My whole body went numb. I couldn't feel anything below the neck. I could hear the blood pounding faster than normal behind my ears, and I was dizzy, I found it hard to concentrate, I tried to breathe normally, as my brain was urging me to wake up from this nightmare. Suddenly time made no sense, the couple of minutes that mum had been holding me seemed to pass like hours. I couldn't make sense out of anything, life just seemed pointless now, as soon as his image had faded I knew that love, life, meaning were all over. My legs were shaking and I knew they wouldn't be able to hold me for much longer. I could feel mum's arms on my back, she had lost the love of her life once but it couldn't have felt like this. All I could feel were depression, disbelief, anger, sadness and much more rolled into one.
5 hours. He had told me, always wait five hours, so that's what I was going to do. I would have waited 5 days if I could, 5 months, just sitting and waiting, he had to find a way back, he always did. That's what he taught me. Never give up. Everything just seemed to wash over me after that. I looked out toward the ocean, trying to remember our last conversation.
"I'm burning up a sun just to say goodbye," my heart melted at the thought, him hopelessly messing around with TARDIS controls, working for hours just to see me one last time.
"Rose Tyler: Defender of The Earth!" his eyes shone and his voice sounded so proud. He showed me a huge grin, exposing all his teeth. I loved that grin. But I could do anything but smile; when this was the last time I was ever going to see him, My best friend, my knight in shining armour, the one person who would take my hand when I felt bad and show me things that I didn't even know existed.
My heart breaks when I think of him all alone, walking around the TARDIS like he does. However knowing him, he will probably be getting into some kind of trouble at this very minute, trying to save the world from some form of evil. I looked up into the sky and started to wonder how long it had been raining, it was coming down really heavily, and couldn't tell if the wet on my cheeks were drops of rain or tears. At least he knew now. He would always know, whenever he thought of me, if he thought of me, my true feelings. The thing that I had been dying to tell him ever since he grabbed my hand at Henrik's, those three powerful words that we had never admitted to each other but everyone else could somehow see it was there. The numbness was still there, I still found it hard to breath, as still my head pounded and my eyes ached. My heart had broken into two pieces, I would always have one part, but then so would he. I would never again be complete. As his image had faded, I had not just lost him, but my whole world.
I looked at my watch…five hours had passed.
I slowly walked away from the spot were I had last seen him, my head down, It was over. He was gone.
Goodbye Doctor…