes

Nutcase

Loopy

Loony Lovegood

Names are cruelly thrown my way

And sometimes

Only sometimes

I wonder if it is worth this

Being me

Being {different}

I never did anything

To bring this on

I'm only *myself*

But s/o/m/e/t/i/m/e/s

Only sometimes

Being myself is too diFferent

So the (names)

And the [teasing]

And the {pranks} are brought on

And I never let them s-e-e

How much they sometimes hurt me

Because if they knew

How much it *really* hurt

It would hurt them

And I have never meant to harm

But {sometimes}

Only sometimes(I swear)

I do

So I retreat

Into the depths of my mind

With the Nargels

And the Snorkacks

And the fairystories

That end in *happily ever after*

To get away

From the

Crumpling

Crushing

Depression

That {grips my mind}

Until my heart curls up

Like a flower at dusk

And sometimes

(Only sometimes)

I start to .cry.

But never in front of anyone

Because you are Luna

U/n/t/o/u/c/h/a/b/l/e

Un-break-able

-Unreachable- Luna

But inside I am so b-rok-en

My heart . .d fragments of glass

With a few pieces (missing?)

So it can never be put {back together)

Which is why sometimes

*Only sometimes*

I reach under the pillow

For the cool metal

Awaiting the *numbness*

And -detachment-

It is sure to bring

?And ?I ?ask ?why?

Why is it always like this

Not sometimes

But always

And I press the blade

Into the *soft skin* behind my ankle

Because I am ::different::

And no one ever looks at my ankles

Covered with socks&shoes

(Hidden) from the world

But he is there

He came in when I thought I was

(Alone)

And he takes the blade

From my hand

And I .cry.

Onto his shoulder

And he holds my hand

And tells me that sometimes

Only sometimes

It is ok to show

How much it hurt

And to let it all out

The feelings

The anger

The disappointment

At me

At you

At the world

And it all comes out because

He says he cares

About ME

And it's always

Not only s/o/m/e/t/i/m/e/s

But !Always!

It is ok to be you

To be *Different*

AN:/ Don't forget to leave to leave reviews... actually, no one ever "forgets" to leave a review so how about this, Don't make a conscious decision to not review! Before another person asks me to make another poem, I have another one posted that only has 23 views, so check it out. It's called Lost Innocents and it's written in the same style